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[rae]

have been trying to make a studyblr for 3 months
i have failed

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rae wrote: "have been trying to make a studyblr for 3 months
i have failed"

hahahah follow meeee
https://basiicblr.tumblr.com/
im still working on it but it'll be done by today hopefully

[rae]

blue wrote: "rae wrote: "have been trying to make a studyblr for 3 months
i have failed"

hahahah follow meeee
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im still working on it but it'll be done by today hopefully"

i never knew you read paper towns haha

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rae wrote: "blue wrote: "rae wrote: "have been trying to make a studyblr for 3 months
i have failed"

hahahah follow meeee
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im still working on it but it'll be done by today hopefu..."

i cant believe you
i told you just yesterday i was watching the movie
dumb ray

[rae]

blue wrote: "rae wrote: "blue wrote: "rae wrote: "have been trying to make a studyblr for 3 months
i have failed"

hahahah follow meeee
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im still working on it but it'll be done by ..."

watching the movie
is different
from reading the book
i will guillotine you if you disagree im sorry

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rae wrote: "blue wrote: "rae wrote: "blue wrote: "rae wrote: "have been trying to make a studyblr for 3 months
i have failed"

hahahah follow meeee
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im still working on it but it'l..."

i disagree okay

[rae]

blue wrote: "rae wrote: "blue wrote: "rae wrote: "blue wrote: "rae wrote: "have been trying to make a studyblr for 3 months
i have failed"

hahahah follow meeee
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im still working on..."

good

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guys omggg

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my friend morgan likes dylan

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omg guys
thats why she was so nervous every time omg

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i just need to actually rant now

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like omg

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i feel mad and sad

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is it even possible to feel both at the same time
the best thing is for several reasons, not 1

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i am the worst friend ever honestly

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i dont have anyone to rant on
if i think i do, theyre some part of the thing

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like this journal is my ranting person
i have to give my journal a name

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im going to name it maia
maia is like my favorite name ever for some reason

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its all so fake

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i dont even know why
i thought i knew a person and then turns out theyre completely different like

[rae]

rant to meee

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how could i be so stupid

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oh my god im such an idiot

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i did not knoww

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blue wrote: "my friend morgan likes dylan"

for fcking 3 months

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the funny thing is i thought i knew them
and then i start getting this feeling they dont even like me
but me being myself i dont say anything

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i feel like ive done that every s i n g l e time with my parents and they people who work with them

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cause sometimes its not really a get to-gether but just talking and not being in a work space

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and like most of the times its usually just me tryna pretend to be happy

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you know theres these questions in the ask games like
how are you different from last year

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or somethin

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i feel like my perfect answer would be; ive gotten better at pretending to be happy every time

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thats exactly the thing
people always think im this happy person but they dont know me
unless your like in my rl or my close friend
i doubt you know me

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it happens a lot in my rl too so i guess its not only online??
people tend to think that just cause my mom knows a person or my dad does?
it doesnt make me like them or be like them

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seriously if he knows a person its his choice
like my dad has a lot of siblings
so our family is kinda huge and i have a lot of cousins

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sometimes its really annoying

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okay im done ranting

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not rly
not even half or close
but ill just uh whatever

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rae wrote: "rant to meee"

you left anyway and its no point
im being stupid

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haha

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what is my life honestly

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like when i need someone theyll never be here for me

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theyll be busy with their stuff
and when i dont need them, theyll be all nice and sweet to me

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thats bitter sweet

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blue wrote: "like when i need someone theyll never be here for me"

my life

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ive learned it the hard way
you really get used to being alonee

[rae]

sorry dude
theres always going to be people who dont understand or things that go wrong
its impossible to avoid
you learn after a while that its natural and of course you have the right to be upset or sad or conflicted because no matter how much youve accepted the realities of life, its hard to avoid that feeling of loneliness that gets you every time
just know that you have your friends (irl and us) who will always support you and try to understand to the best of their abilities what youre going through so its good to talk about it and not shut down or ignore people around you :)

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blue wrote: "like when i need someone theyll never be here for me"

we're always here for you
i might not reply to your messages immediately sometimes
but i'm here whenever you need me and when i see that you do, i'll try to help you through whatever is happening the best i can
youre never alone

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thats the thing
ive gotten used to the lonliness its not that obviously
i just dont know who my real friends and who arent
and sometimes you dont even now who cares at least

[rae]

yeah its hard to know but my best advice is to care about yourself and love yourself before any others
of course be friends with others because there are real people out there, people who really care about you, who really love you, who would do anything for you
but if you prioritize yourself, even if someone hurts you or betrays you or deceives you, you'll always have someone to fall back on
and that way it wont hurt as much if something like that happens and knowing that, you can relax more and live life for yourself instead of worrying so much about the people around you