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trying to feel like me again
message 5151:
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Erin
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May 19, 2018 01:20AM
It's 4:20 am right now
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I wish I had a blanket. My feet are cold.
We only have like one sheet though and my sister's using it upstairs as she sleeps like a normal person
My phone's going to die soon. It's at 20% and I don't have my charger right now ughhhhh
I'll just have to grab my sister's soon
I think I might eventually watch a movie on Hoopla if there's any good ones
I want to k ow how some people can fall in love in easily
I want to know how my classmates can date and not be in love, how they can have crushes but not feel this way
I want to know how love isn't what I thought it was
I want to know how love is still existent
I want to know how love can make me happy over someone sadness but at the same make me feel like my insides are coming apart
And I fall love with pain easily so is this just that
I need to know how Pepe can just feel this way and be okay
How they don't just want to go throw their life away because they know that they'll never be good enough, that they aren't worth it
I don't know how people can just not grow an obsession with wanting to create everything for the one that they love
Write poems, write songs, write stories, write letters, write short notes, write longer notes, draw feelings so that one day they'll know, etc.
I don't want to care about anything or anyone
I'm a mess and I never bother to hide it and I should hide it
I had to walk upstairs to get away from her but now I'm back upstairs and ughhh
Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin what rank are you in the leaderboard in the Harry Potter game"..."SAME I'M 1ST TOO.
Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin what rank are you in the leaderboard in the Harry..."CONGRATULATIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "*hugs you*"*hugs back*
This cereal doesn't taste as good as I hoped.
Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) ..."THANK YOU!! CONGRATS TO YOU TOO
Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix R...":D THANK YOU!!
cos everything feels like
it's spinning out of control,
like days could pass
and it'd all feel the same,
like I could just lay here,
and my existence would eventually fade
This game of charades will eventually end.
This game of pretend will eventually end.
So I'll eventually end, too,
and so will you
But that doesn't mean
we have to throw it all away,
that doesn't mean
it's over before we even get started,
and that doesn't mean
nothing matters because
everything matters when it comes to you,
when it comes to you and me
You and I have a whole other world to see,
dimensions to travel, universes to create.
You and I have an entire adventure to share,
won't you let me tag along on your quest,
your quest to save yourself, to love yourself,
because I have the same purpose as you do,
so won't you let me tag along?
I swear I'll write us a victory song
and the universes will sing along.
She really needs to watch what she says to me
Like you're daughter is depressed and has tried to kill herself but still you talk about dying and how none of us will miss you
She said "she's still crying, she needs to grow up"
As if she's never fucking cried as if I've never had to comfort her
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
