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Erin
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May 25, 2018 03:54PM
Why is my ankle always hurt?
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This morning my ankle was hurting a little and I was like, "I need you today, you're not allowed to hurt." A few minutes later when it didn't stop hurting I was like, "I might overwork you but you get at least five hours of rest."
They're still a part of my profile picture
Also I absolutely love those jeans I was wearing like where did she get them
I don't remember where I got them though.
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Hello Erin! How are you?"Hey Lillian! I'm tired and in pain and I'm kinda sad but at the same time I haven't actually broke down and cried and it's weird. Overall, I'..."
Yee, it really does :D And I'm glad to hear that! And I bet it has to do something with the fact that he cares about you (and he's probably smart enough to realize that being there for emotional breakdowns is really important), but that's just a guess, so who really knows? XD Oh, I guess he'd probably know why he does things lol
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Hello Erin! How are you?"Hey Lillian! I'm tired and in pain and I'm kinda sad but at the same time I haven't actually broke down and crie..."
Awee I'm glad :) AND YASSSSS IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU BECAUSE OF THAT VERY FACT AHHH!! And oh yeah, I forgot that people actually love each other XD
People kept calling me sad and lonely today XD
Somebody invited ME to play soccer as if I can actually kick a ball XD
Another group of people had me take a photo of them and then wanted me to take a photo with them or at least one of their friends did or something but I said no and kept walking
I kinda feel bad because it was our last day and stuff and it was kinda rude of me, but they caught me at a bad time
I couldn't stop until like three minutes before tug a war started when a friend of mine told me I should sit and I just did because I didn't want to be too far from when they started and have to walk a far distance to find my class because we were up first
But pizza still exists so there's that
I'm full now and don't wanna finish this piece but at the same time I don't want to put it in the fridge
It's ugly, isn't it? My anxiety? My depression? The small tidbits inside my brain that convinces me nothing will ever be okay? My restless experience? The days I forget to take care of myself? The days I won't get in a lunch line or in any line at all because I'm terrified of talking to people and of being watched and of messing up or taking too long? Or just any part of me? I don't know what I'm saying.
I'm just thinking about how my mental state will always be too much for anyone and everyone.
How I should cut myself off of my friends because my mental state could easily ruin their days and I'm tired of always being sad because I should look happy sometimes
But happy isn't something I'm allowed to show.
I have to turn off everything because I am everything and my emotions are out of control and I'm sick I'm so sick of me
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Hello Erin! How are you?"Hey Lillian! I'm tired and in pain and I'm kinda sad but at the same time I haven't..."
Anytime :D
My whole body aches and it's all my fault lol
I wanna cry because this book is soo good and I think he's dead and Riordan is a troll
I need to catch up on the both Magnus chase and the trials of Apollo. and I should get back to reading but so little time
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I wanna cry because this book is soo good and I think he's dead and Riordan is a troll"What? Which book? Rick Riordan?"
I don't want to spoil anyone but yeah it's one of Rick Riordan's books. It's The Burning Maze.
Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "*Hugs*"*hugs back*
Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "ughhhhhh spoilers >.<"Sorry, I won't say anything about who or what.
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