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[Erin]

And I can't even be there for my sister right now

[Erin]

And the only thing that she used against me was that I cussed and it's not my fault that I have her yelling cuss words in my head more times than I've heard her say I love you and mean it instead of just say it

[Erin]

If I killed myself, whose to say her crying won't be an act

[Erin]

She wants to take my phone away and I don't even care

[Erin]

If she cares, well bye

[Erin]

She's talking about me like I'm not even in the room

[Erin]

She makes it so easy to not want to exist

[Erin]

I'm so glad Mary's not here

[Erin]

Mary deserves better than my mother

[Erin]

I can't take it

[Erin]

I shouldn't of said anything

[Erin]

Should've kept my mouth closed

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "If I killed myself, whose to say her crying won't be an act"

*hugs* Erin don't :(

[Erin]

She took my phone away but then she gave it back

[Erin]

I'm just kinda annoyed and really upset right now

[Erin]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "If I killed myself, whose to say her crying won't be an act"

*hugs* Erin don't :("

*hugs back* I don't know. I'm sorry.

[Erin]

I'm not going to lie. I did something really stupid.

[Erin]

I'm not going to go into the details of what I did

[Erin]

But just that I did something

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm not going to lie. I did something really stupid."

Erin..."

I'm sorry

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm not going to lie. I did something really stupid."

Erin..."

I'm sorry"

Don't. Don't say you're sorry to me. Just... don't. Okay? Erin what the hell d..."

Okay. Just something stupid, nothing that would've worked to get me the outcome I was hoping for.

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm not going to lie. I did something really stupid."

Erin..."

I'm sorry"

Don't. Don't say you're sorry to me. Just... don'..."

*hugs back*

[Erin]

Erin wrote: "I really want to live."

I'm so stupid.

[Erin]

I say people don't matter and then they do and it hurts

[Erin]

I care about my mom but I can't take her

[Erin]

My depression can't handle it

[Erin]

I can't blame them anymore for not letting her talk to Mary.

[Erin]

I can't pretend to hate them for it.

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "I wanna just like teleport you to my house and you can live in my RV."

Haha that'd be a nice life

[Erin]

I don't want to leave my mom, though, I'm scared of what she'll do.

[Erin]

That's odd. I always want to leave my mom.

[Erin]

She's blaming her being bitchy on lack of sleep. I blame her being bitchy on her being a bitch.

[Erin]

I should've known this was going to happen though.

[Erin]

We're all going to leave her and hate her one day and she's going to be alone and she's going to regret everything

[Erin]

I'm going to miss her when she dies.

[Erin]

I can learn to hate her, but I'm always going to miss her.

[Erin]

I just never want to become her because she treats herself like shit and I can't take it

[Erin]

After all this time, I still just want her to find happiness.

[Erin]

She doesn't get how much she's loved.

[Erin]

Then again, neither do I.

[Erin]

Just made some tea :)

[Erin]

Life is good

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm not going to lie. I did something really stupid."

Erin..."

I'm sorry"

Don't. Don't say you're sorry to me. Just... don't. Okay? Erin..."

Erin....*Hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "I wanna just like teleport you to my house and you can live in my RV."

Haha that'd be a nice life"

maybe in a couple of years when I move in with my band mates you can come and live with us.

[Erin]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm not going to lie. I did something really stupid."

Erin..."

I'm sorry"

Don't. Don't say you're sorry to me. Just... don'..."

*hugs back*

[Erin]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "I wanna just like teleport you to my house and you can live in my RV."

Haha that'd be a nice life"

maybe in a couple of years when I move in with my band mates you ca..."

Yeah, that'd also be a nice life :)

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "I wanna just like teleport you to my h..."

yeah it would be so fun

[Erin]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "I wanna just like telepor..."

It really would be

[Erin]

Ahhhhh I love writing lyrics and just music in general

[Erin]

I'm working on a song right now and it's actually going kinda okay