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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Feb 04, 2020 09:48PM

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you don't need to prove your sexuality to anyone.

you don't need to prove your sexuality to anyone."
thank you, that's what I'm constantly trying to remind myself.


I hate that you just left. You didn't give me anything. You just disappeared and you didn't give a fuck about how you hurt me. You didn't even reject me so that I could hope of getting over you. We were supposed to remain friends over everything else. i thought you would rather me be honest. But you wanna know what sucks? I don't know if I was the reason. Maybe you were just having a really bad day and you erased yourself from all social media, or maybe your parents made you delete it, or maybe there was some other reason- I don't know. Just maybe it wasn't my fault. But here's' the thing, I'll never know. Because you couldn't even break my heart. You just left me.
But you wanna know what's weird? I don't think I loved you in the way that I made it seem. Maybe it wasn't romantic. Or maybe I'm trying to pretend I'm getting over you because I want to, not because you left me. I don't know. Maybe it was just really strong, intense platonic love. And maybe I scared you away with my feelings and I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for telling you, for hurting you, for making you feel like you had to leave. I miss us being friends, dreaming up adventures, and telling stories. I'm sorry I broke us.
Sincerely,
Me

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