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[NerdyJediGymnast]

I hate my family

There I said it

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Go ahead and say that, "But if something happened to them you'd be sad and regretful." Ok I get that

But you know what? For today me say


FUCK THEM

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I cant even. I dont want to be in the same HOUSE as them ANYMORE

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I dont know where Im going but its anywhere but here

[NerdyJediGymnast]

LIke its obvious there is 1 person who cares about me in there and not even all the time but more times than anyone else at that place. (My dad)

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I've cried all day

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Im sick of crying

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I hate my mom I hate her. I cant

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Maybe I should start writing letters to the universe like Howard does in Collateral Beauty

[NerdyJediGymnast]

No one will answer me but it might help

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I went to gymnastics but I didnt feel good at ALL so I asked to leave

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Now Im stuck

[NerdyJediGymnast]

And its all her fault

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I wish I didnt say anything. I wish I didnt tell my coaches I felt sick

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Then I could be there and not here

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Why is it so hard to breathe?

[KingJohnny]

whoa shit wat happend?

[KingJohnny]

babygirl r u ok?

[NerdyJediGymnast]

No Im not ok. Please come get me. Please

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I cant sleep here tonight. I cant be here

[KingJohnny]

u want me 2 get u now? fuck and go wher naimah? it'll b wors 4 u here than ur hous rn

[KingJohnny]

wat happend?

[KingJohnny]

r u tellin me u cant b ther just 4 2nite?

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Jonathan please. PLEASE I dont care. Even if its just tonight. Maybe the whole weekend? Please I dont wanna be here

[NerdyJediGymnast]

It hurts please.

[KingJohnny]

fuck

[KingJohnny]

ok ok ok im comin ok just wait ther ok? hold on here i com

[KingJohnny]

gettin in the car ok? just wait a littl while

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Ok. Thank you. Thank you so much

[KingJohnny]

k im here. lets go. i'l text ur dad l8r

[KingJohnny]

and u dont need 2 bring 2 much. i told my granma and she sed she' tak care of it all

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Thanks Johnny <3

[NerdyJediGymnast]

So Im staying over at Johnny's house. Which is crazy considering normally he tells me to never go over with him

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I feel like its gone from me helping and letting him stay with me to now the reverse

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Same play and actors, different roles being played

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Omg this house is HUGE

[NerdyJediGymnast]

LOL Mom is pissed

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Who cares?

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I've never met Johnny's grandma and she seems nice

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Mood is a little better but I still feel like Im dead on the inside

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I havent been truly happy for a month. Like, happy for a whole day. There have been bits and pieces of happy, but mostly I've been sad and annoyed and mad

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I havent been happy since my brother came home from college.





Hm

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Chrissy said I could become depressed but I dont think I am since depression would be worse

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I looked up the symptoms

[NerdyJediGymnast]

So Im not depressed

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Time to write my therapy lists

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Wtf where did everyone die off to?

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Why is it so quiet on GR?

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Notifications are non-existent right now :P

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Done with my therapy lists and now time to write my letters