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Dec 10, 2016 05:33PM
I don't know how much I will post here. Figured I could vent to myself. If you want to talk then do it. I don't care.
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I want to play my games but I also want to talk with my friends
Too bad there aren't really any on.
I really should use my contacts more.
I'm kinda glad she isn't here right now.
I would prefer her to have a busy life than the life I have. I'm never busy.
Idle hands are the devils play things.
I love her so much. I can't imagine a life without her.
Does she feel the same? Will this ever be a real relationship?
I hope she does. I want us to last. I mean if you don't plan to spend a future together, why get into the relationship? Kill time? Have some fun? Is that why she's with me?
I feel like... like I should tell her. But I've already scared her off.
If she wants to know, she'll read this and ask me. I can't burden her with such trivial things when her life is more complex than a 10x10 Rubix Cube.
When I talk to her I don't feel that pain in my heart!
I used to hurt every time I talked to her. I would get this pain every time she mentioned him. But now, I don't. I think I've moved on.
She just pisses me off so much!
I feel fine one moment and then she comes on and criticizes the things I do. It upset me and makes me want to cry.
Then there's her. The other one.
I liked talking to her but she just doesn't like talking to me.
I shouldn't even be on here in the first place
I got here because I thought I knew someone and it turns out I didn't.
I stayed because I made friends.
The only reason I came back and stayed was because of Eva.
Without her, I wouldn't have known anyone else.
Can I jump in? Or is this only for people you know?
Read the first post. Do whatever.
Venting helps clear the mind and heart.
I add friend after friend hoping they can keep me busy. I join different groups where I can post freely like this hoping they can distract me. But the more people I add, the more alone I end up feeling.
I love the winter but the sun makes the depression go away.
Makes me wonder how life in the cold dark north will make me feel.
So basically you want people to reply so that you don't feel lonely. The first post kind of makes people feel like they're not wanted, just saying XD
I only posted because you were talking and no one was replying, and the things you were saying were interesting.
Don't have to pity me. If no one is talking to me its for a good reason.
You can talk if you want. I don't care if you do.
Just don't do it cuz you feel bad that no one is replying.
Haha nope, I also said that I find what you're saying interesting.One thing that got me: how did you feel so lonely without someone, and then the next minute you were so angry at her? Or was that two different people?
I'm popping off to have dinner soon, but I'll be back later.
Two different people. One of them is Blue. She makes me so upset. The other is Kim...
So one of them makes you lonely because you like her and you miss her and the other you hate because why?
One of them you like now, and the other one you used to like and it hurt you to talk to her, and now it doesn't? Am I getting that right?
Eva,is my current gf. I miss her and a lot cuz she is very busy. Blue is an old friend from when I first joined. She was cool and funny in the past and not so much now. Kim I just met a few days ago but I love talking to her cuz just has this 'real talk' about her. Lys is my ex and I got over her a bit ago. Was really hooked on her and it hurt me to talk to her. Now I'm better.
