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~the sea does not like to be restrained (Kavi's journal)~
then we went to play a game of mini golf and Carlos came and joined us, and then after the game we went inside, and played in the arcade for a little, and then we went back outside and played another game of mini golf, tho for the first hole, we were playing seriously, but then Jon and Angel went on ahead of us, and then for most of the holes I was basically like, I don't even care, and just cheating by shoving the ball into the hole XD and after the game and before we went inside we were sitting/standing and talking and I was standing near Jon, and my body had the urge to like go closer to Jon and hug him, and I had to resist it, because I don't want to scare Jon off, idk what would've happened if my body had taken full control
then we went inside, and waited for my mom to come and pick us up and while we were waiting, we all went over to a booth, Avery and Jonathan sat on one side, and then Angel and Annette were sitting on the other side, and there was no room for me, but then Jon asked Avery to scoot over and then he scoot over and I sat next to Jon, and me and Jon were literally so close to each other, that our arms and thighs were pressed against each other, and because our arms were pressed against each other, I kept feeling warmth and sparks coming from Jon O_O
And then my mom and Avery's brother came to pick us up, so Avery, Annette, and Angel went with Avery's brother, and Jon, and Carlos came with me and my mom, and Carlos sat in the front, I was sitting next to Jon, and Carlos didn't talk much, so me and Jon were doing the most talking and my mom occassionally talked O_O
while in the car:My mom: so Jonathan, what are you planning to do after high school
Jon: oh, I'm planning to take 6 months off to get some loans, and then go to Collin College for the spring semester (that's the community college that I'm going to)
Me: AYY I'M GONNA BE THERE *smiles*
Jon: nice
My mom: Which location are you going to do? (there are different campuses on different locations for Collin College)
Jon: idk actually
Me: we can go to the same one
My mom: then where are you going to go?
Jon: UTD
Me: AYY I'M GOING TO UTD!! (that's my dream university, University of Texas at Dallas, and I'm planning to go there after community college) *high fives Jon*
Jon: I'm going there because it has a good music program, and it's good for a music composer
Me: I want to do three things: Graphics Design, writing, and being in a band
Jon: Being in a band is actually stressful, I've been in one as the lead drummer
Me: I want to go in as a lead singer.
Me: Jon, which is better going solo or being in a band?
Jon: well going solo, you're going to be alone, and you'll get a lot of stage fright, as for being in the band you'll have other ppl there.
Me: that's kind of why I want to be in band, because I have stage fright, like I've presented stuff in the class, but it's a class, but going out there in front of so many ppl, and being in the band, we're all like a family and have each other's backs and stuff.
Jon: I get ya
Me: Jon, which is better glasses or contacts?
Jon: glasses, because contacts are more risky
Me: I like wearing glasses too, I can't get contacts until I'm 30 anyways
Jon: Kavya, want to watch me play my Gba emulater? (He has a Gameboy emulator on his phone)Me: sure *watches him play*
then we were passing by our school:
Me: Who wants to go to school?
My mom: You, Kavya we'll just drop you off
Jon: *laughs* yeah, we'll drop you off by the gym
Me: *looks at Jon* well you're coming with me
Jon: Nope
Jon: *continues to play his GBA emulator on his phone*
Me: *watches him*
Jon: these guys are just rapping about food
Me: *laughs* wow. I can't rap
Me: I remember in one of my games tomodachi life, my characters were having a rap battle. Imagine me having a rap battle irl
Jon: that'll be interesting
Me: I can't rap *laughs* now me singing
Jon: I inherited my singing from my mother, I don't like singing tho
Me: I like singing, I used to be in choir, but I can't sing in front of other ppl.
And then we all arrived at Whiskey cake, and then they lead us over to the table, and I sat next to Jon the whole time there, and it was fun, and we talked, and then afterwards, me, Jon, and Annette stood outside the restaurant waiting for our parents and talkingMe: we should do this again sometime
Jon: mhm
Me: we can hang out at my house
and then my mom came to pick me up and I hugged Annette, then I turned to Jon, he was coming towards me, and I asked him if he was coming with us, he said no, and he hugged me and I hugged him, and as I got into the car, I waved bye to both Annette and Jonathan and he waved back with a smile on his face.
I may not be a seer but with this I can see you two dating once again
O_O I think it's gonna happen soon, and I can see us having a future together, and I can't see myself having that future with anyone else, we're practically going to the same colleges. I'm just hoping no one gets in between us during his 6 years off, since we may be separated from each other. My gut feelings did say we are meant to be together, so. Plus I'd felt that sparks.
FOLLOW THE GUT FEELING!!!THE SPARKS MEAN SOMETHING!!
O_O tho, idk how I'd be able to repay him tho....he's so nice and kind and helped me a couple of time....he helped me with a game, when I was stuck on a part in the game, on my 3ds, he helped me out in a drawing, and today while at the restaurant he helped me put my food into the to go box, how can I repay him for that? I want to repay him for his kindness, but idk how to.....
O_O I think it's gonna happen soon I can feel it in my gut!!! that sparks I felt yesterday....when our arms and thighs were pressed together in that booth at adventure landing....O_O I wonder if he felt it to....O_O
I can not stop thinking about Jon O_O most of last night while trying to sleep I was thinking about Jon, and also daydreaming about BVB, but Jon
I have a feeling in my gut that we are gonna start dating again soon
I'm happy but at the same time I'm nervous, because if we do get back together then there is the risk of another breakup, and I don't want us to break up, and the pain of when we broke up last year.....I don't want to feel that again....and there is the risk of getting hurt, because love can sometimes tear you apart....but I love him so I'm willing to take that risk because I love him and I want to be with him again.
when the time comes tho, I will tell him my fears.....
but I have a gut feeling that when we do get back together, it's gonna last longer than before....and since we're going to be going to the same colleges.....and I have a gut feeling it's gonna last forever....there may be some problems because every relationship has problems, but I'm willing to work them out because I love him.
I have a gut feeling that Jonathan is gonna be the guy I marry in the future. And I want him to be that guy
Woah O_O On wattpad, I have a book full of song lyrics that I wrote, and it has 397 reads OMG O_O
of all of my favorite bands, Simple Plan one of my fav bands, seems to relate to my life the most, their lyrics, seems to relate to how I feel O_O
Their song, Welcome to my life, describes exactly how I feel O_O it's funny because when I first discovered them, last year, the song, welcome to my life, was the first song I listened to, I was in a mood, that was when me and Jon broke up and I was going through so much pain, and I was depressed and stuff, and then I discovered this song, and that band, and it describes exactly how I was feeling O_O
This Song saved my life by Simple Plan [Verse 1]
I want to start by letting you know this
Because of you, my life has a purpose
You helped be who I am today
I see myself in every word you say
Sometimes it feels like nobody gets me
Trapped in a world where everyone hates me
There's so much that I'm going through
I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you
[Chorus]
I was broken, I was choking, I was lost
This song saved my life
I was bleeding, stopped believing, could have died
This song saved my life
I was down, I was drowning, but it came on just in time
This song saved my life
[Verse 2]
Sometimes I feel like you've known me forever
You always know how to make me feel better
Because of you my dad and me
Are so much closer than we used to be
You're my escape when I'm stuck in a small town
I turn you up whenever I feel down
You let me know like no one else
That it's okay to be myself
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
You'll never know what it means to me
That I'm not alone, that I'll never have to be
[Chorus]
This song saved my life
I love how when I'm singing the words seem to come natural to me O_O I've started practicing my singing again....
2 more months until I graduate!! O_O
Jonathan....I can't stop thinking about him....I keep thinking about when we get back together and stuff
when we get back together, I'm probably gonna hug him and cry, because I missed him, I missed being his gf, and I love him
I couldn't sleep until 2 in the morning cause I couldn't stop thinking about Jon
I wonder if my mom liked him....
his kindness tho....the way he accepted me for ME, the real me, even tho idk who the real me is, he sees me for ME, not for my looks, but on the inside, he doesn't seem to notice my flaws, he's seen my crazyness side, knows how crazy I can be, but doesn't judge me for that, I feel more comfortable talking to him then I feel with most ppl irl, I opened up to him quickly, I can be myself around him, and he won't judge me for it, I can tell him anything and he won't judge me, and he is a good listener, he cares for me so much....and I love him for that....but idk how I'll be able to repay him for this for all of this because this means a lot to me, he means a lot to me. he is everything to me.
Everyday when we are apart, I fall even more in love with him, my love for him grows stronger and stronger, like I love him so deeply that I can physically feel it in my heart.
I think the time to tell him I love him is coming sooner
when we get back together, I'm gonna step out of my comfort zone and stuff.....
yesterday when I was leaving, and when I waved at Annette and Jon, and when Jon waved back smiling. His smile.....it was wide, and real, I love it....
also, is it bad that I feel more closer to Jonathan then I do with anyone else, except for my cousin?
Geez I couldn't sleep until 1 or 2 am cause I couldn't stop thinking about Jon!! Lmao!!
Is this what being in love can do to you? Prevent me from sleeping? Because the guy is ALWAYS on my mind
I love Jonathan, but....I CAN'T always think about him ALL the time because I have other things to think about as well and I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP
I wonder if Jon couldn't sleep either and if he can't stop thinking about me either
Didn't you say that if you keep getting awoken from your sleep, that means someone is thinking about you in their dreams???
The right time to tell Jon I love him is coming soon....I should probably prepare what I'm gonna say, that way I know what I'm gonna say when that time comes.....
Wow, if I was a close friend of yours, I would have forced you months ago to confess your love to him, some friends you have,...
I was waiting for the right time!! Because my gut feelings said to wait for the right time
Last night while thinking about Jon, I kept thinking about him, and us and when we get back together and after we get back together and our future.
Your gut is ter....That actually makes sense.
How are you not toget.....You just told me, wow, I am forgetful today.
I have a gut feeling that Jonathan may or may not be the one to come to me to tell me he loves me first idk he might, but if he doesn't I'll do it
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Me: *turns to Jon* Jon, do you remember how you got nominated as prom king
Jon: Yeah *laughs*
Me: what if you get the prom king