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[Sirius (Malakalato) Belacqua]

Oof. That sucks. But yeah, you can get one for Chromebooks.

[Sirius (Malakalato) Belacqua]

❄️Princess K (Kavy) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "Yeah. Go to the Chrome Webstore, and look up VBA-M. And then you can download some ROMs."

I'm gonna do that after I get home from school"

Cool.

[Sirius (Malakalato) Belacqua]

It's definitely worth it.

[Sirius (Malakalato) Belacqua]

It's free, too.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just got Snapchat


Snapchat: Musicgirl3434

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just pmed two of my fav celebrities. One of them on Insta and the other on Twitter

[kavi ~he-him~]

Also Juliet Simms liked my comment on one of her posts on Insta. She's the celebrity that I pmed on Insta

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "Yeah. Go to the Chrome Webstore, and look up VBA-M. And then you can download some ROMs."

I'm home and doing this now.

[kavi ~he-him~]

LMAO!!! so I was at the park, and on the swing, and some kids come over to me, and one of them asks me if I was a freshman, and I'm like, "no I'm a senior," then the other kid goes like, "she's not a freshman, she's a freshwoman" XD lol

[kavi ~he-him~]

so, Thursday is the day I tell Jonathan I love him which is two days from now....

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk what to say or how to say it or what he wants to hear

[kavi ~he-him~]

or how to get him alone

[kavi ~he-him~]

but this is what I'm planning to say, and how to say it

[kavi ~he-him~]

Masi wrote: "sista recommend me some books pleez."

what genre?

[kavi ~he-him~]

so what I'm planning to say....

[kavi ~he-him~]

On Thursday, during lunch, I'm gonna go to Jonathan, and tell him that I need to talk to him alone, or ask him to come with me to get something so I can talk to him, and then I'm gonna say this:

I don't know how to say this, and I'm so awkward, and I don't want to mess up our friendship, but I can't hide from you anymore, I can't hide my feelings anymore, I love you, every day I fall for you deeper and deeper, everyday whenever we're away my love for you grows stronger and stronger, you mean so much to me.


is this good? is there anything I need to add, or change or remove?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Masi wrote: "say, "I don't want to mess up our friendship, but I can't hide from you anymore, I can't hide my feelings anymore, I love you, every day I fall for you deeper and deeper, everyday whenever we're aw..."

okay I'll try this

[⛄⛄Call Me Emi⛄⛄]

Masi wrote: "say, "I don't want to mess up our friendship, but I can't hide from you anymore, I can't hide my feelings anymore, I love you, every day I fall for you deeper and deeper, everyday whenever we're aw..."

omg that ruined me..... please be careful whoever is going to say this..... it usually doesnt end well.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Thank you Masi <33333333333333333

[⛄⛄Call Me Emi⛄⛄]

Masi wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "Masi wrote: "say, "I don't want to mess up our friendship, but I can't hide from you anymore, I can't hide my feelings anymore, I love you, every day I fall for you deeper a..."

lets say that when i said something a lot like that to a girl i was in love with she turned me down.... it hurt really bad. and i still cant look at her.

[kavi ~he-him~]

⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "Masi wrote: "say, "I don't want to mess up our friendship, but I can't hide from you anymore, I can't hide my feelings anymore, I love you, every day I fall for you deeper and deeper, everyday when..."

⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "Masi wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "Masi wrote: "say, "I don't want to mess up our friendship, but I can't hide from you anymore, I can't hide my feelings anymore, I love you, every day I fall for..."

I'm sorry.....Idk what I should say....

[⛄⛄Call Me Emi⛄⛄]

oh well if you have a vibe then i hope it works out :P

[kavi ~he-him~]

thanks, we're like really close and I love him, but idk if it'll work Idk for sure.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

and I'm also afraid of messing up our friendship

[⛄⛄Call Me Emi⛄⛄]

okay so heres what i said and then what she said

me: youre amazing and beautiful and kind and you have the prettiest hazel eyes and every time i smell your perfume i get butterflies, and just a small smile can make my day. your so perfect.

her: youre so sweet and that means a lot to me, nobody has ever said something like that about me but rn im really focusing on myself and not trying to date. i am so sorry, i hope you understand because i really do care about you and want whats best for you and i cant be that.



sorry that took me a while to look up.

[kavi ~he-him~]

⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "okay so heres what i said and then what she said

me: youre amazing and beautiful and kind and you have the prettiest hazel eyes and every time i smell your perfume i get butterflies, and just a sm..."

awww *hugs*

[⛄⛄Call Me Emi⛄⛄]

❄️Princess K (Kavy) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "okay so heres what i said and then what she said

me: youre amazing and beautiful and kind and you have the prettiest hazel eyes and every time i smell your perfume i get bu..."

thnx. i feel like thats a maybe but i dont speak girl so idk. i feel more like its a polite turn down.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Masi wrote: "I have belief in you. How close is he to you? Do you get a romantic vibe or a friend one?"

thanks Masi, he's really close, and idk which vibe we have, we started out as friends, then we went from friends into a relationship, our love for each other was real, and he is special, and then we broke up, and now we're friends, like really close friends and I'm still in love with him. My gut feelings say that we are meant to be together, and I've felt the heat and sparks from his body. And I'd had some feelings that I can't explain what they felt like, and he has some kind of effect on me Idk how to explain it, but whenever I'm near him, my knees feel wobbly, and I'm unable to control my smile, even when I'm not in the mood to smile.

[kavi ~he-him~]

⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "okay so heres what i said and then what she said

me: youre amazing and beau..."

are you guys still friends?

[⛄⛄Call Me Emi⛄⛄]

❄️Princess K (Kavy) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "okay so heres what i said and then what she said

me..."

yeah i dont know if we are. she sits with me on the bus sometimes and when we see each other we smile or wave but we dont talk a lot. or at least not as much as before i told her. plus i got my phone taken up at school and i havent gotten it back cause we have to pay 15 whole dollars to get it back and i dont have that kind of money and my mom is one of those parents thats like "go work for it" so yeah. i havent texted her in like a week.

[kavi ~he-him~]

⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone,..."

That is ridiculous. Paying 15 whole dollars just to get your phone back

[kavi ~he-him~]

So Sleeping with Sirens is coming out with a new record soon, All Time Low is coming out with a new album in June, and Black Veil Brides are coming out with a new album in Fall O_O I CAN'T WAIT!' AHH

[kavi ~he-him~]

Also today is Brendon Urie from Panic! At the Disco's Birthday

[Hallie]

Hi Kavy!! :D

[Hallie]

And hi Masi, too :)

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Listen to "Every time you run" by Manafest ft. Trevor McNevan.

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sup

[⛄⛄Call Me Emi⛄⛄]

habooboo

[Rima]

don't know how to use goodreads. don't know what I'm doing here. I don't understand what everybody is talking about. sorry to just jump in --' !

[kavi ~he-him~]

HEY EVERYONE

[kavi ~he-him~]

I think my friend Carlos is trying to ship me and Jon idk

[kavi ~he-him~]

also I can't stop thinking about Jon, ever since in the car after anime club and now, I can't stop thinking about him.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Love....why is love so complicated and confusing? I'm a fan of romance, but when it comes to my own romance it's confusing.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

no, no pop, unless it's Halsey, Melanie Martinez, Troye Sivan, or Juliet Simms

[kavi ~he-him~]

So today was supposed to be the day I tell Jonathan I love him but I don't think I'm ready....I may tell him next week instead but idk....I'll see what happens.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm kind of scared.....I'm not just afraid of rejection but I'm also afraid of messing up our friendship, what if he does reject me? Then what will happen to our friendship?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I couldn't stop thinking about him yesterday, and I can't stop thinking about him now. And he came in my dreams last night

[kavi ~he-him~]

In the dream, he called me his wife

[kavi ~he-him~]

O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

So been thinking a lot about the band stuff and wondering. I want to do it. But would it be good and fun? Because there are a lot of things I have to do.