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Hey kavy

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hey Blue

[blue]

How you doing?

[[deleted user]]

My family is moving either today or tomorrow so I might not be on. Right now, I don't feel like its a time to go on GR so I am going to do my best to stay off for probably weeks, you stay strong, Kavy!

[kavi ~he-him~]

blue wrote: "How you doing?"

I'm okay, kind of worried but other than that I'm fine

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "My family is moving either today or tomorrow so I might not be on. Right now, I don't feel like its a time to go on GR so I am going to do my best to stay off for probably weeks, you stay strong, K..."

Aww :( we'll miss you too

[[deleted user]]

Thanks Kavy, I just turned off all notifications so I won't get distracted, so won't be able to talk. I'll miss you too!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Also today is C.C aka Christian Coma from BVB's and Zack Merrill from All time low's birthdays


Today is an eventful day o.o

[kavi ~he-him~]

Also while we were out during the fire, I accidentally stepped into an ant pile and I didn't noticed until someone told me I was stepping in an ant pile and I looked down and walked away and I had to brush the ants off my shoe before they bit me, luckily I was wearing closed toed shoes and socks

[kavi ~he-him~]

So many bands on Twitter and IG following me, it's funny because of me wanting to be in a band as a lead singer and I need a Guitarist, Bassist, and a drummer

[kavi ~he-him~]

Also I made a playlist for Black Veil Brides/Andy Black/Juliet Simms songs

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Princess K (Kavy) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "Also I made a playlist for Black Veil Brides/Andy Black/Juliet Simms songs"

On spotify

[kavi ~he-him~]

https://open.spotify.com/user/animefo...

[kavi ~he-him~]

so for the past few days I'd been thinking a lot about me and Jon and my other old crushes

[kavi ~he-him~]

I never talked much about my other crushes

[kavi ~he-him~]

so here it is the story about my old crushes, idk why I had crushes cause I've never really talked much to him despite the fact that I sat right next to them in class.

[blue]

I followed you on insta, my name is Ava Smith on there

[kavi ~he-him~]

I followed you back

[blue]

KKk

[kavi ~he-him~]

my 1st crush in 9th grade, I had a crush on him the whole year, at one point he hugged me and called me cute and then I found out he had a girlfriend and it hurt cause I had a crush on him and he was taken O_O and then the 2nd semester I got put in a seat right next to him cause of assigned seats O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

my 2nd crush in 10th grade, sat next to me, cause assigned seats, but he never really noticed me and I couldn't get the courage to talk to him O_O so eventually I gave up on him

[kavi ~he-him~]

my 3rd crush, in 11th grade, before Jonathan, sat next to me in class, and I thought the teacher was shipping everyone cause she put me next to that guy but idek why I got a crush on him

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jonathan was my 4th crush and the first person that I fell in love with, and my first love, my first boyfriend, my first kiss, and my love for him is undying.

[kavi ~he-him~]

but there was a time when I was trying to move on, and let him go, but kept our friendship because I thought it was time to move on and I wanted to give us both some space and time apart because I felt we both needed it

[kavi ~he-him~]

so then, last semester in my old science class, my 5th crush was in that class, and I liked him, and I sat next to him, we'd done a lot of group work together, and been in group projects together, with some other ppl, and he was a bookworm like me, so I nicknamed him Bookslayer. I liked him, I sorta fell in love but I'm not sure if it was love, because my love for Jon was stronger, and Bookslayer couldn't replace Jon

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Princess K (Kavy/Kavya) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "but there was a time when I was trying to move on, and let him go, but kept our friendship because I thought it was time to move on and I wanted to give us both some space and time apart because I ..."

it didn't work tho, I couldn't move on XD I can't let go of him no matter how hard I try

[kavi ~he-him~]

We're watching docter strange rn

[kavi ~he-him~]

Docter strange is good

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❄️Princess K (Kavy/Kavya) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "Docter strange is good"

I added to the Avengers/Asgardian family list.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Mister docter XDD

[kavi ~he-him~]

Oh yeah I keep forgetting

[kavi ~he-him~]

my new playlist on spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/user/animefo...

[kavi ~he-him~]

lately my top fav 30 bands/singers

Black Veil Brides/Andy Black
Juliet Simms
Pierce the veil
Sleeping with sirens
My chemical romance
All time low
Evanescence/Amy lee
Fall out boy
Panic! at the disco
Twenty one pilots
Melanie Martinez
Halsey
Bring me the Horizon
Breaking Benjamin
Three days Grace
Plumb
Skillet
Grayscale
Flyleaf
I prevail
Troye Sivan
Good Charlotte
Linkin Park
Britt Nicole
Blink-182
Green day
Simple plan
Paramore
Avril lavigne



These bands/singers are not in order of my favorites, because I love them all equally except Black Veil Brides/Andy Black, Juliet Simms, Pierce the Veil, Sleeping With Sirens, My Chemical Romance, and All Time Low are my top 6 fav bands/singers and no other band can beat them

[kavi ~he-him~]

Chris Biersack (Andy Biersack's dad) liked one of my tweets 😂 I tagged him and Andy and Juliet Simms in a tweet trying to show them a playlist I made recently on Spotify, full of Bvb/Andy Black/Juliet Simms songs

[kavi ~he-him~]

Story time:

Last night before I went to sleep I turned the lamp off and I fell asleep and then I woke up in the middle of the night to find my lamp on O_O and I was like "woah was that on this whole time?" At first I thought I must have fell asleep before I turned the lamp off. But I remembered turning the lamp off before falling asleep. Idk if anyone came into my room while I was asleep but idk if it was anyone cause they were asleep. Then I remembered, in my dream before I woke up, the dream me turned the lamp on or off, and then I woke up finding the lamp on, I must have turned the lamp on while I was asleep O_O it's weird....I've never done anything in my sleep before.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Now I'm wondering if I sleepwalked during the night O_O I've never done that before.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Today is Kellin Quinn from Sleeping With Sirens's birthday

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna make two more playlists on Spotify. One for my Top 6 fav bands/singer and one for my top 30 fav bands/singers

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jonathan....I can't stop thinking about him....I love him so much....but I keep getting scared and running away from telling him I love him, in English

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lost It All by Black Veil Brides

I ruled the world.
With these hands I shook the heavens to the ground.
I laid the gods to rest.
I held the key to the kingdom.
Lions guarding castle walls.
Hail the king of death.

Then I lost it all
Dead and broken.
My back's against the wall.
Cut me open.
I'm just trying to breathe,
Just trying to figure it out
Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
I said, "Then I lost it all."
And who can save me now?

I stood above
Another war,
Another jewel upon the crown.
I was the fear of men.
But I was blind.
I couldn't see the world there right in front of me.
But now I can... (yeah)

'Cause I lost it all
Dead and broken.
My back's against the wall.
Cut me open.
I'm just trying to breathe,
Just trying to figure it out
Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
I said, "Then I lost it all."
Who can save me now?

(oh)

I believe that we all fall down sometimes (oh)
Can't you see (can't you see it) that we all fall down sometimes? (oh, yeah, oh, yeah, oh yeah)

I believe that we all fall down sometimes (oh)
(Can't you see, yeah) Can't you see that we all fall down sometimes? (yeah, we all, yeah, we all fall down)

Yeah

I believe that we all fall down sometimes
Yeah

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jonathan sat next to me during lunch today

[kavi ~he-him~]

My friend Julia: I'm short, I'm 5' 2
Me: at least you're taller than me (I'm 4' 10)
Jon: smallbeans

And then later:
Julia: *doing the love sign in ASL* this is love in All
Me: *does the Love sign in ASL*
Julia: *shows us another sign in ASL*
Jon: *does the sign*
Julia: is left your dominant hand?
Jon: yeah I'm left-handed
Julia: really?
Jon: yeah, I'm pretty sure no one here realized that I'm a left
Me: I noticed!!
Jon: *turns to me* did you??
Me: yes!! I've seen you write with your left hand!!
Julia: I've never seen you write
Jon: *turns to me* give me your pencil
Me: *gives him my pencil*
Jon: *takes my pencil and paper (I was working on a worksheet for Science) and writes "Hello, small beans" on my paper*

[kavi ~he-him~]

Oh yeah I also forgot to add:

Jon, Julia, our friend (I forgot his name): *has their bottles on the table*
Me: *takes my water bottle out of my bag* cheers *does cheers with my friend and Jon's bottles and knocks Jon's bottle down*
Jon: why would you do that? What did the bottle do to you? The bottle is my friend.
Jon: bottles lives matter
Me: 😂 *takes Jon's bottle*

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

😂😂😂😂😂

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

😂😂😂😂😂

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jonathan is funny 😂😂😂😂

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

😂😂😂😂😂 😂😂😂😂😂 😂😂😂😂😂 😂😂😂😂😂 😂😂😂😂😂 😂😂😂😂😂 😂😂😂😂😂 😂😂😂😂😂 😂😂😂😂😂

[kavi ~he-him~]

Imagine Jonathan coming on GR and coming across my journal 😂😂😂😂😂😂

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

XD Lol