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[jay, rip]

i need the biggest jar of nutella i can possibly buy

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jay wrote: "i need the biggest jar of nutella i can possibly buy"

also, a zippo lighter and a box of glazed donuts.

for a birthday present.

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i start off every therapy appointment by telling myself that i’m actually gonna open up and talk about what’s been bothering me

but i end every therapy appointment in a heated discussion about whether or not Remy from ratoutille is a top or a bottom

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IM KIDDING i promise my therapist doesn’t encourage my dumbassery

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but he is totally a bottom

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yo remember that game on tumblr where you had that mapcrunch site drop you in a random location and your goal was to find the airport with no map

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my therapist also made me a list of goals to accomplish every day (small things) and told me to keep a journal about them but it’s been like 12 hours and i’ve already given up

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i feel like my therapist highkey hates my guts (WITH GOOD REASON) because every time she gives me an assignment or tells me to work on something in particular, i just go in the next week and complain about how i wasn’t able to do it. and then she’ll break it into smaller parts and be like “ok can you at least do this by next week” and i’m like”yeah sure” but then i go in the next week and i’m like GUESS THE FUCK WHAT, I DIDNT DO IT

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anyway yea so she tries for me and i don’t try back

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jay wrote: "anyway yea so she tries for me and i don’t try back"

this is actually a GREAT allegory for my life!!! everyone gives me 110% and i don’t even give 9% back

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alright seriously though i need to stop being such an asshole and actually start doing my therapy stuff

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is there a goals app or smthg i can download to make this shit easier

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“productive- habit tracker” is the first thing that came up so i guess that’s what i’m using

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why am i such a shithead lmaoooo seriously though

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to further illustrate this point, i should mention that one of the goals was “go to sleep at a reasonable hour” and it’s like 4 am

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jay wrote: "“productive- habit tracker” is the first thing that came up so i guess that’s what i’m using"

well it’s fuckin $30 so I GUESS THE FUCK NOT

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part of me is like “well it’s a small price to pay towards being a better person” and the other part of me is like “shit jayson you are a piece of fuck and you’ll never use it”

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fuck, another one of my things was to stop putting myself down

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so anyway i already fucked up twice and it’s been twelve hours

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i’m also supposed to stop making jokes about being a piece of suicidal trash

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damn ok so where do i even start w this stuff

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i should probably make an outlined excel spreadsheet

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but that’s a lot of work so i’m not gonna do it

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goddamn i’m so fucking lazy and useless what even

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i follow this girl i went to high school with on insta and she’s really pretty and i want to tell her that but in a platonic way, like i just wanna tell her she’s pretty bc she really is! but like she has a boyfriend and i don’t wanna make her uncomfortable or seem like i’m hitting on her

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if you follow me on twitter i really do apologize for that last round of tweets, it’s like 4 am amd i am dead inside

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the gender swap filter on snapchat, what does it do to andro people

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

If you want to we can be like accountability buddies for therapy homework. Or at the very least maybe I can brainstorm with you on some ways to get it done. Idk. But I'm here and going through therapy too <3

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thank you!!

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yo this week has been WILD and it’s only like tuesday

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jay wrote: "yo this week has been WILD and it’s only like tuesday"

i have been informed that it’s actually Saturday

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i’ve gone 4 days without posting that’s gotta me a record.

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anyway it’s been a few wild nights

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when i say wild i mean ////wild////

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like i didn’t know my nodybcohukdbeevenndk ynagnshit

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what does this mean

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go follow my twitter

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i literally want to die, it’s 4:28 am and i’m stuck in my bed, unable to fall asleep bc anxiety, and i have to be awake in 4 hours to drop my cat off to get surgery and i have so much fucking anxiety. like it’s just a spay but still.

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oh wonderful it’s 5 am

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hey my name’s jayse i have anxiety and i never fuckin go to sleep

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starting on june 17 2019, lasting until june 16 2020, i would like to be called jared

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if u understood that, i am silently applauding u

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hey um i love my friednzs very much k

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u know u fucked up and stayed up too late when you plug ur phone in before bed but wake up and it’s not fully charged

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i hate it when ppl are like “french is the language of love” like no, the language of love is “different types of cheese”

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when ur reading arabic and u don’t recognize a word so you sound it out in your head and it’s some rando english word that’s just WRITTEN in arabic and it fucks w u?

like I don’t know if that makes sense but like “New York” written in arabic is just like the english sounds but in the arabic language? like if u wanna do something “apple” you’ll write the translation of apple, but something like “new york” is weird bc there’s no actual translation for new york so it’s just weird in general

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it also fucks w u bc not all english sounds are present in arabic and vice versa! like there’s no “P” in arabic for example. so like when my dad says “pepsi” it’s actually “bebsi” coming from him bc his accent is so heavy.

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but it’s also the same as the other way around, non arabs can’t say certain letters bc the sounds are too different. like the “kha” sound is pronounced from rly deep in ur throat and like the “r” sound is heavily rolled and stuff. the closest i’ve found to arabic is actually german? bc they have the throaty sounds that they say real deep

[rimskur]

jay what kind of Arab are you idk if I ever asked

[jay, rip]

i’m lebanese