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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Oct 20, 2020 06:34AM
and I feel like that shows my personality more than anything else baha
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and Wendy like from Wendy's the restaurant
the kind of sad that makes me contemplate why I'm even alive
the kind of sad that reminds me I'm not going to make it to 18
the kind of sadness that makes me want to quit my job and drop out of school
the kind of sadness that I have to pretend I'm over
the kind of sadness that my medicine doesn't take away
the kind of sadness that screams GO KILL YOURSELF whenever the room gets too silent
the kind that says you're fat and counts calories without you using a calculator because if you're being honest the only reason you got into advanced math is because you obsess over numbers
you don't care about the skin- a part of you will always just wanna see bones
the kind that lets you think i just wanna leave and die and i don't care if the world burns in fact let it ill take everyone and everything with me
the kind that wishes this virus would kill us all
i miss when I was a part of an awesome community
because now it's ruined for me and I can't get it back
Because J K Rowling once saved my life and now she hates people like me and that makes me really sad
because I really wish she was a good person
she wrote a good series but the magic has faded and we can see her for who she really is
and I hate that she makes me hate myself now
like that's why I haven't been able to pick up a book and read it or finish it or
I'm scared I'm going to read a book and fall in love with it only to realize that the author is a really shitty person who hates people like me for just existing
and I tried to pretend it didn't matter
that the same person who once saved you could destroy you
could make you feel like you're insignificant and like you don't belong in this world
and you know she was rejected so many times before she was published so she knows rejection
and it's like she was a home away from home
Hogwarts was my home too and she took it away
and you know what really fucking sucks
jk rowling actions remind me of this persons actions
and i doubt they know that they've pissed me off, much less hurt me
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
