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[NerdyJediGymnast]

Hmm what if

[NerdyJediGymnast]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Of course thats like dying so"

What if I died?

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Like Im curious

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I've always been scared of Death

[NerdyJediGymnast]

If not the death of me physically (which I am), the death of me spiritually, emotionally, and mentally

[NerdyJediGymnast]

"You have too much to live for"

Said no one to me ever

Or maybe they did and I didnt listen

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Something about it all going away is scary
but

[NerdyJediGymnast]

hmmm

[NerdyJediGymnast]

jacqueline wrote: "NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "If not the death of me physically (which I am), the death of me spiritually, emotionally, and mentally"

it would be like becoming hitler
powerful"

Hi Jac

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Almost there.

[NerdyJediGymnast]

The mall

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I wanna buy a crying emoji pillow
Do they sell those?

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I need one

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I've cried alot lately

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I cried yesterday for no reason

[NerdyJediGymnast]

No but I just felt sad

[NerdyJediGymnast]

In Science class today (summer school), we made models of cells with Oreos, chocolate chips, and sprinkles

[NerdyJediGymnast]

When the teachers talk to me, I automatically try to fix my face and fake a smile, then when they walk away, Im normal again

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Time to pop out. Maybe I'll come on some other time

[NerdyJediGymnast]

.....Maybe.....

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Bye

[[deleted user]]

Hey Nerdy! I've missed you!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sis :( I miss you :( *hugs and kisses cheek*

[NerdyJediGymnast]

*pop in*

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I wanted to pop in real quick before I leave

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Im tired

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I really am. I miss everyone and that makes me sad :( But I feel like being here would make things worse

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I've gotten lots of pms from people trying to help

Thanks so much guys, but you cant fix something thats completely broken :)

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I miss My Stalker

[NerdyJediGymnast]

She makes me laugh

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I was crying yesterday because of a nightmare I had

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I just vanished

[NerdyJediGymnast]

ugh

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Waiting for Jonathan. He said he'd drive me to the mosque

[Erin]

I'm actually here at this time! I make you laugh???? But I'm so not funny! Maybe that's why.... Anyways, hi!

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Hi. Im leaving soon. I just wanted to say hi because I've missed everyone so much

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I'm so stupid

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I feel ashamed to say this

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I almost did it

[Erin]

Ah, well I miss you too. You're not stupid. You seem smarter than most people. Also, you're not completely broken. It might feel like it, but trust me, you're not. Just a little bent.

[Erin]

Almost did what??

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I cut my leg

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Just a little

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I didnt want to do my wrist

[Erin]

Giving yourself pain isn't worth it. It doesn't make anything better. It doesn't take away the pain your already feeling. Though, I guess you know that?

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I knew someone would see it
But I always wear pants (except to bed) so no one will see

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I know it was wrong but I couldnt NOT do it

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I dont know
I need to go pray

[NerdyJediGymnast]

:'( I am broken

[Erin]

Even if it's pain you're wanting to feel, don't give in to it. Because wants you give it it's so much harder to get out. And yes you've said it was only a little but it can always get worse. AND YOU ARE NOT BROKEN.