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[jay, rip]

oh yeah hey i need advice on what to get someone for their birthday, my cousin Justin just turned 21 (he’s in Vegas rn so i have time to think of a gift for him bc he doesn’t get back for 5 days) and he’s like super into his job (he’s a police officer) and he smokes cigars and stuff,
i was thinking of getting him a box of donuts (haha) and maybe a nice Zippo that’s engraved? but what will i make it say

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i dunno man my new thing is just getting everyone a book for every occasion on account of the fact that i have the employee discount at barnes and noble now

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which is a good plan bc everyone in my family likes to read?

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like for the upcoming Eid i’m gonna get my sister a gardening book and my mom the new book by one of her fave authors (that one chick who wrote If I Stay) and something about airplanes for my dad

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speaking of airplanes

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my dad gave me a project to do bc he typically doesn’t have time to do domestic vacation packages at work, so he’s like “here do u wanna do it?” and i was like YEAH so i basically planned an entire vacation for my cousins and emailed her all the info w prices and everything and she was like “damn you’re like a mini travel agent” and i’m like haha THANKS i get it from my dad

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it also helps that i worked at the agency for 2 summers

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saving hotels, booking things, the family business.

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sometimes i plan vacations for fun

like i pretend im going to X, find air bnbs, research stuff to do in X, find cheap flights... like it’s a v intense thing to do. not like i can afford a vacation anyway lolll

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that would actually be really cool but i feel like id get so exctied and then not go :(((

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im a hungry ho today

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my favorite activity is compiling a playlist of songs i’m feeling lately and putting it on repeat till i hate all the songs

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jay wrote: "i want a grande iced caramel macchiato with an extra shot, light ice, please and thanks"

i got it in case anyone was curious lmaooo

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yo if you wanna follow my twitter PM me and i’ll give it to you

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sometimes i forget that normal people don’t read everything you’ve posted within 3 years once you accept their friend request

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i asked P, my coworker, about one of his tattoos that was a cool symbol on his wrist. he told me that it was a sigil that he used often because he’s wiccan and explained it to me and it sounded really cool! it opened my eyes a bit because my only knowledge of sigils before this was the angel-banishing one that you have to paint in mortal blood (from supernatural)

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my supernatural knowledge isn’t always bad though, i had a lady come in trying to buy an entire series on archangels and she had a couple in her hand and was trying to figure out which she was missing and i immediately was like “you forgot michael!”

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yo i want to grow this one plant but i can’t find seeds like anywhere lol

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can i get some music recommendations please and thank youuu

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instead of saying “ruby” sometimes i say “buby” and it sounds like boobie and i’m like “oh shitty it’s a titty”

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i unironically love loren gray.

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like it’s strange af but i love her music lmaooo

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i usually don’t like that kinda stuff but it’s. good.

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WHY ARE GIRLS SO PRETTY

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DAMMIT MY HETERO IS SHOWING

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its 2 am, which toxic thing will jayson do next?

a.) stalk his ex’s instagram
b.) look at ex-lover’s ex-wife’s fb page
c.) listen to relationshipy songs and get stuck deep in a feels trench
OR, THE ULTIMATE
d.) ALL OF THE ABOVE

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i went to 2 funerals in 1 day, hows y’all doin

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hey uhhhh i need rice and coffee w a splash of cream

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when someone makes a journal and you think it’s in the wrong folder but then you realize that you literallynjust don’t know the alphabet

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honestly my lack of alphabet knowledge is shitty because at work when i’m shelving i have to sing the whole song to find the letter i’m looking for

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did y’all know that Q is earlier in the alphabet than S?

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if you’re watching Game of Thrones rn, i REALLYY REALLY HOPE that y’all enjoy it and that it lives up to your expectations and i’m really happy y’all are passionate about that!!! keep doin you, sis

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also don’t spoil it for others lmao

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do you ever just feel this really intense longing in your heart

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jay wrote: "do you ever just feel this really intense longing in your heart"

this makes it seem like i’m depressed over a breakup or something, but it’s more than that. it’s... it’s like when you’re wanting things to go back to the way they were. when i would be in my room with my brother asleep down the hall, switching between conversations between C and P and K, and it felt like i was content. things are so fucking different. so much has changed. i just want to go back to how things were.

[jay, rip]

my relationships with people have changed. of the 4 people i mentioned above, one is dead, i haven’t spoken to one in almost a year, and one is just different, not the same.

i don’t feel content anymore. i feel uneasy, restless, like something big is missing, i feel intense pangs in my heart every time certain people cross my mind.

and then there’s me. i was so sure of myself at that time. i know who i was, what i wanted to do, i had hopes and dreams and now... i’m just a big ass mess. who am i, really, am i who i insisted i was for years? what am i doing with my life? what do i even enjoy anymore? what are my goals?

everything is different now

[jay, rip]

i try to be happy that’s certain someone is happy, in a beautiful relationship with someone they love, living in a place and going to a great school that they love, having fun and making new friends. i really do understand that we weren’t always going to be as close as we used to be. i really am trying to come to terms with it. but part of me is just so deflated, because i feel like they grew away from me, but i didn’t grow away from them. we were supposed to grow apart in a good, mutual way. not in a way where they go 4 days without answering me and when they do, i respond back in 2 seconds because i miss them, and suddenly another 4 days have passed before i get another response. it wasn’t supposed to be like this. we were supposed to BOTH be having fun and making new friends and studying. not just one of us.

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i’m happy for them. i’m really really REALLY happy for them. it just hurts sometimes.

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and then you’ve got another person who you want to at least just check in on, but you can’t, because you have no idea how to even approach the situation after not speaking to them for so long. you’ve got no clue if they even want to speak to you again, if you’re a shitty person in their eyes, if you’ve fucked it up so bad that they won’t ever want to unblock you. and even if by some miracle, you do end up speaking (under the condition that we’re both actually able to move past our differences and reconcile) .... how do you even start. how do you catch up on ten months of each other’s lives. how do you go from being THISCLOSE to so far apart for so long, to building things back up? how? how do you even start to repair the mistakes you’ve made? how do you patch up holes like that in a friendship?

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my private story on sc right now is literally me begging someone to go out w me on saturday night bc i’m hanging out w a few friends who are all couples and i’m the only single one shsjdjjdcjcjjcjc

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MH responded saying “i’ll go as your date” but i’m like sweetie no offense but you are 15 and your mom will kill me if i keep you out till 2 am

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jay wrote: "my private story on sc right now is literally me begging someone to go out w me on saturday night bc i’m hanging out w a few friends who are all couples and i’m the only single one shsjdjjdcjcjjcjc"

when u kinda posted that just to see if That Boi would swipe up but then u realize he’s not even on your private story

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i’m really tired and i have work tmr morning so peace out homies

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i want to GO HOmE and eat a BAGEL

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you ever hear a phrase and it reminds you of something really specific

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it’s four am

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hello pounding migraines my old friend

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jay wrote: "hello pounding migraines my old friend"

i’ve come to take Aleve again

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

I totally put that to the tune of Sound of Silence. Just drop "pounding" and both lines fit so well lol

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it really does 😂