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trying to feel like me again
Anyways hello ladies, bros, ladybros, and genderfluid and nonbinary pals and all those in between or out of the loop XD
Hope you're having a fantastic day! And if you're not, know that bad times are just times that are bad
That was a line from Animal Crossing I'm pretty sure XD
in the stars,she felt worth it
but down the rabbit hole,
she hatched a plan
- and suddenly she was a day dreamer once more
i am sad i am sadoh but when i'm happy,
i'm so fucking happy
and isn't that what you wanted me to be anything but sad
as long as i'm alive and okay
nothing else really matters,
is that what you would say?
you just want to feel like a good personso let me let your toxins in, poison me,
and maybe you will see,
that you are not the person
you say you want to be
when the tree sleepsand when the cradle rocks,
won't you say you love me
and this is how it works?
ohh but you say
look down,
you're talking to your highness
you're in charge you're in control
i'm just a monster a disaster upon an open sky
yeah won't you say you
yeah won't you say you
won't you say you
won't you say you love me
you love me
Flashlight by The Front BottomsPlease fall asleep so I can take pictures of you and hang them in my room
so when I wake up feel like yeah everything's alright
You are still here, you are still happy, you are still smiling and laughing
you are still the only thing and everything I need in my life
And it goes in in out through the mouth - breathing exercises
I will never figure out til I am running in circles
or (I am) walking in circles or (I am) crawling in circles or lying on the ground
And I can hear your dog whistle from my bedroom
Yeah yeah
And I can see a flashlight cutting up the trees behind my house
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
She's says a lot of the kids we graduated with are now homeless
which puts them in mad shady situations with mad shady people
if not everyday then on an every other day basis
And she's probably with a few of them right now
and they are probably just drinking and talking about
how she misses getting fucked up and hanging around
And he says "Hey you're good at that" and she says "Thanks, it's kind of all I got,"
and then she looks away and says "It's also all I need."
And I can smell plastic burning I can smell chemicals breaking down.
I got your last three e-mails the ones where you said, "I was sorting some things out"
And he will be able to hear her dog whistle from his bedroom
Yeah yeah
And I can see a flashlight cutting up the trees behind my house
Yeah yeah
And I will read the flashing like a morse code explanation
that will mean nothing but take all night to figure out, out, out...
(Please fall asleep so I can take pictures of you and hang them in my room
so when I wake up feel like yeah everything's alright)
when I am sad, I am sad - but when I'm happy, oh god I'm happy
there's just no place in-between for us to meet
(You are still here, you are still happy, you are still smiling and laughing
you are still the only thing and everything I need in my life)
when I am sad, I am sad - but when I'm happy, oh god I am happy
there's just no place in-between for us to meet
(Please fall asleep so I can take pictures of you and hang them in my room
so when I wake up feel like yeah everything is alright)
when I am sad, oh god I'm sad - but when I'm happy, I am happy
there's just no place in-between for us to meet
(You are still here, you are still happy, you are still smiling and laughing
you are still the only thing and everything I need in my life)
when I am sad, oh god I am sad - but when I'm happy, I am happy
and there's just no place in-between for us to meet
Every time I try not to think about her, it makes me think of her more. And it’s like even when I’m not trying not to think about her she’s still on my mind. I just don’t understand why she just had to disappear like that, so fast, so quick. It’s unfair, she could’ve said goodbye. She could’ve said anything. This would’ve been easier if I could just know that this was her choice, that she’s not hurt or sick or dead or I don’t know. I miss her. I really miss her. I know that this is selfish of me because I vanished for months, but it had only been me who disappeared, not my account, she could’ve still messaged me. I would have noticed. I would have cared. Why doesn’t she believe me? Why’d she have to leave me? I need an answer or something, anything that’ll tell me she's still alive and kicking and wishing for a mint green vehicle with rainbow stickers and photos and a furry white dog.
This is why I didn't want to fall in love
I'm always the one who gets too attached
And she really deserves so much better and to be happy and okay and to be able to just live life however she wants to without anything or anyone holding her back
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sometimes i wnt to go on a walk and never come back
or anything that will get me from feeling this emptiness and sadness and stupid built up energy
i just wanted to be okay enough to live for my family why does nothing ever work i can't keep doing this
How broken do you have to be, to get everyone to just stop caring, to just stop loving and wanting me around?
Because my head is spinning and I don't know where I'm going from here
For saying all the wrong things and being imperfect and hating myself and spreading negativity
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHELLO :D
HOW IS EVERYONE TODAY?
ANYTHING NEW?
ANYTHING OLD?
SOMETHING SMALL?
SOMETHING BIG?
LOL I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING, BUT HOPE YOU'RE ALL OKAY XD
My favorite flower is dandelions, I think
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
Awee but you're amazing so you deserve happiness and so does Val and Kim but I'm like an impossible asshole so forget about me :D