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❄️Princess K (Kavy) of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I'm gonna die under all this stress.....my dad wants me to show him my grades every day after I come home from school *cries* I feel like breaking down......"

*hugs* I'm sorry Kavy.. Let me know if there's ANY way I could help you.. Idk what to do.. I'm so sorry.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just want this year to be over......

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same wat r ur grades anyway?

[kavi ~he-him~]

All bs except for Earth and Space science which I'm failing and I have to pass that class....otherwise I can't graduate.....

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well look at it this way..... its not all f's

[kavi ~he-him~]

But I still need the E.S.S Credit....

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ik but look on the bright side ur mostly passing

[kavi ~he-him~]

True but still....

[kavi ~he-him~]

For some reason.....reading depression quotes help me idk why.....

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"we fear that which we wannot see"

[kavi ~he-him~]

True....

[kavi ~he-him~]

They help because it helps to know that I'm not alone in this depression.....

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https://images.search.yahoo.com/image...

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna be home soon.....and when I get home I have to show my dad my grades....*trembles* I'm scared.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Gonna be home soon....wish me luck.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

at home now and idk if my dad is home or not

[kavi ~he-him~]

Tyler wrote: "i'm tyler jordan nice to meet you"

Hey Tyler!! nice to meet you too!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

150 viewers O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

What is the celebration folder for tho?

[kavi ~he-him~]

so, at lunch, Gameslayer wasn't there....but I found out that Gameslayer asked Annette out at one point....it was probably before Gameslayer met me but still....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was sitting with my friends Avery and Annette waiting for the teacher to come. And then Avery asked Annette this....

Avery: do you remember when Jonathan asked you out once, but you were so awkward?

O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk how I feel about this....because Annette is my friend and I love her, but Jon, I love him, so it kind of feels a little awkward

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jon knew Annette longer than he knew me, we met at the beginning of 11th grade

[kavi ~he-him~]

but I was his first gf, and he was my first bf, and I still love him

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Ummmmm im just gona say good luck with dat sooooo.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't help but keep having Mind Vs gut over this.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

my gut feeling says it's ME he loves, also that we are meant to be together, so no matter what happens, we'll always find our way back to each other O_O *blushes*

[kavi ~he-him~]

Me: Does Jonathan really love me? (I've asked my gut feelings this question a lot)
My gut: yes, it's YOU he loves, no one else.
Me: Is Jonathan really the one?
My gut: Yes he is.
Me: Are we really meant to be together?
My gut: yes you are. You both are meant to be.

[Wolf (Alpha)]

Kavy, follow your gut. Instincts are goo most of the time.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've had to ask my gut feelings these questions a LOT because I'm insecure about myself and my self-esteem is extremely low....

[Wolf (Alpha)]

Kavy, don't be insecure. Be confident. "Success is at the end of your confort zone" - anonymous.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Me: so, if I'm thinking about Jonathan a lot, does that mean he's thinking about me a lot?
My gut: yes
Me: If he is special to me, then does that mean I'm special to him?
My gut: yes.
Me: I can't stop loving him no matter what happens, so does that mean he feels the same way?
My gut: Yes, the feeling is mutual.
Me: My love for him is really strong, so does that mean his love for me is as strong as mine for him?
My gut: Yes
Me: I can't love anyone else the same way I love Jonathan, I can't replace him, does that mean he feels the same way about me?
My gut: Yes, the feeling is mutual.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Wolf wrote: "Kavy, don't be insecure. Be confident. "Success is at the end of your confort zone" - it'anonymous."

it's hard for me to not be insecure....because of the past....I know it's the past but.....the past affected me a lot, and I....haven't healed yet....

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

❄️Princess K (Kavy) of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Me: so, if I'm thinking about Jonathan a lot, does that mean he's thinking about me a lot?
My gut: yes
Me: If he is special to me, then does that mean I'm special to him?
My gut: yes.
Me: I can't s..."

Your gut feeling though heh, butvi agree with your gut. Get your guy!

[Wolf (Alpha)]

I haven't healed yet either, but I go out and give it all I have. If I fail, I get my behind off the ground and try again.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Me: so, the feelings between me and Jonathan are really mutual?
My gut: yes
Me: but the other girls....Jonathan has a lot of friends that are girls....
My gut: Yes, but they are just friends, It's YOU that he loves, YOU and YOU only
Me: but there is always the possibility that the love can be one-sided....
My gut: but this love is mutual. Besides Love can be one-sided. But True love isn't one-sided. True love is mutual, THIS is true love.
Me: O_O

[Wolf (Alpha)]

KAVY YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm scared to get attached to other ppl, and trust other ppl, because in my school, it's hard to trust other ppl without getting hurt, like almost EVERY time I get attached to someone, I always get hurt in the end :( and I'm always afraid that they might leave me, leaving me broken even tho I'm already broken, and can't really break what's already broken....

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Princess K (Kavy) of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Me: so, the feelings between me and Jonathan are really mutual?
My gut: yes
Me: but the other girls....Jonathan has a lot of friends that are girls....
My gut: Yes, but they are just friends, It's ..."

AHH TRUE LOVE IS HERE AHHH

[Wolf (Alpha)]

❄️Princess K (Kavy) of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I'm scared to get attached to other ppl, and trust other ppl, because in my school, it's hard to trust other ppl without getting hurt, like almost EVERY time I get attached to someone, I always get..."

The same thing has happened to me several times

[kavi ~he-him~]

Me: but sometimes it's hard to see if Jonathan really does care for me or love me or not
My gut: Kavy, pay attention to his eyes, the eyes are where the truth is, also pay attention to the way he hugs you, when you hug him
Me: but idk how to read eyes
My gut: It's okay, I'll be here to help, that's what I'm here for,

[NerdyJediGymnast]

FOLLOW YOUR GUT

[kavi ~he-him~]

Me: should I tell Jonathan I love him?
My gut: yes, but wait, wait until the right time comes
Me: how do I know when the right time is?
My gut: you'll know, I'll let you know.
Me: but there is not a lot of time left before school ends
My gut: yes there is, you guys have each other's phone numbers, besides remember, you will always find your way back to each other, you guys are meant to be together, this is TRUE LOVE!!
Me: ....you are very wise
My gut: that's what I'm here for, to give you guidance

[kavi ~he-him~]

is it bad that I'm ALWAYS listening to my gut feeling? even during tests, I'd use my brain for the test, but I'm scared of my mind

[kavi ~he-him~]

this is where I'd gotten some of those words of wisdom from.....from my gut feelings

[kavi ~he-him~]

I think I'm learning more things from my gut feelings then I am in school....

[NerdyJediGymnast]

❄️Princess K (Kavy Fullbuster) of Books and music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "I think I'm learning more things from my gut feelings then I am in school...."

Wow........just wow. School isnt trying hard enough then XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

XD Well school is only about the grades now so....XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

Andy biersack was in my dreams last night O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

I keep forgetting my journal is in the 150+ views folder now XD