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[Erin]

MAYBE MY LOVE IS WHAT MAKES ME SCARED

[Erin]

OMG AHHH

[[deleted user]]

you okay maan?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "erinn *hugs*"

alexxxxxxx *hugs back* ily"

ilyt!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "okay so you know that person I mentioned toward like the end of my journal and whenever I talk about crushes or love it's always her I go back to? well if you didn't, you know now.

anyways, I was ..."

omg i was thinking the same thing about Jon!! because i realized i'm aromantic last week, and i have strong platonic attraction instead of romantic attraction

[Erin]

Melody wrote: "you okay maan?"

maybe

[Erin]

Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "erinn *hugs*"

alexxxxxxx *hugs back* ily"

ilyt!!"

<3

[Erin]

Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: "okay so you know that person I mentioned toward like the end of my journal and whenever I talk about crushes or love it's always her I go back to? well if you didn't, you know now.

an..."

omg I thought I was just thinking weird about it or that maybe it was all just in my head or something, but the fact that you've been thinking about something similar with Jon makes me feel like it might actually be the case

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: "okay so you know that person I mentioned toward like the end of my journal and whenever I talk about crushes or ..."

are we secretly siblings or something? because we were thinking similar things


it just feels so- like i used to be so big on romance and thinking of myself as a "love-expert" and i spent years thinking i was in love (or maybe it was me just WANTING-) because romance is everywhere (just like how it is with straight stuff) to the point where it's expected for everyone to fall in love eventually and i just- and before i realized i'm aro, i identified as demiromantic and ever since i started questioning, i started realizing a lot about my past crushes, and how they were all just forced crushes, jon was the only one that it wasn't forced but i don't think my feelings for him were romantic but maybe they were strong platonic feelings (it's kind of hard to remember what it was like at the time because it was a long time ago) but now i'm aro and i can't see myself with anyone romantically and i can't see myself getting married eventually

[[deleted user]]

Erin wrote: "Melody wrote: "you okay maan?"

maybe"

So I'm guessing no?

[[deleted user]]

I’m Faith I’m here for anyone. Now fill me in

[Erin]

Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: "okay so you know that person I mentioned toward like the end of my journal and whenever I talk abou..."

omg maybe!!!! or maybe we're just.... identical...thinkers? XD I dunno haha

and literally same!!! I feel like love has just been so pun not intended romanticized and like maybe because it was seen everywhere I felt like I had to have it? maybe like it was expected of me or something? oh and there was a time where I was thinking I'm demiromantic as well and tbh I'm still questioning myself on whether I'm demiromantic or aro because I'm not entirely sure right now. And I guess that's one of the things I really need to think about because I've always loved the idea of marriage but I've never really been able to see myself get married either. But I get what you mean with not being able to remember what it was like since it was so long ago because sometimes I feel like that too

[Erin]

Melody wrote: "Erin wrote: "Melody wrote: "you okay maan?"

maybe"

So I'm guessing no?"

I really don't know rn tbh

[Erin]

Faith wrote: "I’m Faith I’m here for anyone. Now fill me in"

Hi Faith! That's very nice of you! :)

I'm Erin, this is my place of placiness jk I don't know. There is a chemical imbalance in my brain that makes me feel crazy and I'm trying to learn how to cope with that. I had a "crush" on this girl who I met on this website, she ended up disappearing, but now I'm questioning whether my feelings for her were actually romantic feelings or whether they were platonic. And I think that's all the big stuff. If you have any questions though, feel free to ask :)

[Erin]

GUYYYYYYSSSSSS I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME

[Erin]

I THINK I'M A SCREWUP OF A SCREWDRIVER

[Erin]

BUT HOW ARE YOU FRENCH FRIES

[Erin]

oooh

[Erin]

let me give you a bunch of random information you may or may not know about me

[Erin]

1. I'm panromantic asexual questioning aromantic/demiromantic

[Erin]

2. I'm a vegetarian

[Erin]

2.5 tho that may be false and I may be the one that eats fish that starts with a p

[Erin]

2.6 when I'm older I'm leaning toward being Vegan though because I'll be in charge of my own grocery list

[Erin]

3. I have Depression and Anxiety in basic symptom words because I'm still not sure whether I was actually ever properly diagnosed

[Erin]

4. I am a writer. I'm working on this book about this Queen without her Queendom right now

[Erin]

5. I'm in Drama Club and we're working on a play right now

[Erin]

6. Grilled Cheese in my favorite food and the person in charge of our drama club made me yell grilled cheese at the curtain to practice projection

[[deleted user]]

7. YOu seem pretty lit

[Erin]

Awe, thank you! :)

[Erin]

YOU SEEM PRETTY LIT TOO OMG

[[deleted user]]

:) I'm Kai btw, it's nice to meet you!

[Erin]

I LOVE YOUR FRIENDLY NEIGHBORHOOD GAY SMOL BEAN THAT'S ADORABLE OMG

[Erin]

AND JUST OVERALL AMAZING

[[deleted user]]

XDD I figured *HEY! WHY NOT I MEAN.....I'm SO weird!

[Erin]

Kaidence ~Your friendly Neighborhood Gay Smol Bean~ wrote: ":) I'm Kai btw, it's nice to meet you!"

Hi Kai! It's nice to meet you too!

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Thank you!
I personally love it a lot XD

[Erin]

8. I love caps

[Erin]

9. I get excited easily

[Erin]

Kaidence ~Your friendly Neighborhood Gay Smol Bean~ wrote: "XDD I figured *HEY! WHY NOT I MEAN.....I'm SO weird!"

Kaidence ~Your friendly Neighborhood Gay Smol Bean~ wrote: "Thank you!
I personally love it a lot XD"

Weirdness is the best virtue given to mankind XD

Haha yay! It's even better if you love it! :D

have you heard friendly neighborhood poltergeist???

[[deleted user]]

:D Nope! Enlighten me!

[Erin]

Omg, you haven't??? Ahhh you gotta listen to the song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=avGGV...

[Erin]

(oh it's the name of a song haha sorry for my lack of explanation)

[[deleted user]]

I will later XD
Bedtime soon.

[Erin]

Okay haha! Goodnight for whenever you go to sleep! :D

[Erin]

ooh damn some of my people are doing a writing livestream right now

[Erin]

imma go and write be back later maybe?

[[deleted user]]

you do youuuuuu :D

[[deleted user]]

My friend feels sick, I hope she feels better.

[Erin]

Haha yassss I always do me lol

[Erin]

And awe Melody I'm sorry to hear that! I hope she feels better soon as well!!!!