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let’s recap.
i “accidentally” send a snap to JB to get his attention and then send him another saying “omg sorry wrong person!”
JB answers and calls me cute and we start snapping back and forth
i’m telling MK about all of this bc hey why not this is my FRIEND
MK is thinking “oh shit this dude is crushing on another guy,,???”
MK: *asks me out*
me: in the middle of arguing baseball with JB while turning MK down

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i sent JB a snap 2 minutes ago and he was typing for the full 2 minutes and all he sent was “awww cutie” like WHAT THE FUCK was he fucking sounding out the vowels

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i’m such an asshole lmao

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anyway i just feel weird now like uhhh wtf

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our* communist manifesto, amirite

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in a perfect world, i simply wouldn’t exist

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that was dramatic

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sometimes when
i want to cringe
i look at
instapoetry
that’s written like
this

-jos

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it’s funny when i see posts from anti vaxxers who say they’ll never take their kids to the doctor and i’m like, ok but,,, essential oils can’t fix a broken arm susan

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“don’t make fun of anti vaxxers it’s mean!”
you know what else is mean? spreading diseases and causing outbreaks of preventable and life threatening sicknesses

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if you’re a 3 month old baby who hasn’t had a full round of vaccines due to your young age and an unvaxxed kid at the local daycare is carrying measles then you hella gonna get it

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how is it funny if they don’t want their child to get sick..? you’re right, some shots can’t be given till the kid is older, meaning that young kids are still vulnerable to some diseases, which they can easily get if they’re around unvaxxed people, which is a perfectly valid reason for not wanting your kid around unvaxxed people.,?

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it’s not ironic at all tho

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“if he gets 2000 more followers he’ll have 2000 followers!”

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jay wrote: "“if he gets 2000 more followers he’ll have 2000 followers!”"

i... guess... she wasn’t wrong...

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anyway in just 27 minutes the clock will strike midnight and it will be 3/14 aka pi day

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should i MAKE. A. PIE.

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no jayson you’re on a diet remember

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i wonder if i lost any weight

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i don’t like using my scale in the bathroom cause it gives inaccurate readings so i usually just wait for my doctor appointments cause i go every 4-6 weeks anyway

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so that’s?? two more weeks away??

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i read somewhere that you’re not supposed to weigh yourself every day anyway

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i just want some poutine, okay

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my mom made this ginger lemon tumeric shit that she’s forcing me to drink bc of my cholestoral and frankly i want to die

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it’s NASTY, i fuckin HATE ginger, what the fuck

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and srsly wtf is a tumeric even??

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i think she should minus the ginger and tumeric and add sugar so it’ll just be lemons, sugar, and water

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aka lemonade

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but srsly i’m tryna get my cholestoral down with fruits and shit bc i don’t want to add lipitor to my list of medications, i’m tryna get OFF of meds

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ok back to the topic of meds tho.

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i’m highkey sick and tired of taking medicine every day. i’ve been taking pills every day of my life since i was 11. i’m 18 now. that’s over 2.5k days IN A ROW of me taking pills. i’m fucking sick of it. i just want to wake up and eat breakfast without having to worry about medicine. i just want to go about my day without worrying where my pills are, if i took them, if they’re with me, etc.

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however

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i’m so dependent on them. i hate that i am, but i am. if i skip one dose of my morning meds i’m a basket case for the whole day. my doctor has tried weaning me off slowly, like going from 40 mg to 20 to 10 to 5 but every time she tries to go down even a little bit i freak the fuck out

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i know that it’s okay that i take medicine, that my body isn’t normal so i have to take some pills to help it be normal but cmon man, i just want a day without having to worry if i’m eating the full 350 calories i need to eat with my geodon

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literally nobody:

my therapist and psychiatrist in perfect unison: we’re concerned about your phq9 scores

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heh but srsly

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kenzie has apparently been trying to ask me out on a date for. A Long Time. but i have been Avoiding Him.

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i’m all itchy

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maybe i’ll have the midas touch when i wake up but everything i touch will just turn into five billion dollars

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but only for like 5 minutes while i touch everything i own and then i’ll be left with a trillion bucks and then i’ll be normal again

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but that is okay. just be who you are.

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if wrath is a deadly sin, why does god have it?

[Lexa]

jay wrote: "if wrath is a deadly sin, why does god have it?"

Supposedly, only God can be trusted to distribute wrath because his judgement is perfect and all-seeing, whereas human judgement is subjective and self-centred. Furthermore, we often attach emotion to wrath, meaning that indulging one's own wrath could be seen as giving into temptation at the sacrifice of morality. So only the big G is capable of distributing fair wrath and not succumbing to the temptations of the devil in the process.

Or you could argue that God has been proven one of the biggest hypocrites in the history of the universe on many counts. "Yeah fam don't murder, now let me just instakill these mfing Egyptian babies because their leader is a bad dude."

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yeah i’m going with the second part

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god: don’t waste your time on pointless shit lol
also god: *knows that eve will eat the apple cause he knows everything* lmao lemme just make a big ass scene of the garden of eden even tho i know what the outcome will be

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god: i know everything
god when lucifer doesn’t bow: 😱

[Lexa]

According to chaos theory, Eve would've eventually eaten the apple regardless due to being in the garden for an eternity. If the possibility of something happening exists for long enough, it will eventually come to pass.

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but if god controls everything can’t he control the chaos theory 🤨

[Lexa]

jay wrote: "but if god controls everything can’t he control the chaos theory 🤨"

If he wanted to puppetmaster Adam and Eve then yes, but that'd eliminate the idea of free will.

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do any of us have free will though? if god knows all, doesn’t he know if this newborn baby is going to heaven or hell? doesn’t he know the choices we’ll make before we make them? predestination is a real bitch.