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[kavi ~he-him~]

Ikr what if my roommate is mean, or doesn't like my tastes and judges me for it, what if she judges me for my musical tastes o.o

[kavi ~he-him~]

TBH I'd be like if she doesn't like it, then she can live with it, but the fact that I might be living wth some ppl like that, idk for sure

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Ikr what if my roommate is mean, or doesn't like my tastes and judges me for it, what if she judges me for my musical tastes o.o"

Hold up, already you're thinking negative thoughts Kavy.

[kavi ~he-him~]

What if my roommate is a social person, and I'm not much of a social person and she keeps trying to get me to be more social or to talk more o.o

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Ikr what if my roommate is mean, or doesn't like my tastes and judges me for it, what if she judges me for my musical tast..."

Sorry like I said I'm insecure

[kavi ~he-him~]

And my self-esteem is really low I need to bring that up but idk how

[[deleted user]]

I still have college fears. Because the news always have bad news about schools and colleges.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm actually pretty excited because I'd been looking forward for this my whole life now

[kavi ~he-him~]

PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "I still have college fears. Because the news always have bad news about schools and colleges."

Then again there can be bad news anywhere but as much as there are bad news there are also good news and good ppl out there, you just have to keep your head held high and keep looking for the ppl

[kavi ~he-him~]

But at the same time....I'm nervous.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Reasons why I'm nervous:

1. Idk if I'm ready or not. Like all these years....went by so quickly....I hate my past but there are some things that I like....like meeting my best friend....meeting Gameslayer, last year.....meeting my friends on GR....

2. My friends at school, I finally found some really nice friends that haven't left me yet and never judged me even tho I was expecting them to.....even tho I still have trust issues tho I trust Gameslayer....but I don't want to lose my friends, I'm hoping we still can stay in touch even after we go off to college....

I will tell the 3rd reason after I get home cause I'm on the bus and close to my bus stop and will be getting down soon

[kavi ~he-him~]

okay I'm home now.

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "okay I'm home now."

Yay! What's the 3rd reason?

[kavi ~he-him~]

3. Gameslayer, I have a feeling it's gonna happen between us again soon. And we're gonna get back together soon. We'd been making some progress for the past couple of days or so and when we get back together....I have a feeling it's gonna last longer....well I want it to....I want us to last a REALLY long time.....and I don't want anything or anyone coming in between us, I don't want college to come in between us.

[kavi ~he-him~]

He is taking a gap year and staying home for a year later, while I'm gonna be going to community college for a year

[kavi ~he-him~]

Guys....this is gonna sound crazy....because I'm only 17 and there is a long way to go....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know I'm only 17, but....

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "3. Gameslayer, I have a feeling it's gonna happen between us again soon. And we're gonna get back together soon. We'd been making some progress for the past couple of days or so and when we get bac..."


MAKE YOUR MOVE NOW

[kavi ~he-him~]

Gameslayer is like a really nice and amazing person, and my best guy friend....I'm already in love with him, I've been in love with him even before we'd started dating. In 11th grade, the first time I walked into anime club, for the first meeting, that was when I first saw him, and I wanted to be his friend but as everyone was new to me at that time, I was too shy and quiet, and then the next day Gameslayer came up to me, and said hey, and he asked me, "You don't talk much do you?" And I shook my head. And we met and became friends, but also at that time, I was in love with the fictional characters and I didn't know that the good guys existed besides the guys that I know online, and I didn't really care much for relationships at time, even tho I was already dating an anime character.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Then after me and Gameslayer became friends, I started sensing something really special about him, I don't know what it was, but something about him was attracting me to him, and I started realizing that Gameslayer is different from all the other guys, he's nice and kind, and cared for me so much, more than anyone else in the school did....besides our other friends....he accepted me for ME, once, this was before, I started developing feelings for him, he asked me if I had any crushes/bf and I said no, unless you count fictional characters, and he laughed it off, and somehow he knew about my obsession with Gray from my favorite anime Fairy Tail.

[kavi ~he-him~]

PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "WHAT WE HAVE IN COMMON:

College fears (my parents WANT me to go, but writing is MY PASSION and I already have other things in mind)
Fictional characters (in love and I love my own characters)
Fu..."

I love you sis

[[deleted user]]

I love you too, sister.

[kavi ~he-him~]

And Gameslayer is a great guy, but at that time, I promised myself I wouldn't get any crushes on anyone in general, because of some old crushes, yes I had crushes before him, and it hurt, so I promised myself no crushes

[kavi ~he-him~]

But then I started developing feelings for Gameslayer, but at first I kept denying it because 1. my promise to myself, 2. I was scared he was gonna hurt me. He'd even been coming in my dreams O_O and then after a while I started accepting my feelings for him, and then as we grew closer and closer to each other, I fell in love with him.

[[deleted user]]

No,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no........no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no.......no.......no,no.......no. NO MORE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS.

[kavi ~he-him~]

also at that time, I was also used to ppl getting tired of me and getting left out of things. Being one of the last ppl to get picked for things, feeling unwanted, ppl not waiting for me after class even tho I waited for them. >-> But then Gameslayer comes along....

[kavi ~he-him~]

And he cared for me a lot, made me feel wanted and loved and cared for. he cared when I was sad, he noticed when I was sad even tho I was trying to hide it, he never pushed tho, before him, no one ever cared if I was sad or not, but then he comes, because of him, my views on ALL guys in general, not just the ones that I know online but the ones irl too, most of the guys in my school are disruptive and stuff no offense to them, but I started realizing that not all the guys are like that. He was literally the first person in my school to stay this long and to accept me for ME, he even listened when I ranted.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wasn't used to this stuff at that time, but at the same time....it....means a lot to me Gameslayer means a lot to me.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "No,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no........no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no.......no.......no,no.......no. NO MORE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS."

Trelas I can't help the negative thoughts. Like I said....I'd been hurt a lot, and been going through my pain since I was 4....besides wait till you hear the whole story

[kavi ~he-him~]

even after our break up I never really stopped loving him or gave up on him, I tried getting crushes on some of my other friends, and I thought it would work out but at the same time I didn't think it would be cause my love for Gameslayer is really strong. And it never went away....when we'd started dating, I had a thought that he was the one and we were meant to be together, even after we broke up I....always had the hope that he'd come back because I had the feeling that it was.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate being apart from him even tho we're friends and we're really close....

[kavi ~he-him~]

everyday, I can feel myself falling even deeper and deeper in love with him, normally the love should've faded within time but instead my love for him grew stronger and stronger

[kavi ~he-him~]

Guys....this is gonna sound crazy *closes eyes*

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know I am only 17....

[kavi ~he-him~]

But....I....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I....want Gameslayer to be the guy.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want him to be the guy I marry in the future *blushes and hides face*

[kavi ~he-him~]

dear god, I say this and I immediately begin having some kind of feeling in my chest O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

I....have been thinking about this while in the bus

[kavi ~he-him~]

but....it's true....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want Gameslayer to be the guy I marry in the future

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I want him to be the guy I marry in the future *blushes and hides face*"

Hm. Nothing embarrassing about that, Kavy.

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I want Gameslayer to be the guy I marry in the future"

OOOO I APPROVE!!

[[deleted user]]

If this guy is as good and kind as you say he is, marry him when the time is right. NOT NOW, but when the time is right.

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I....have been thinking about this while in the bus"

Why were you thinking this in the bus anyways?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I....have been thinking about this while in the bus"

Why were you thinking this in the bus anyways?"

idk I like to think a lot about the deep stuff

[kavi ~he-him~]

Gødꧧ øf løvê Prïñçꧧ øf wëîrdñ맧~Î'll âlwãŷ§ bê hëré~Lŷ§ wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I want Gameslayer to be the guy I marry in the future"

OOOO I APPROVE!!"


Trelas wrote: "If this guy is as good and kind as you say he is, marry him when the time is right. NOT NOW, but when the time is right."

OKAY!!! Yeah, I want to marry him, but I have to wait a while, because of college and jobs and the future

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Gødꧧ øf løvê Prïñçꧧ øf wëîrdñ맧~Î'll âlwãŷ§ bê hëré~Lŷ§ wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I want Gameslayer to be the guy I marry in the future..."

Kavy, to be honest with you, I'm a boy and everything, but you are extremely lucky to have such a nice guy. I want the exact opposite, in terms of gender, I want a girl like Gameslayer that makes you think about life before life. Marriage and children before you even start college or high school, its crazy.

[kavi ~he-him~]

ikr, before we'd started dating and when I was falling for Gameslayer, I had this feeling that this chance with Gameslayer was like once in a million years thing, and because guys like Gameslayer are REALLY hard to find. There are other guys I know but none of them can replace Gameslayer, the feelings that I felt with Gameslayer I won't be able to have that with anyone else

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "ikr, before we'd started dating and when I was falling for Gameslayer, I had this feeling that this chance with Gameslayer was like once in a million years thing, and because guys like Gameslayer a..."

I hope I meet someone that makes me feel the same way.