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[kavi ~he-him~]

My own twin brother irl never even been there when I needed him, he'd never even tried to protect me when I was being bullied, he and my parents knew cause the bully hurt me physically but he never even tried to protect me, in 4th grade when my "friends" ditched me during recess my brother was too busy playing football with his friends not noticing what was going on....he's my brother he's SUPPOSED to help me but he never did.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

In 9th grade the first two days of school I had nowhere to sit, during lunch so I sat with my brother then after school he gets mad at me for sitting with him. I NEEDED A PLACE TO SIT. >.< I used to say hi to him at school but he doesn't like it so I stopped....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate my past except for somethings

[kavi ~he-him~]

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "It's alright some ppl tend to get scared of them Lol"

Yeah, that was my mistake, shouldn't have said that...."

I'm doing good in life right now, actually getting sleep in and finishing some books off.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "It's alright some ppl tend to ge..."

Lucky

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "It's alright some..."

Yeah

[kavi ~he-him~]

....In English we had to do an article and that article was making fun of Sesame Street and emo teenagers.....I'm emo....:(

[[deleted user]]

I grew up watching Sesame Street.

I'm still offended at some people who made fun of Barney the purple dinosaur.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm offended at them making fun of the emos and everyone in the class was talking about the emos because we are studying Satire and I'm probably the only emo in that class idk a lot of emos in my school so I was kind of feeling a little uncomfortable and was trying to sink in my chair o.o

[kavi ~he-him~]

Making a twitter

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I'm offended at them making fun of the emos and everyone in the class was talking about the emos because we are studying Satire and I'm probably the only emo in that class idk a lot of emos in my s..."

I was the only Christian at college in 2016 and I felt so offended. Because the teacher kept talking about dark things (NOT Emo things).

[kavi ~he-him~]

PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I'm offended at them making fun of the emos and everyone in the class was talking about the emos because we are studying S..."

wow but the thing about emos, not all emos wear black all the time, I wear black but not all the time, and sometimes ppl wear black to reflect on their emotions. Also Emo is short for Emotional. Plus, we've gone through a lot of things,

[kavi ~he-him~]

Twitter: Musicforlife334

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I'm offended at them making fun o..."

I wear black once in awhile. I wish people would understand other people.

[kavi ~he-him~]

ikr

[kavi ~he-him~]

I change my mind about twitter, maybe I'll delete it, because it wants me to verify my phone number so it could call me

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm following some more of my fav bands on IG the bands which also saved my life just like BVB did

[[deleted user]]

So are you actually going to PM Andy?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "So are you actually going to PM Andy?"

I want to but I keep chickening :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

Okay I'm gonna go do it now wish me luck

[kavi ~he-him~]

*closes eyes and breathes*

[kavi ~he-him~]

I keep saying that I'm gonna pm Andy but I KEEP CHICKENING AND MY ANXIETY KEEPS GETTING IN THE WAY AHHH

[[deleted user]]

I just wished you a bucket full of luck, Kavy.

[Wolf (Alpha)]

Trelas wrote: "I just wished you a bucket full of luck, Kavy."

Same.

[Wolf (Alpha)]

Wait, Kavy do you have twitter?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Wolf (Tura) wrote: "Wait, Kavy do you have twitter?"

Yeah but my account is locked for some reason

[kavi ~he-him~]

Story time:

so a voice actor came to my anime club today, she was the same person that came last year too. I was sitting next to David, and two seats away from Gameslayer, and everyone was asking the Voice actor some questions and she answered them. Her name is Lara Woodhull and she is very sweet. Then after that we all went to get food, which was good. And I got Lara Woodhull to sign my sketchbook. And at the end, we all had a group photo, and before I left. I hugged Gameslayer and he hugged me back.

[kavi ~he-him~]

dear god, everyday I fall in love with him more and more.....he is amazing

[kavi ~he-him~]

I do love Andy but I also love Gameslayer

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Story time:

so a voice actor came to my anime club today, she was the same person that came last year too. I was sitting next to David, and two seats away from Gameslayer, and everyone was asking ..."

WHOO, you're making tons of progress each day with Gameslayer. Couldn't be prouder!

[kavi ~he-him~]

but the thing is, Gameslayer has a lot of friends that are girls, they are just friends and I can't say anything because I have guy friends too. but I can't help but feel a little jealous, not TOO jealous but still....is this jealousy normal?....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I shouldn't feel jealous, I shouldn't feel jealous, because my intuition and heart tells me that it's ME that he loves, but at times it's hard to tell, cause I start to feel jealous, is this normal for love?

[kavi ~he-him~]

everyday my heart grows stronger. sometimes I wonder if he is feeling the same way as me.....I want him to....

[kavi ~he-him~]

today when I hugged him, I laid my head on his shoulder for a little bit, he didn't say anything

[kavi ~he-him~]

during the anime club my friend Avery was sitting in between me and Gameslayer and another girl was sitting on his other side. And I kept giving him a few glances, and the feeling of jealousy was there

[kavi ~he-him~]

god, I miss him so much, despite being his friend. I miss being in his arms, I miss the way he held me, I miss snuggling with him, I miss telling him I love him, I miss everything about him

[[deleted user]]

Kavy, come on, and stop worrying about if he loves u or not and about other girls. OBVIOUSLY, he loves you and likes you. Stop worrying, it can stress you out sometimes. Trust me, I know.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know I shouldn't worry too much, but I can't help my worries. My anxiety keeps getting in the way. I worry too much

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I shouldn't feel jealous, I shouldn't feel jealous, because my intuition and heart tells me that it's ME that he loves, but at times it's hard to tell, cause I start to feel jealous, is this normal..."

GURL SAME! TRINITY IS GETTING ON MY NERVES

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I know I shouldn't worry too much, but I can't help my worries. My anxiety keeps getting in the way. I worry too much"

You really do worry too much, Kavy. Dang it, now you are worrying me. The irony.

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I shouldn't feel jealous, I shouldn't feel jealous, because my intuition and heart tells me that it's ME that he loves, bu..."

:( *hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

and it doesn't help that I'm really insecure about myself. My anxiety isn't helping with this stuff :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I know I shouldn't worry too much, but I can't help my worries. My anxiety keeps getting in the way. I worry too much"

Yo..."

I can't help worrying Trelas :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

Losing Gameslayer is like a nightmare to me....I know there are other guys out there....but he's like that one person.......

[kavi ~he-him~]

he is special to me :( my first love, my first bf, the first person for a lot of things

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Losing Gameslayer is like a nightmare to me....I know there are other guys out there....but he's like that one person......."

KAVY, KAVY, KAVY, sorry for yelling, but STTTTOOOOOPPPP. You are not going to lose Gameslayer and I am not saying that twice.

[kavi ~he-him~]

one of the first persons who ACCEPTED me for ME, he knows how crazy I can be yet he still stays friends with me. the first time we met, HE came to ME, I kept expecting him to leave but he never did. HE could've left me, but instead he doesn't even tho we're just friends. He never betrayed me never stopped trying. the way he held me when we were still together, it gave me a warmth feeling in my heart, and I loved it, I can't feel that with any other guys. I tried going for other guys but it didn't work out. He cared and noticed when I was feeling sad, even tho I was trying to hide it, he never pushed tho. Before that, I felt unwanted, been left in the dark, been stabbed in the back, been bullied in elementary school or preschool, been hurt, but then HE comes and things changed O_O my whole life now I'd been suffering through my pain, he never left me in the dark, never stabbed me in the back, never hurt me. even the week we broke up I was upset, and in anime club he came over to me and said hey, it means a lot he means a lot to me

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

ITS GOD IN DISGUISE



SORRY I AM VERY HYPER RIGHT NOW XD

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "one of the first persons who ACCEPTED me for ME, he knows how crazy I can be yet he still stays friends with me. the first time we met, HE came to ME, I kept expecting him to leave but he never did..."

Realize what u just said. What does this mean about HIM?