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places i’ve been to that i want to go again:

Lebanon (ope)
DISNEY (always)
Amsterdam (bc i don’t remember anything from my trip there,? i was like. 4.)
Germany (but like after they cure gluten intolerance because honestly everyone was eating great when we were there but like i was eating fruit cups bc everything had gluten in it)

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i want to go to Disney again soon but not TOO soon because i want to be there after the new epcot light show premieres and after the skyliner starts running

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i think that’s all happening in the fall

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that one Korean boy band is gonna be in Chicago soon and literally everyone i know is driving down to see them

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i’m going to listen to ONE (1) song by them just to see what the hype is about.

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ok um 1 minute into the BTS song with Halsey, i turned it off because it just sounds like typical pop music but in a different language?

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jay wrote: "ok um 1 minute into the BTS song with Halsey, i turned it off because it just sounds like typical pop music but in a different language?"

i didn’t understand a single word out of it, tried to hit the show lyric button and it just came up in a different language. i understand why people would like it if they speak the language, but aside from that, i don’t get the hype.

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i know someone who legit learned Korean because she loved that band so much

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she’s also fluent in Japanese bc she loves anime so much

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i dunno fam i just don’t get the whole obsession with other cultures to the point where you’re learning a whole ass language just to bop to the music

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i mean? one of my fave songs is in 2 languages, like the chorus is in arabic and the rap part is in english, but i feel like that’s different? i didn’t learn another language to understand the song, i already spoke both languages¿ but like. idk. maybe it’s not different.

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i mean i’m not shaming it at all. i think it’s cool that people are so passionate about stuff. like most people can’t do a whole other language and these peeps are doing it for the sake of anime/kpop

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the thing that i don’t like, though, is when these cultures become fetishes. like going off the things i was talking about a few weeks back with pornhub being a horrible place, the top searches are usually for like asian girls, and while it’s cool to be attracted to people from other ethnic backgrounds, it’s not cool to have a fetish for certain cultures

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the entire porn industry is really fucked up in general though

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like i’ve watched a shit ton of it, way more than the average person, and holy fuck it’s horrible. like PH shows you the top videos for the day when you first open the site and that shit is awful. not even like, “oh i’m a man of god and porn is the devil” awful, but like, pedophilia and non-con awful

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i’m sure anyone who knows me knows that i can appreciate good porn. but when you’re browsing stuff and you get “barely legal teen fucked by her stepdad” it’s like,? that’s fucked up

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i just wish the industry was more regulated bc i feel like we’re breeding creeps

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like i was a curious preteen and i used to look stuff up on the internet a lot, and i’m sure that like 90% of people have stumbled across porn in their early teen years. and while i can appreciate a good video that would’ve satisfied the curiosity of my 12 year old brain. there’s a fine line between what is enough to please a preteen and “18 year old sugar baby takes 40 year old BBC”

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like seeing that stuff as a kid? not good

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i’m sure that most of y’all know that i am into some weird stuff but like... come on. sometimes i’m browsing for my stuff (which is actually pretty tame and usually involves little to no nudity) and ill stumble upon stuff that could put people in jail. i wish the industry was different.

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tl;dr the porn industry is pretty fucked up and should be regulated better. this is not coming from someone who’s conservative and anti-porn, but from someone who is usually an avid porn watcher.

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it’s like 2 am and i’m just craving a smoke

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i’m gonna perish at the age of 21 with the amount of toxic shit i allow into my body

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remember how i’ve smoked with my parents multiple times but when we’re in public they’re like “omg you’re never touching this ever!!!” and i’m like lmao we just shared a hose last week because they care more about what people think of them and their reputation than they care about their child

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but honestly the most out of body feeling is smoking with my parents

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like they’ll be passing a hose between the two of them and i’ll take a few puffs of it and it’s chill asf but it feels wrong af inside? like my instinct is like Do Not Smoke With Parents but like

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that’s like, idk. doing something you’ve been told not to do your entire life.

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like if you’ve lived 18 years being allergic to peanuts and then you take a nice bite of a reese’s cup

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i haven’t smoked cigarettes in front of them though. granted, i haven’t smoked a cig in a while, but the only things i’ve smoked in front of my parents are hookah and cigars

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i dunno tho lmao cigars are hard to smoke

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maybe bc my lungs are weird and i can’t inhale for more than 3 seconds at a time but like you have to breathe in really hard on a cigar and it is Difficult

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cigarettes are never an issue and hookah is easy bc you can see the bubbles and smoke coming up but cigars are hard lmao

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blunts are like cigarettes but with a different taste

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with blunts i’ve only ever taken like a few hits at a time tho

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and with cigs i smoke menthols so i feel like that’s different than a regular one

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but srsly i own no cigarettes anymore and i haven’t purchased any in a long time

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i get enough of that with secondhand smoke

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hookah is different bc i just do that casually, it’s not a regular thing

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i love how i hate mint in literally every sense except smoke rip,? like id rather perish than drink peppermint tea but i’ve never smoked a hookah that didn’t have hints of mint in it

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BB is a heavy smoker

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i genuinely love him. like maybe not romantically, but i really love him. i love how safe he is.

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y’all wanna know some weird shit? apparently my first word aside from typical baby blabber of ‘mama’ was “wassup” because there was a commercial that had that phrase in it and my brother would say it all the time (he was 7 at the time) and he taught my 6 month old self how to say it

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i still don’t believe that i was speaking at the age of 6 months but according to everyone in my family, i was

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I don’t know that just seems like a reach lol like i’ve seen 6 month old babies and they’re usually drooling messes.

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according to my sister and mom, i was able to speak by 6 months and i was writing my name at 18 months. but like my niblings are 6 years old and they JUST learned to write their names.

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i should probably consider the fact that my niblings are pretty behind though.

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i dunno like they seem fine to me but apparently the kids in their classes are way ahead of them, and their test scores are really bad (isn’t it dumb that these 6 year olds have to take standardized tests tho)

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i can kinda see it though because they’re still on like memorizing the board books, and i vividly remember (ad my mom says this too) that i was reading like Magic Tree House and Junie B Jones at the age

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i dunno tho like i guess it’s a strange concept because all kids are different? and like when i was their age i was really ahead and they're really behind