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[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "It's annoying how ppl constantly remind you how short you are -_- like HEIGHT ISN'T EVERYTHING -_-"

True

[Hallie]

You know what's the problem with being tall? No one lets you off the hook even then! Whether your short or tall, they just keep commenting. I'm 5'4", and since a lot of people in my family happen to be shorter than me, they're always saying, "She's going to be the tallest in our family!" or "Ooo I think she'll outbeat even *insert name of one of the tall people on the family*. And even though I'm only average, they're always trying to compare. Hey it doesn't matter! I'm not going to be immortal if I'm the tallest -_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

*sighs* ppl are so judgy....

[Hallie]

❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "*sighs* ppl are so judgy...."

True....

They have a problem if you're short; they have a problem if you're tall; they get worked up when you're fat; they like to advice you when you're thin. Basically they have a problem with everything.

[blue]

Exactly.. People don't really understand like the height or a person, or the weight, or the skin color.. Those all don't matter. It only matters if your a nice and respectful person in heart.

[blue]

Suicide is the 3rd leading cause for death.. Like people bullying each other for who they are. That isn't right at all. Like those numbers keep increasing every day...

[kavi ~he-him~]

some ppl ask me if I'm a diet, because I'm so skinny.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I weigh somewhere between 80-90 lbs

[kavi ~he-him~]

and I DO EAT, it's just I get sick a lot....

[Hallie]

❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "some ppl ask me if I'm a diet, because I'm so skinny....."

Same problem here :/ And one friend called me " lame" on my face when I abstained from something that she had bought to share with us. I didn't take it because it contained something that doesn't deal well with me (I would have thrown up if I had eaten it) -_-

[blue]

Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "some ppl ask me if I'm a diet, because I'm so skinny....."

Same problem here :/ And one frie..."

Wow that is so mean..

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "some ppl ask me if I'm a diet, because I'm so skinny....."

Same problem here :/ And one frie..."

geez.....ppl these days.....

[Hallie]

Blue wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "some ppl ask me if I'm a diet, because I'm so skinny....."

Same problem here ..."

Well, I'm not extremely close to her.

❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "and I DO EAT, it's just I get sick a lot...."

I weighed 94lbs the last time I checked. I just look too think, but I'm actually not bad at physical work.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Andy Biersack is very wise....

[blue]

that is so true

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love Andy Biersack.....he is amazing....

[kavi ~he-him~]

WHEN I WAS A YOUNG BOY
MY FATHER TOOK ME INTO THE CITY
TO SEE THE MARCHING BAND

[kavi ~he-him~]

ROCK FTWWWWWWW

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk a lot of ppl irl that has the same musical taste as me :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

Andy Biersack is hot....O_O

[blue]

haha

[kavi ~he-him~]

unfortunately he is 9 years older than me and is married. so he is a brother to me

[kavi ~he-him~]

him and Jonathan are BOTH on my mind a lot O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

Andy's wife tho, Juliet Simms, I love her too, her voice is pretty and she is pretty O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

tho at the same time, for some reason I feel a little jealous of her because she is married to Andy idk why, but I am happy for them tho....

[kavi ~he-him~]

some problems with me dating....idk if I've said this before.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love Jonathan, and he is amazing and awesome, and I want to be with him again....but at the same time....I'm scared of getting too close and attached to ppl and relationships kind of scare me....because relationships allow you both to get really close to each other, and if one of you walks away, it's gonna tear you apart, I love Jon and I trust him, but I don't want him to leave me, or walk away, I'm afraid of getting hurt again, getting hurt is inevitable, I know, and I'm used to getting hurt, but when you've been hurt a lot it's just....

[blue]

❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "I love Jonathan, and he is amazing and awesome, and I want to be with him again....but at the same time....I'm scared of getting too close and attached to ppl and relationships kind of scare me......."

Which jonathan..?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm a broken girl, I'd been broken even before me and Jon started dating

[kavi ~he-him~]

Blue wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "I love Jonathan, and he is amazing and awesome, and I want to be with him again....but at the..."

My Jonathan

[[deleted user]]

Hey, Kavy, I'm back!!!!

[[deleted user]]

Hows life?

[kavi ~he-him~]

dating a broken girl....you have to be careful when you're dating a broken girl, because if you walk away or leave her, it's gonna break her even more then she already is, it's gonna tear her apart....

[blue]

❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "Blue wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "I love Jonathan, and he is amazing and awesome, and I want to be with him again...."

oh

[kavi ~he-him~]

when me and Jon broke up, I suffered a lot, I was falling apart, I had to do everything I can to hold myself together and keep myself together, I felt nausea, I threw up, I cried a lot, I know, this is probably how most break ups are, but for me, it was painful.....because me and Jon's relationship. I was truly in love with him, because during the relationship it was most happiness I felt in my whole life, because he cared for me a lot, and accepted me for ME, the feelings that we had, I won't be able to feel that with anyone else, and because he wasn't just my boyfriend, but my friend too, my best friend, I'd found myself telling him a lot of things, even things I don't tell a lot of ppl, I loved him so much, and I had a feeling that we were meant to be together, and I still have that feeling....I still love him tho....I will always love him not matter what happens, because my love for him is strong. And my love for him never faded. and I can tell he loved me too, I saw it in his eyes.

[blue]

❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "when me and Jon broke up, I suffered a lot, I was falling apart, I had to do everything I can to hold myself together and keep myself together, I felt nausea, I threw up, I cried a lot, I know, thi..."

I'm sorry Kavy... *hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Hey, Kavy, I'm back!!!!"

TRELAS

Blue wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "when me and Jon broke up, I suffered a lot, I was falling apart, I had to do everything I can..."

it's okay....*hugs* despite all that stuff I still love him

[kavi ~he-him~]

for some reason, I feel like the universe is testing me and Jon's love with that break up.....because even after we broke up I never stopped loving him, this is true love,

[[deleted user]]

Are u okay, Kavy? I don't want to return to a sad Kavy, how are u feeling?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Me: Is the universe testing me and Jon's love with that breakup?
My gut feeling: yes, because sometimes in the relationships, universe/life, will throw obstacles along your way, to see how strong your love is, because no relationship is perfect, all relationships have ups and downs, but what really matters, is how you both come out of the ups and downs, you and Jonathan both loved each other a lot, you broke up, you went through a lot of pain, but despite all that you never stopped loving him, it's been months since you broke up and yet you never stopped loving him, that says something. Your love for him is so strong and powerful, it can't break, nothing can come in the way of your love for him. THIS is true love.

Me: so, if my love for him is this strong and powerful, what would it be like for his love for me? does he feel the same way?

My gut feeling: Yes he does, because like I said before, you both loved each other a lot, your love for him was so strong, and still is as strong, his love for you was strong as well, he broke up with you cause he didn't want to hurt you, and the love between you and Jonathan, the love that was there when you two were still dating, that love will never fade, that love will always be there forever, once you fall in love with someone, you can't just fall out of love, you can't stop loving them, if you do fall out of love then that means the love wasn't real, and the love between you and Jonathan is real, your love for Jonathan is powerful, and never faded, and is still as strong, and if your love for him never faded, and still as strong, that means he'd be feeling the same way too. Because his love for you is real....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Are u okay, Kavy? I don't want to return to a sad Kavy, how are u feeling?"

I'm okay....wbu

[kavi ~he-him~]

Me: But Jon's actions....don't always seem like he does love me or care for me....
My gut: He does love you, and does care for you. Sometimes the actions don't always mean anything. he loves you but he doesn't know if you love him. like I've said before, pay attention to his eyes, because that is where the truth is....
Me: so, when should I tell him, I love him?
My gut: wait, love requires patience and waiting. At least wait until the RIGHT time.
Me: when will I know when the right time would be? I'd been waiting for MONTHS now!! there is only three months left until we graduate, there is not much time left!!!
My gut: Patience Kavya, patience. It will happen soon, remember you have much more time then those three months, you guys have each other's phone numbers remember? and even then, remember, you guys are meant to be together, so no matter what happens, you'll always find your way back to each other. It will happen soon....

[kavi ~he-him~]

My gut feelings are very wise....

[NerdyJediGymnast]

KAVY TELL HIM HOW YOU FEELLLL

[kavi ~he-him~]

I will, soon when my gut feelings says it's time, because it says to wait for the right time.

[KingJohnny]

princess i luv u. ur an amazing sis-in-law.but if u dont tel Othr Jon u luv him I swer i wil LOSE my MIND

[kavi ~he-him~]

Dance with the Devil by Breaking Benjamin

[Verse 1]
Here I stand, helpless and left for dead
Close your eyes, so many days go by
Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right
I believe in you, I can show you that
I can see right through all your empty lies
I won't stay long in this world so wrong

[Chorus]
Say goodbye as we dance with the devil tonight
Don't you dare look at him in the eye
As we dance with the devil tonight

[Verse 2]
Trembling, crawling across my skin
Feeling your cold dead eyes stealing the life of mine
I believe in you, I can show you that
I can see right through all your empty lies
I won't last long in this world so wrong

[Chorus]
Say goodbye as we dance with the devil tonight
Don't you dare look at him in the eye
As we dance with the devil tonight

Hold on, hold on

[Chorus]
Say goodbye as we dance with the devil tonight
Don't you dare look at him in the eye
As we dance with the devil tonight

Hold on, hold on

Goodbye

[kavi ~he-him~]

Can you feel my heart by Bring Me The Horizon

[Chorus]
Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel, can you feel my heart?

[Verse]
Can you help the hopeless?
Well I'm begging on my knees
Can you save my bastard soul?
Will you wait for me?
I'm sorry brothers
So sorry lover
Forgive me father
I love you mother

[Chorus]
Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel my heart?
Can you feel my heart?

[Bridge]
I'm scared to get close
I hate being alone
I long for that feeling
To not feel at all
The higher I get
The lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons
They know how to swim
I'm scared to get close
I hate being alone
I long for that feeling
To not feel at all
The higher I get
The lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons
They know how to swim
I'm scared to get close
I hate being alone
I long for that feeling
To not feel at all
The higher I get
The lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons
They know how to swim

[Chorus]
Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel, can you feel my heart?

[kavi ~he-him~]

∂ινιиιтуღ ~ι ¢αи'т ρυт му нєαят σи нσℓ∂~ wrote: "❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: " Dance with the Devil by Breaking Benjamin

[Verse 1]
Here I stand, helpless and left for de..."

YES BESTIE!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

ME AND JON BE MAKING PROGRESS *blushes*