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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Sep 16, 2018 12:50PM
Push them all away and one day they'll stop pushing back,
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and they'll leave because they're so tired of waiting for an answer that you'll never give?
Is this why you want to leave? Make them all think you have some great future in mind, convince them you're the most logical and smartest of the bunch, but then throw it all away just because you can't breathe?
Is this what you want? Is this what you need? The satisfaction of tearing them all apart?
You say you want to be selfish, and you've done the worst you could. You cared for others and now you're pretending like it doesn't mean a thing
What's the point of living for the future if you can't even live for now? You're so caught up in everything getting better but you're so scared of the fact you know it won't
I'm so fucking tired. Why the hell am I still trying?
I don't want to live for anyone else though
I just want to be able to live for myself
*hugs* Sorry I'm such a pessimist, but you're right. Sometimes I just wish there wasn't, though. And I'm sorry about that, too. I keep deciding to leave and come back at random moments and I've pretty much been trying to avoid any conversations because I'm a disoriented mess.
I'm so tired. My health is terrible right now because like everyone at my school seems to have a cold and my immune system sucks and my mental health is ehhh
One's Spanish and the other is a vocab for adv. world studies
I can't focus though because my head hurts
I think I've decided that I'm going to wait until January before I think about fully coming back to Goodreads. I kinda doubt my mental health getting better but I'm going to be super busy until then. Next month I'm doing a bunch of NaNo Prepping and hopefully I'll get some filming done. I'm trying to meet a deadline at the end of this month too, although I don't know how well that's going to work out. In November, NaNo is actually happening. And in December, well I actually don't have anything planned for then yet, so maybe I'll think about coming back then. I don't know yet, for now I'm saying January. I'll probably come on every now and then like I am now but idk.
Erin (Hiatus~) wrote: "I wish I'd just give up already"NO GIVING UP
ERIN TODAY I SAW A PERSON WEARING A CAMP HALF-BLOOD T-SHIRT
Valentine Horratio Ransome "Jeff the Killer" ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~FREAK~ ~Little Miss Political Agenda~ ~WIZARD!~ ~Sunshine~ wrote: "I hope you succeed! I've been attempting the same. Until next time. ;)"Thanks!! I hope you succeed, too! :D
Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin (Hiatus~) wrote: "I wish I'd just give up already"NO GIVING UP"
Sounds like a good option.
Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "ERIN TODAY I SAW A PERSON WEARING A CAMP HALF-BLOOD T-SHIRT"AHHHHHH THAT'S AMAZING
Hope life is going good or something XD
I received a pep talk yesterday after having an anxiety attack after presenting
It still surprises me how good some people are lol
It figures, now that I've picked a month that I'll come back, all I want to do is be on.
I'm so incredibly sad right now and I shouldn't be
Today was a good day and now I'm crying like an idiot over the smallest thing
I'm really starting to hate children a lot more
THEY'RE OBNOXIOUS AND THEY ACT LIKE THEY KNOW EVERYTHING WHEN THEY'RE REALLY IGNORANT TO THE THINGS HAPPENING AROUND THEM UGH
Like I'm about to have a freaking meltdown because they're stupid and I have a migraine
ahhh I wanna cry I just finished the final Magnus Chase book
it's cause it's a Riordan book, you know
Erin (Hiatus~) wrote: "mel! :D"aka thelma!
hi!
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