ƤƐƦɱɪɲɪʗ and [L.A.N.A.]

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(I'm sorry I couldn't reply sooner, I had to go to bed early because I got really sick. I'm still not feeling all that well so I might be on and off for most of the day. I'm sorry made you think that I don;t want to rp with you. >~<)

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( nah don't worry ^.^ I get paranoid a lot but yea, you go do what you do, it fine )

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I felt so ashamed. Here Smudge was simply asking me a few questions and I had the audacity to get upset for no reason? I mean, sure he was asking about my social anxiety but that didn't mean that I had to get mad at him for it, he was probably curious. He's never seen a socially disabled moron before. I shook that thought away, there was no need to think like that, I just needed to calm down and remain level headed.
I fiddled with my fingers again,picking at my nails and slowly but surely relaxing enough so I was sitting normally again when Smudge spoke. His voice was soft, almost inaudible and I felt like the fuck up this time. I was making him feel bad for asking a question, dammit, this was going against the whole "Don't be a dictator thing" I wanted to punch myself but resisted the urge and instead smiled a bit to let him know that it was okay. "You aren't...you aren't bossy, at least to me you don't seem bossy and besides. I-I'm at fault for getting upset like that." I said, averting my gaze and blowing out a breath of air, trying to calm myself down. Stay cool Oliver, there's no need to freak out juts because this is the first person you've talked to that isn't your parent.
When Smudge answered my question my brows rose and then furrowed. Only boys do it? I wracked my brain for anything boys did and quickly got it. Boners. Oh
Oh
Ohhhhhhh. He got a boner, the thing that I was trying to avoid when we were walking together and when we touched hands. But when he got one, we didn't do anything that would trigger one. Then again they happen at weird moments so then that would mean that he just hit puberty-nono, you can't hit puberty this late,can you? I should look that up,shouldn't I-Arrrrgh, why I'm thinking about Smudge and puberty?! That just didn't make a pretty picture nor did I want to think about Smudge's nether regions without getting a boner myself!
I squirmed, feeling awkward and completely not at ease with thinking about Smudge's parts and was happy when that conversation seemed to be over because e mentioned doing something else. I brightened a little bit, happy to be off of a subject that involved something other than us and private parts and mustered another smile. 'S-sure," I answered. "What is it?"

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I should punch myself for so many reasons. I wasn't lying to tell you the truth. Yet It was only with him. It was only because I was around him and I felt, well an obvious amount of... well, shit. Or maybe that was me with everyone? Is it possible enough for me to get bits of his anxiety? That's too skeptic. Or is it? Hah.
It was obvious my little Oliv was revising over his quick thoughts about him being the total opposite of a pushover and he too looked really stubborn? Did I do it? Because damn well I was already picking on his nerves if it wasn't obvious enough to you man.
Anyways, was this how things were really going to work out like? I was going to be the complete norm next to this babe all day long? All 2 months in this sleep away camp? I was gonna lose my mind without any self control.. well, if I had any self control after all.
Yet, I felt a little shaken by how cute he sounded like. He felt nervous and a little bit too lost. He's such a goner and that's so perfect.
I felt like I was raised to the heavens because oh how I loved knowing what people thought of me when they meant a lot to me of course. Don't triple think about that once.
He had the need to sigh? And of course I had the need to make things so much more better I would do anything that's reasonable enough. Well, like touching his big hands. They felt like gold. Well I guess in my mind as he fumbled with his hands a little.
I wish I could just touch his hands. Well there's 2 people in this world, people who don't do it and usually disintegrate and a person like me who's feeling like extrovert shit.
I moved my hand and winced
So close yet so far. Fuck. He was beautiful. Fuck fuck fuck.
And then yet I had to stop myself again as how flirty I felt around him was unimaginable.
I then smiled a little.
Usual boner questions and answers were the best things yet since meeting Oliv.
He looked cutely uncomfortable and I hope that's actually a thing. Well because I sound like a complete idiot to say that.
He looked like he was deep in thought. First of all to get through this he looked insanely cute as he looked studious and biting his lip. Oh god, just fall for him, Smudge. And matter of fact he's so great that maybe I'll fall for him soon because my demiromantic ass was in the way.
But anyway 1) he already figured out what I was thinking about and is thinking weird stuff or 2) he has horrible ways of figuring stuff out.
But I do wonder how smart he was. He looked like he was your average 12th grader. It was obvious he was a 12th grader without him telling me anyway.
I then chuckled a little. "You okay, Oliv?"
He looked like lost control and started squirming.
I wanted to kill myself. Uhg. So perfect.
Need to touch him. Need him all until the day I die. Fuck. Hormones are great aren't they?
I loved it when he stuttered but he would kill me for that. Aw. Poor Oliv.
"Well, Oliv." I paused and thought looking at the water. I smirked a little. "I like living life on the edge and you make me.. So alive." I leaned closer to him and looked in his eye. God. They were a perfect shade of brown. "How much do you like surprises?" I smirked playfully.
"Come on it won't hurt, just follow me. I'm very protective of you anyway."
I reached out for his hand and it was cold and sexy. God. Let me just kiss your hands without your bad judgement.
Once I lifted him up to his feet I walked with him to a cliff that wasn't too big. It was about a 28 ft drop. Well, at least for me anyway.
We passed by the groups of people sitting on chairs near the water and smiled brighter and I headed for the cliff the had people jumping off. Then, we came to the shortish line.
"Oliv, I know you're probably scared but let's make a deal. And first of all, I won't mind but you can dare me to do anything or tell you something that you really want to know about me." I paused as he looked a little frightened and rather disagreed with this deal that I had. But, I went on. "Or anything really. I'll jump off or we can jump off together." I searched his face and I got a bit worried.
I put my hand on his shoulder and rubbed it. "It's alright, Oliv." I said so softly and reassuring even I fell for it.
I then backed away and took off my swim suit top.
"It's a tradition if you don't mind." I winked and then chuckled as he started blushing mad.

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( last sentence : as he blushed mad )

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Are you gonna start a regular schedule soon?

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So you're not interested anymore in this rp??