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[Erin]

Okay so I really want to redo my hero's journey project for The Odyssey but it's do tomorrow and I'm lazy so

[Erin]

I got to choose my classes for next year today

[Erin]

We don't have to submit them until Sunday though

[Erin]

I don't even think I'm going to be alive for that long

[Erin]

Seriously though wtf is life so terrible?

[Erin]

You'd think me getting to be leader of a country would be enough but nooo

[Erin]

I just want to hurry up and go to college

[Erin]

I'm tired of this house and these people

[Erin]

And this bed

[Erin]

I hate air mattresses.

[Erin]

They're so lumpy and they move too much and they lose air

[Erin]

I complain too much

[Erin]

Erin just wanted to sleep but Alec was like no do you're homework

[Erin]

And then I cried for an hour

[Erin]

That's seriously what happened

[Erin]

I tried to tell Hannah that I was suicidal and that it didn't feel like it was my medicine but she only said that maybe it was a side effect of my medicine and that I should tell my mom

[Erin]

I feel like I've kinda been avoiding her ever since

[Erin]

Like not really but sorta

[Erin]

I'm annoyed

[Erin]

and tired

[Erin]

so goodnight :)

[Tamra]

Hey Erin, can you add me as a friend again, idk why it took you off.

[Erin]

Valentine Horratio Ransome "Jeff the Killer" ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~FREAK~ ~Little Miss Political Agenda~ ~WIZARD!~ ~Sunshine~ wrote: "Don't die on me. People care and life isn't hopeless and there is nothing wrong with loving a girl I support you! *hugs*"

I'm not in the position to make that a promise right now but thank you. *hugs back*

[Erin]

also, I know there's nothing wrong with loving a girl, I just don't think I'm really in the mindset to be loving anyone, or that the particular girl I'm in love with deserves me as I feel like I'll only burden her.

[Erin]

Here we go again, my nephew being a spoiled brat and making me feel like shit for it

[Erin]

I just wanted to teach him how to play the game correctly

[Erin]

but nooo

[Erin]

all he wants to do is cheat is cheat is cheat

[Erin]

and if he really wants to be a winner as badly as he claims so HE SHOULD LEARN TO PLAY THE FUCKING GAME AND STOP BITCHING ABOUT IT

[Erin]

So what I'm a bad assholish aunt because I didn't explain it to him beforehand

[Erin]

I just went ahead and changed stuff

[Erin]

but HE WASN'T LISTENING

[Erin]

Because he never fucking does

[Erin]

I'm so tired of him making me feel like a bad person

[Erin]

and I have my values, and I'm not going to drop them just for a four year old

[Tamra]

Erin?

[Erin]

I feel so sad today

[Erin]

Like super duper sad

[Erin]

Like I really just want to go jump off the tallest fucking building around me, face a fear and fulfill a wish at the same time

[Erin]

I can't do that though

[Erin]

It's unfair

[Erin]

I have to wait at least three years after my heart gets broken so she won't think it's her fault because it's not

[Erin]

My mind is just so fucked up

[Erin]

And if she does love me- I really hope she doesn't

[Erin]

I think I'm more afraid of our feelings being mutal

[Erin]

because I want her in my life and I'm scared I've screwed things up because not only did I confess, I tried to kill myself

[Erin]

I mean wtf is wrong with me

[Erin]

To want to die so badly that I lack any meaning or attention to the people that surround me

[Erin]

gods I'm so stupid

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin i love you so much, you mean a lot to me, you are one of my best friends and i love you so much