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Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgetten wrote: "Totally random but the song Remember We Die by Gemini Syndrome just popped up on my playlist and somehow reminded me of you :)"

I LOVE THAT SONG. my best friend is really into gemini syndrome and sent me that one a while back, i’ve kept it on my shuffle ever since <3

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i’ve lost 8 pounds since december

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

Gemini Syndrome is one of my favourite bands <3 If you ever wanna hear more songs by them I can totally recommend some <3
Also congrats on that lol. I've only lost at absolute most 4.

[Tamra]

hello

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in gay

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i think i went through and got all my RPs, let me know if i missed anything

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my cat loves to lick my laptop screen yknow

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why she do that

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as a BOTTOM, i can ASSURE YOU that Mike is a gemini

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i’m kidding i’m only a bottom 40% of the time yknow

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uh yeah i sure hope it does

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growing up with anxiety was someone referring to something that you don’t know about
so you google it
research it
are prepared to have a discussion on it next time they bring it up
but they never do,?

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i’ve been struggling with myself for a while now. who i am inside, who i’m not, who everyone wants me to be... it’s all been building up inside of me. i’ve had this thought in the back of my head that i’ve been trying to repress. but lately it’s been harder and harder to hide.
this is who i am. who i am deep down in my heart, in the depths of my soul. i’m sorry if you don’t like this, but it’s me. this does not define me. i am not one dimensional. me coming out to you doesn’t mean that this is everything i am. it’s less than one percent of who i am. i’m still the same old dude with the too-long hair and the obsession with cats. i still love pasta. this is just a small part of who i am. telling you this doesn’t change anything, because it’s always been who i am. i am me. i always have been.
i’m sorry if you can’t accept this. the most important thing is, i’m accepting myself, and that’s what matters. so here goes, this is me coming out to all of you. i’ve been in the closet for years, but here i am, telling you who i really am— i’m a fucking dumbass.

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m cold

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me: is wearing nothing but a pair of too-big boxers
also me: it’s so cold, wtf

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part of me wants to die but the other part wants a lake house up north

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i took extra pain meds tonight Nd i cant feel my toes lmao

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i’ve redone my room 5 times in the span of three years but i already have ideas for how i want to redo it for the 6th time lmao

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3 walls crispy white, 1 wall deep navy

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i am not okay after that finale i’m actually sobbing

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it’s a really strange feeling when you think of someone that used to be so close to you and now you haven’t talked in so long and it feels so weird bc even if you were to start talking again there’s so much to say, so much ground to cover, so much you’ve missed from each other’s lives and i’m just,,???

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so many feelings to muddle thru, so much anger to address, so much hurt to ponder, etc.

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anyway, i miss some people from back then but others i’m just...

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i’ve got a lot of mixed feelings right now and i’m actually messy

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also MK basically invited me over for sex and tbh i’m kinda weird about that too bc i genuinely thought that we were friends and that he saw me as more than just... that. but now i’m realizing that everything up to this point was just leading up to the moment that occurred an hour ago where he asked me if i had condoms and if i wanted to come over to his apartment

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i mean, i’m not going to lie and say that i thought of him as strictly “just a friend” because i didn’t, i was actually getting kinda hyped for our dates and stuff, but now i’m just?? was it all meaningless?? was it all a part of a master plan to get me into his bed?? does he want a FWB thing?? is he really romantically interested in me??

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shits been hitting harder lately and i’m like... that shit HURTED

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“i miss you and i want to fix things”

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my best friend is literally THE MOST attractive person i have EVER met and is the sweetest and the bestest and the best person ever and honestly i want them to be happy so bad and i’m glad they found someone anccndjddjjdjdkfv I LOVE CHARLIE

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i’m totally not having a crisis over Winnie the Pooh’s gender i swear

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anyway today i finally believed my rhemotolgist’s diagnosis cause i saw my toes turn a dark purpley blue and i was like what the fuck is happening and my mom is just laughing on the couch like “now do you see what the doctor was talking about”

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but srsly i’ve never had it be this bad before??

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me: about to fall asleep
my brain: WE BUILT THIS CITY

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memes hit different after 1 am, i’m chuckling about something that i awarded a mere heavy exhale to earlier

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we cuddled and watched one of my fave movies and yeah that was nice

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started off sitting on opposite ends of the couch and then slowly ended up getting closer and closer till we cuddled and yeah

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after the movie we found jeopardy on netflix and had a contest to see who could get more right
he won lol

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fb and insta are both down and my whatsapp is bugging and quite frankly I Am Upset

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me: HE OPENED MY SNAP 32 SECONDS AGO WHY ISNT HE ANSWE—-
him: *answers*

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he answered with “aw your cute” and my ugly ass sends back “you’re*”

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GODDAMN IT HE IS SO ADORABLE WTF

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ok so JB is a total cutie but he’s also not that great at grammar what do i do??

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he’s also catholic

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hmmmMMMMmmmm

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jay wrote: "he answered with “aw your cute” and my ugly ass sends back “you’re*”"

i sent this to MK and he was like “i thought you liked this guy but aparrently you like grammar better” and i’m like mmm yeah

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fuck my life i’m so SLOW

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i was taking to MK about JB and then MK tried to ask me on a freaking DATE what the FUCK is happening

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MK asked me out and i was like “wait like as friends or what” and he was like “i was hoping for the or what part” and my UGLY ASS WAS LIKE “oh.”

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i’m gonna scream why did my life just go from normal to a ducking earthquake in 5 minutes

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bruh i can’t even send screenshots to kass bc messenger isn’t fuckung working