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trying to feel like me again
I wish they would just stay awake with me
Okay but I'm like slowly trying to come back to Goodreads but I shouldn't only do it in these moods. That'd be bad for my health, not that I really care
Anyways imma go for now so byeeeeee :P
OMG HOLY SMOKES LIKE I JUST GOT A NEW NOVEL IDEA AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO BECAUSE IT'S KINDA WEIRD BUT I KINDA LIKE IT BUT I SHOULD ALSO BE FOCUSING ON MY CURRENT NOVEL AND IT'S KINDA ONLY WEIRD BECAUSE MY FAMILY IS WEIRD ALTHOUGH THAT'S NOT ENTIRELY IT. AND ALSO I STARTED WATCHING A NEW ANIME AND IT'S SO GOOD AND I'M FEELING THE FEELS AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW AND HE WAS LIKE I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I FEEL LIKE WE WON'T BE TOGETHER NEXT CHRISTMAS AND I'M AN EMOTIONAL MESS AND I SHIP THE GIRL WITH HIS FRIEND EVEN THOUGH HE LIKES HER BECAUSE HIS FRIEND LOVES HER AND SHE LOVES HIM BUT NOW HE'S ON A PLANE TO AMERICA AND WON'T BE BACK FOR MONTHS ACCORDING TO HIS BROTHER AND OMG THE MAIN CHARACTER IS SUCH A SWEET HEART BECAUSE HE JUST WANTS THE GIRL TO BE HAPPY AND HE REALIZED THAT HE WAS IN LOVE WITH HER THE WAY SHE WAS IN LOVE WITH HIS FRIEND AND JUST SHIT AND ALSO I MET MY WORD COUNT FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE THE THIRD YESTERDAY BUT I HAVEN'T WRITTEN ALL DAY SO I SHOULD GO WRITE. GOOD DAY TO YA, AND I'LL SEE Y'ALL NEXT TIME. BYE!!!!!
I'm such a shitty person, and that's all for today.
New day. I think I'll pull an all nighter. Well I guess I kinda already have, but I think I'm not going to go to sleep when morning hits. Let's see how it goes.
Erin (Hiatus~) wrote: "New day. I think I'll pull an all nighter. Well I guess I kinda already have, but I think I'm not going to go to sleep when morning hits. Let's see how it goes."I changed my mind. I'm going to sleep because I haven't made any progress and I'm tired of thinking.
"Some writing days are better than others, and the most important thing is to remember why you write: because you love it, because you have stories to tell, because your readers need your stories."- Gloria Chao
I've barely ate anything recently but it's not like I've been eating nothing
I've ate lots of toast, well 2, per day like the last 2 days or three I think
I don't know. Last night when I told my mom that my stomach hurt, her first question was did I eat anything besides toast
And I had. I had a pack of cookies, a few cheetohs, a sandwich so I seriously don't think that's the problem
My mom hasn't been cooking and neither has anyone else, and when they do it's for themselves
Or well at least they leave me out of it
I need to stop making things up to make me feel worse about myself
I literally told my mom that I was fine with just having the toast
Of course it was because I didn't want to be a bother but the reasoning doesn't matter
I'm hungry though because I haven't ate anything at all today but I feel too sick to get out of bed
Ahhh I've been writing pretty much all day but there's not a big change in my word count :/
I wonder if I spaced out again at some point
I was writing by hand today. Lately I've just been typing
I just really don't want to be alone right now
My older sister's birthday is in two days
If I killed myself, my little sister would probably be the first one to find me
I convinced myself I didn't care about anyone or anything anymore and I just almost
I just didn't want to be alone and then she gave me the perfect chance to be alone and now I am
I was right to be afraid of myself. I was so right
I don't know what to do. I'm online because at least if I'm here I'm not doing anything
I thought that if she didn't care about the first time she wouldn't care if I tried again
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
I was trying to say over six cups of coffee XD