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I Grew Up in the Rain, and it's Followed Me to Where I Am Now ~ The Journal of a Ta'Veren ~ Rated R
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Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "Gandalf wrote: "Gandalf wrote: "Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "Jesus, Grace, I thought we were friends."You ARE friends, but if you're going to completely flip out over the smallest, dumbest..."
Yeah, that, too.
Hm. Fine. I'll come back.
May I have the link?
I hate to see my friends in pain. Especially the ones that helped me, and I care about.
I feel like the people who can help me through my darkness are the ones who deserve to have easy lives.
Why is life so hard? Has everyone just become whiny babies?
You don't hear about this kinda thing from the stories of the old days.
It makes no sense.
But I swear I will help every person I care about through their difficulties; I've been there.
I'm still half there, but I'm fighting it. For Emily.
We can't destroy our demons, but we can damn well keep them in check.
Or, you know, try. Our best. That's what human life is all about, isn't it? Giving it your all? I think most people have forgotten that.
But nobody, nobody is gonna tell me to change. I'm me. And if you don't like it, you can fuck off. I'm back, bitches.
No more of this depression shit. I've seen too many fall to it. And I'm gonna help the souls who helped me out of my own personal hell to get through it as well. I'll open the way. Fuck it, I'll tear a fucking hole the size of Jupiter in that fucking bitch's trap. NO MORE DEPRESSION, WORLD! YOU FUCKIN' HEAR ME!? NO MORE! I'LL TEAR YOUR ASS TO SHREDS BEFORE I LOSE ANOTHER FRIEND!
Jeez, I cuss a lot.
Just tryin' ta get my point across.
Man, I've been really inactive on my journal for a while. Ah well, that'll change.
RANDOM AWESOME SONG OF THE DAY!:"Can I Get a Witness?" By Sonreal
For: Damn near everyone around me.
Shots firedBack to the future
Catching air like I hit a Floaty Booter
Move, bitch, out the way like I'm Luda
I'm making moves like I'm doing Kama Sutra
Doing kama sutra
Move, bitch, out the way like I'm Luda
Doing kama sutra
Move, bitch, out the way like I'm Luda, hold up
"I fell in love with you cause you made me feel
I fell in love with you cause you kept it real
Man, you done changed up on me, you changed your flow
Now I been hating on you everywhere I go"
Um, hold up
No, I ain't too flawless and no, I ain't the best
And no, I don't say sorry and no, I ain't perfect
But I am the man, I am the man
Shots fired
Back to my business
Used to dreaming, now I muhfuckin' live this
Kill this shit, mister, can I get a witness?
Yelling "Move, bitch" like we doing fitness
Can I get a witness?
Yelling "Move, bitch" like we doing fitness
Can I get a witness?
Yelling "Move, bitch" like we doing fitness
"I fell in love with you off that first mixtape
I fell in love with you cause rap ain't my thing
I thought that you were different, I guess I's wrong
Cause I ain't fucking with none of your new songs"
Um, hold up
No, I ain't too flawless and no, I ain't the best
And no, I don't say sorry and no, I ain't perfect
But I am the man, I am the man
Shots fired
I am the man, no, I ain't aim for no crown
But when you mention them, no, don't leave me out
No, I ain't too flawless and no, I ain't the best
And no, I don't say sorry and no, I ain't perfect
But I am the man, I am the man
Shots fired
I love Sonreal.
Woot! I get to make my summer playlist tonight!
I'll have a link to my Spotify tomorrow.
*raises middle finger to practically everyone I know*"No, I ain't too flawless and no, I ain't the best
And no, I don't say sorry and no, I ain't perfect
But I am the man, I am the man"
My life. Couldn't care less. Said it several times, I'll say it again:
I'ma be me, the rest of you can go and..... *smirks* Do obscene things to yourselves.
I just realized that the music I listen to reflects very accurately how I feel.
Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "I'll have a link to my Spotify tomorrow."
I might just listen since I like listening to new music!
I might just listen since I like listening to new music!
RANDOM AWESOME SONG OF THE DAY:"Sound of Change" by Dirty Heads
For: My closest friends. Callan, Nerdy, Emily, Daily, Lauren... Why are they all girls? Hm. I guess they're just more trustworthy than boys.
I see you've been chasing your monstersAnd they've been driving you bonkers
Just blind them with Rocket Launchers
Of light and to blow out their conscience
If you really want to juxtapose
And take a darker color with a blush of rose
And then you put it in your ink and watch it grow
Your mind is always open when your eyes are closed
Because you're blind to color and your blind to creed
You're blind to all the things that you don't need
Then you find a mind and then you plant a seed
Then you nourish it a little let it free
You're building it up
And they're breaking it down
Wanna give up
But keep holding your ground
Turning it up
But they're deaf to the sound
Oh the sound the sound of change
I can hear it now, the horns are playing
The victory sound, I live in the now
The sky is my home, and I live in the clouds
Now or never, bound forever
Making a change, making it better
I live for this shit, I love the pain
It's part of the journey, it's part of the game
I've been alone in the dark and the rain
I've seen the end and I wasn't afraid
I've been in tears and I wasn't ashamed
I hear a sound the sound that I'm hearing is change
You're building it up
And they're breaking it down
Wanna give up
But keep holding your ground
Turning it up
But they're deaf to the sound
Oh the sound the sound of change
You're building it up
And they're breaking it down
Wanna give up
But keep holding your ground
You're turning it up
But they're deaf to the sound
Oh the sound the sound of change
Well they try to put hands on my ears
Oh oh the sound
In my heart I'm still hearing it clear
Oh oh the sound
Tell me why do they fear what is real?
Oh oh the sound
You can't stop what is already here
Oh oh the sound
You're building it up
And they're breaking it down
Wanna give up
But keep holding your ground
You're turning it up
But they're deaf to the sound
Oh the sound the sound of change
You're building it up
And they're breaking it down
Wanna give up
But keep holding your ground
You're turning it up
But they're deaf to the sound
Oh the sound the sound of change
OOOoooOO oh oh oh oh
OOOoooOO oh oh oh oh
OOOoooOO oh oh oh oh
Oh the sound the sound of change
OOOoooOO oh oh oh oh
OOOoooOO oh Oh oh oh
OOOoooOO oh oh oh oh
Oh the sound the sound of change
Trey wrote: "Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "I'll have a link to my Spotify tomorrow."I might just listen since I like listening to new music!"
Yeah, I'll have it up right after school. At around 4:30 my time. In.... 7 hours 45 mins.
Sorry, it's really hard to find time.
I'll do it eventually....
Also, again?! Are you fucking kidding me? I thought this 'gang up on Michael' shit was over.
Fuck, all I ask for is respect. Is that so much? And no, I'm not overreacting. I get to act like this when my friends fucking do stupid ass shit like this.
I'm not being fucking dramatic. I get to feel however the hell I want. And I'm pissed.
This is stupid ass shit. Fucking ridiculous that I can't trust you guys; who're supposed to be my friends.
Wait, what do you mean? What happened?
Just people being dumb. I got over it; I always do....
It's 3:11 and I can't sleep. Bored as hell, though. To the point where I'm sneaking on my phone just to have a place to talk to myself. Idk, maybe I'll try to sleep. My dog's breathing is a steady, relaxing sound. Too much on my mind, I guess.
I'm so excited for the Sunday after next. I'm hosting a scary movie night at my house, and Em said she'd come. It's great. More time I get to spend with her. She is the person I enjoy hanging out with the most. The second most is probably my dog. No offense, guys, but you'd understand if you knew him. he's fantastic. Which is why I almost eviscerated the kid who called him a fag. Asshole punk. You'll be a freshman next year, and I'llbe a junior. I hope to God you tread on my toes, so I can find a way to punish you. Sometimes, Karma's just too slow.....
Oh, and while I'm talking about stupid people....I can't believe how long it took me to realize I put my journal in the wrong folder! AND I'm tired. And I still figured it out before my fully woken self....... *shakes head* Tomorrow, when I use a computer (or maybe the day after; IDK yet.) I'll fix it. Rn, I should probably be going to bed......
Goodnight, no one! Lol.
Sirius (Malakalato) Wagner [For the summer...] wrote: "I'm so excited for the Sunday after next. I'm hosting a scary movie night at my house, and Em said she'd come. It's great. More time I get to spend with her. She is the person I enjoy hanging out w..."I love my dogs too!!!!
Sirius (Malakalato) Wagner [For the summer...] wrote: "I'm so excited for the Sunday after next. I'm hosting a scary movie night at my house, and Em said she'd come. It's great. More time I get to spend with her. She is the person I enjoy hanging out w..."But of course nothing works out as it should. Shocker. Lol. I shoulda seen it coming.
My journal has moved again! It's now underNever Satisfied ~The Journal of a Modern Day Founding Father~
You ARE friends, but if you're going to completely flip out over the smallest, dumbest things NOBODY w..."
What about this morning? When you called me a "pompous pitiful prick?"