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[jay, rip]

i put gas in the truck today wow i’m so adulty

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you’re back huh

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it’s funny to see you around again. you meant the world to me at one point. i didn’t realize how much nostalgia i had for 2014 until i saw you up on here again.

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you prolly have no idea who i am now haha

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we’ve changed

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i’m certainly not the guy i used to be

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>guy i think i’m falling for
>guy constantly sending me gay kisses and being like “this could be us”
>guy just sends me a vid of a guy blowing cig smoke into another guy’s mouth and them kissing
> “i hate that you smoke but i want this to be us”
> i start flirting back
> guy actually tells me that he feels shame for liking me
> “it’s because its not right to be gay”
>????
>what does that even mean

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he said he feels “inner guilt and shame” about me

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i hate guys who do that to me

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men who try to hide the fact that they like guys because they’re “righteous” and shit,, but then think it’s ok to use me for their physical desires??? and then toss me aside?? like i’m nothing but their little gay booty call?

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men are trash

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me, a man: men are trash

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it hurtssss

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selenite is gorgeous

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i got it in a palm stone and it’s great to carry around

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i also ended up with multiple slabs of labradorite

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and other stuff too

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the guy wrote me a note saying he included freebies bc i ordered his favorites and i was like awww thanks

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but anyway i’m in major pain rn and i’m just kind of sitting in class trying not to perish

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i turned on the seat heater in my car on the way here and that kind of helped with the tailbone but i’m still limping big time

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tbh my life is a disaster rn lmaooo

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

If you ever wanna talk I'm here.

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thenksss

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on this week’s episode of Depression Sucks: we explore how jayson might lose everything bc he’s too damn sad to do anything??

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fucking regular painkillers aren’t doing shit

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i literally can’t sit down but i can’t walk right either

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i had to go to kroger to get some groceries today (i needed capers and artichoke hearts to make this new pasta recipe) and i was fucking waddling through the whole store

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also apparently capers are really hard to find ??? i went through the canned isle three times and the spices isle twice and i even checked by the pickles but i found them in the “exotic foods” section

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how tf are capers exotic...

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imagine what life would be like if i was genuinely a good person who cared about someone other than himself? who stopped making excuses for his bad behavior? who had his life together?

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hmmmm

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just weeded thru a bunch of people on my fb friend list. i should do the same here.

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should i hold a seance to communicate with my brother

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or i could just text him bc he’s not dead yknow

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also i don’t really believe in that stuff

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if you do though, mad respect to you, you do you

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me at 11 pm: lmao everyone sucks, chew on my ass, don’t fucking touch me
me at 11:58 pm: a changed man.

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i’m seriously gonna make an effort to be a better person from now on

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i’ll update my progress regularly

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jay wrote: "how tf are capers exotic..."

update on this: apparently they’re exotic bc they’re not common outside of italian and mediterranean cuisine

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someone was like, if you have a fever and your body temp is 100 degrees and you take a sip of water, why doesn’t the water boil in your mouth?
me: bc water boils at 212F
someone else: dumbass, learn science. water boils at 100C.
me: 212F and 100C are literally the exact same temperature

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we’ve eaten food from out (restaurants, taco bell, every place on uber eats at least 3 times each) almost every day for the past 4 months. i got sick of it so i made pasta yesterday. today everyone else realized that they’re sick of it too, so we each signed up for something and are gonna do a home cooked potluck tmr

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i got mashed potatoes and bread

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so i’m gonna do boxed mashed potatoes bc my fresh ones always turn out lumpy, and i haven’t decided if i’m gonna buy frozen french bread yet or if i’m gonna buy yeast and make some fresh

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frozen would probably be better because i usually make a huge mess when i make fresh bread and it takes forever to rise and the flour wouldn’t be gluten free so i’ll be basically inhaling wheat

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also the package of my oils got delivered to the wrong house

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but i emailed the seller and they’re shipping them out again

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i got clove bud oil, cinnamon bark oil, and thyme oil

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i also ordered hemp oil but i believe that’s coming separate bc it wasn’t on the same order

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as for stones i got selenite (in a palm stone), a slab of labradorite (but the guy sent me double of this bc he’s really awesome), tumbled malachite (also got doubles of these), and raw thulite