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[kavi ~he-him~]

my ex-friend, after she hurt me really badly. My heart was shattered, for days/weeks/months she didn't say anything to me, while my heart was just shattering, tho she did give me dirty looks like I did something to her. idek what I did to her. and then a YEAR later after hurting me, she comes over and waves to me and stuff -_- I hate her -_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

SHE was the reason I started developing trust issues

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "one of the first persons who ACCEPTED me for ME, he knows how crazy I can be yet he still stays friends with me. the first..."

I think he is the one O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

Cyn~Anime is love, anime is life, anime is awesome~ wrote: "ITS GOD IN DISGUISE



SORRY I AM VERY HYPER RIGHT NOW XD"

lmao

[kavi ~he-him~]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "SHE was the reason I started developing trust issues"

SHE was the reason I started wondering if I had any true friends

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "SHE was the reason I started developing trust issues"

Well, then forget. AND don't say u can't. Because U can. You have to actually try, Kavy.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've DEALT with bullies, I've dealt with haters, I've dealt with pain, I've dealt with fake friends.

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "one of the first persons who ACCEPTED me for ME, he knows how crazy I can be yet he still stays friends wit..."

Okay, so what else does that mean?

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

ITS THE ILLUMINATI/GOD/RANDOM STUFF IM SAYING FOR NO REASON/HE SEEMS AWESOME/IM VERY VERY BORED AND NEED TO ROLE-PLAY/IM GONNA MAKE SOME POPCORN NOW

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I've DEALT with bullies, I've dealt with haters, I've dealt with pain, I've dealt with fake friends."

SAME!!!!!!!!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "SHE was the reason I started developing trust issues"

Well, then forget. AND don't say u can't. Because U can. You have t..."

I can't forget this Trelas, it's been THREE years since this happened and I've never forgiven her, she hurt me really really badly

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "one of the first persons who ACC..."

he cares

[kavi ~he-him~]

Cyn~Anime is love, anime is life, anime is awesome~ wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I've DEALT with bullies, I've dealt with haters, I've dealt with pain, I've dealt with fake friends."

SAME!!!!!!!!!!!"

my brother's never dealt with this stuff but I have :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm the nicest person yet I'M the one that always gets hurt

[kavi ~he-him~]

WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME??? I'VE BEEN FIGHTING MY OWN BATTLES SINCE I WAS 4 DAMMIT

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "one of the first ..."

U saying 'he cares', now, what does this mean you should be doing for now on?

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Cyn~Anime is love, anime is life, anime is awesome~ wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I've DEALT with bullies, I've dealt with haters, I've dealt wi..."

Ive been bullied, Ive been harassed online(GR and Youtube), Ive been choked, Ive been told no one liked me, I had a few fake friends, Ive felt alone most of my time

[[deleted user]]

I will give u a hint, Kavy.



































Believe in the fact that he will only like u and that he only will see all the beautiful qualities in you.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Oh Ive also been called ugly before

[[deleted user]]

Cyn~Anime is love, anime is life, anime is awesome~ wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Cyn~Anime is love, anime is life, anime is awesome~ wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it ..."

Hold on!!!! CHOKED!!!!

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Yeah, choked

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm too scared to get too close to ppl I'm scared to get too attached to ppl, because almost EVERYTIME I get attached I end up getting hurt. In my school, I CAN'T TRUST ANYONE WITHOUT GETTING HURT. I TRY SO HARD JUST TO BE PPL'S FRIENDS BUT THEY ARE JUST LIKE "nope"

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of ..."

it's not that easy Trelas.....like I said, I'm really insecure about myself.....after all that I'd been through it's hard

[kavi ~he-him~]

Cyn~Anime is love, anime is life, anime is awesome~ wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Cyn~Anime is love, anime is life, anime is awesome~ wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it ..."

I'd been cyberbullied in a game on my phone, I don't have that game anymore, I've had a lot of fake friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

I trust Gameslayer despite having trust issues. BUT IT'S JUST SO HARD DAMMIT

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'VE EVEN BEEN TOLD I WAS WORTHLESS, I'VE EVEN BEEN TOLD MORE THAN ONCE THAT NO ONE LIKES ME. kind of hard not to believe that.....

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Pr..."

*Sigh* This is tough, but I'm gonna keep on trying to make you realize it though.

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

KAVY!!!! *tackle hugs* BIG SIS!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

*sighs* I really need to learn to love myself.....but Idk how to....I like being the girl I am the crazy and different person but at the same time I don't love myself, there's the side to me that I hate.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's the me that is hidden underneath my mask, the side that NO ONE ever seen

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't even remember the last time I was truly happy, without faking the happiness

[kavi ~he-him~]

Gødꧧ øf løvê Prïñçꧧ øf wëîrdñ맧~Î'll âlwãŷ§ bê hëré~Lŷ§ wrote: "KAVY!!!! *tackle hugs* BIG SIS!!!!"

SIS *falls*

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I can't even remember the last time I was truly happy, without faking the happiness"

I am so sad for you.

[kavi ~he-him~]

irl, ppl keep expecting me to do something, they expect me to get good grades, to pass, to speak up, to "be like other ppl" BUT IT'S JUST SO HARD TO LIVE UP TO OTHER PPL'S EXPECTATIONS. I JUST WANT TO BE MY OWN SELF I WANT TO JUST DO MY OWN THING!!!! WITHOUT LIFE GETTING IN THE WAY AND WITHOUT PPL EXPECTING ME TO DO THINGS

[[deleted user]]

Cyn~Anime is love, anime is life, anime is awesome~ wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I've DEALT with bullies, I've dealt with haters, I've dealt with pain, I've dealt with fake friends."

SAME!!!!!!!!!!!"

SAME! I keep having revenge thoughts though!

[kavi ~he-him~]

my mom is like "study study study" she wants me to get good grades. she wants me to "dress like other ppl to do," and "look at how other ppl dress" I know studying is important, school is important, BUT I'M ALSO DEALING WITH MY DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY TOO, I GET SCHOOL IS IMPORTANT BUT I ALSO HAVE TAKE CARE OF MY MENTAL HEALTH TOOO. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET GOOD GRADES IF THESE THINGS ARE COMING IN THE WAY?

[kavi ~he-him~]

AND I DON'T WANT TO DRESS LIKE OTHER PPL I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE OTHER PPL I JUST WANT TO BE MY OWN SELF THE GIRL THAT I WANT TO BE!!!!

[[deleted user]]

I get the studying part. I never got good grades in Drivers Ed. I'm different from the other students.

I still remember doing homework for Creative Writing Class. I hate Word Count.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm tired of trying to fit in with everyone
I'm tired of trying to live up to other ppl's expectation
I'm tired of caring about what other ppl say if negative
I'm tired of caring if other ppl care me or not
I don't want to care....I try not to care but inside it kills me.
I don't want to care if other ppl leave me or not. but EVERY TIME someone leaves it breaks my heart. Even tho my heart is already broken.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wish Andy from BVB would respond to my pm because I want to talk to him.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want to tell him all about my troubles and how his music saved my life

[[deleted user]]

I've tried to fit in with my church friends. I wanted to dress like them, but my family forbiddened me to dress like them. It's not fair that my cousins gets to do whatever they want and I'm always left out.

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's one of the reasons I want to meet one of my fav bands before I die

[kavi ~he-him~]

PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "I've tried to fit in with my church friends. I wanted to dress like them, but my family forbiddened me to dress like them. It's not fair that my cousins gets to do whatever they want and I'm always..."

ikr, I get left out so easily and it makes me feel angry and unwanted

[kavi ~he-him~]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "it's one of the reasons I want to meet one of my fav bands before I die"

But unfortunately they are busy :(

[[deleted user]]

I still remember my days of being left out. Both family and friends. There were times that I was jealous of them.

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's not just with Gameslayer that I get jealous but with my other friends too....:(

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm that type of person that can get replaced really easily....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't like being replaced. And I don't like the feeling of it....:(

[[deleted user]]

I've been replaced before...I'm trying to remember the timeline of it...