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Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "The thing is....I've stopped caring about what other ppl say or think about me if it's negative, I've stopped caring if other ppl hate me or not....well....I want to stop caring but I don't want an..."

We're Asgardian sisters!

[kavi ~he-him~]

At school they tell you what to do when you're being bullied, but what do you do if it's your own self and your own thoughts that you are being bullied by. Idk how to control my thoughts, it's weird....my mind is my own my thoughts should be my own and I should be able to control them, but I can't control Depression which makes it difficult to control my thoughts

[kavi ~he-him~]

SonicFan wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "The thing is....I've stopped caring about what other ppl say or think about me if it's negative, I've stopped caring if ot..."

PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "The thing is....I've stopped caring about what other ppl say or think about me if it's negative, I've stopped caring if ot..."

Thank you guys.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I used to be selfish when I was younger but then after a while I became nicer and kinder because I wanted friends, but being nice is hard especially when some ppl won't accept my kindness.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Why is it always the most nicest and most kindest ppl that gets hurt the most?.....

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I think all of us are in the same Asgardian Flying Boat here.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Its because people are jealous of us, thats why. They're jealous that they cant be like us so they hurt us.

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Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Why is it always the most nicest and most kindest ppl that gets hurt the most?....."

I often wondered about that. Why though? Shouldn't the bullies get treated worse? They damaged us to where we want revenge on them.

Yes, I'll admit that I wanted revenge on my bullies. But it never happen.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Some bullies are spoiled some are probably people who's been through a lot and take it out on those with a happy life and try and ruin our lives so they can feel better.

[kavi ~he-him~]

PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "Not being rude or anything. The public school I went to didn't help with anything. The counseling didn't help with anything because one of the bullies just won't SHUT UP."

When I was being bullied back in elementary and preschool, I tried telling the teacher and they tried telling my bully to stop but it didn't work -_- my twin brother, and my parents knew because the bully hurt me physically, but my brother didn't even try to protect me, tbh at that time....I think the only time ppl ACTUALLY cared was when I was hurt -_- in preschool I used to think my brother was my only friend but now that I think about it....I'm not so sure about him anymore.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

SonicFan wrote: "Its because people are jealous of us, thats why. They're jealous that they cant be like us so they hurt us."

PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Why is it always the most nicest and most kindest ppl that gets hurt the most?....."

I often wondered about that. Why tho..."

SonicFan wrote: "Some bullies are spoiled some are probably people who's been through a lot and take it out on those with a happy life and try and ruin our lives so they can feel better."

True but I get some of them has been through a lot as well but THAT DOESN'T MEAN THEY CAN TAKE OUT THEIR PAIN ON OTHERS AS WELL! BULLYING OTHER PPL DOESN'T MAKE ANYTHING BETTER IT ONLY MAKES THINGS WORSE

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Human minds work differently

[kavi ~he-him~]

True but still

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm scared of my mind, I'm afraid of getting lost in there, because my mind is a really dark place

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm broken and shattered inside behind my smile, I'm broken beyond fixing and I can't be fixed

[kavi ~he-him~]

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PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "Sue Kenny (my brother's so-called teacher from back when he was in elementary) says that he couldn't do anything,

My family is like, HELLO! YOU'RE A TEACHER OF SPEICAL NEEDS AND YOU SAY STUFF LIK..."

Ppl these days....

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Yes. I never liked her. She's scary. She was my summer school teacher.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Therapy by All time low

My ship went down
In a sea of sound.
When I woke up alone I had everything:
A handful of moments I wished I could change
And a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade.

In a city of fools,
I was careful and cool,
But they tore me apart like a hurricane...
A handful of moments I wished I could change
But I was carried away.

Give me therapy.
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can keep all your misery.

My lungs gave out
As I faced the crowd.
I think that keeping this up could be dangerous.
I'm flesh and bone,
I'm a rolling stone
And the experts say I'm delirious.

Give me therapy.
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can take back your misery.

Arrogant boy,
Love yourself so no one has to.
They're better off without you.
(They're better off without you.)

Arrogant boy,
Cause a scene like you're supposed to.
They'll fall asleep without you.
You're lucky if your memory remains.

Give me therapy.
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can take back your misery.

Therapy...
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can choke on your misery.

[kavi ~he-him~]

*sighs*....I really wish I could meet any of my fav bands someday.....

[jericho]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "*sighs*....I really wish I could meet any of my fav bands someday....."

SAME

[kavi ~he-him~]

I DAYDREAM ABOUT MEETING THEM EVERYDAY

[kavi ~he-him~]

that awkward moment when you're daydreaming or thinking about something and then you accidentally unconsciously say something out loud, or physically do something with your hands or body

[kavi ~he-him~]

....my insomnia has returned.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel like writing a new song but Idk what to write....

[kavi ~he-him~]

O_O welp

[kavi ~he-him~]

Headphones by Britt Nicole

She gave it her best
She tried to fit in
She tried to be cool
But she never could win
Her mom says she's great
The kids think she's weird
Honestly she wish she could disappear

Why you try, try to be like the rest of them
When you know there's so much more within
There's only one you
Here's what ya' gotta do

Whoa, whoa...
Anytime you feel alone, put on your headphones
Love, love's coming through your headphones
Anytime you feel alone, put on your headphones
Love, love's coming through your headphones
L-o-o-ove is coming through your headphones
L-o-o-ove is coming through your headphones

He gets in his car
He falls apart
It came to an end
And now it's breaking his heart
He wants to give up
Wants to try again
Honestly he doesn't know what he's feeling

Hey, you might not see it with your eyes
But keep your head up to the sky
The sun is coming through
Here's what you gotta do

Whoa, whoa...
Anytime you feel alone, put on your headphones
Love, love's coming through your headphones
Anytime you feel alone, put on your headphones
Love, love's coming through your headphones
L-o-o-ove is coming through your headphones
L-o-o-ove is coming through your headphones

So keep your head up high and dust off your shoulders
It's alright, no, it's not over
Love is here, it came to dry up all your tears
Oh, can you feel it
Gotta believe it, gotta see it
By your side in the middle of the night
So keep your head up high and the dust off your shoulders
It's alright, no it's not over

Anytime you feel alone, put on your headphones
Love, love's coming through your headphones
Anytime you feel alone, put on your headphones
Love, love's coming through your headphones
L-o-o-ove is coming through your headphones
L-o-o-ove is coming through your headphones

So keep your head up high and dust off your shoulders
Coming through your headphones
So keep your head up high and dust off your shoulders
Coming through your headphones

Twinkle, twinkle in your eye
Listen to this lullaby
The sun is shining in the sky
I see love it's in your eyes

This ain't the first time you felt like this
This ain't the first time, this ain't the first time
This ain't the last time you'll feel like this
But it'll be fine
If you can just, smile

[Wolf (Alpha)]

Hi Kavy!!!!!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

TURA

[kavi ~he-him~]

The Sound Of Silence by Disturbed


Hello, darkness, my old friend
I've come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping

And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
'Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp

When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening

People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dare
Disturb the sound of silence

"Fools," said I, "You do not know:
Silence, like a cancer, grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you.
Take my arms that I might reach you."

But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
And the words that it was forming

And the sign said,
"The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls."
And whispered in the sound of silence

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love music

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just love that moment when I can just lose myself into the music

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love the moment when I can understand the lyrics

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love sad music, cause it soothes and comforts me and calms me down, when I'm sad

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Disturbed is awesome.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Cyn~Anime is love, anime is life, anime is awesome~ wrote: "Disturbed is awesome."

AGREED

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Kavy, I don't like your profile pic....Why did u change it?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Kavy, I don't like your profile pic....Why did u change it?"

Why it's my fav band :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Kavy, I don't like your profile pic....Why did u change it?"

Why it's my fav band :("

Aka the band that saved my life >->

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Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Kavy, I don't like your profile pic....Why did u change it?"

Why it's my fav band :("

Aka the band that s..."

Oh, oh, oh, oh, nevermind, I did not mean to appear rude, please keep it. Sorry, sorry!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

It's alright some ppl tend to get scared of them Lol

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Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "It's alright some ppl tend to get scared of them Lol"

Yeah, that was my mistake, shouldn't have said that. Anyways, how r u Kavy?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "It's alright some ppl tend to get scared of them Lol"

Yeah, that was my mistake, shouldn't have said that. Anyways, how r..."

I'm okay. Wbu

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want to help others, but how can I do that if I can't even help my own self
I want to give others advice but how can I do that if I can't even take those advices for my own self
I want to love other ppl and be loved by them, but how can I do that if I can't even love my own self
I want to say somethings to other ppl but how can I do that if those things aren't true for me
I want to say that things will get better to other ppl but how can I do that when things haven't gotten better for me yet
I want to fix other broken ppl but how can I do that if I can't even fix my own broken self

[kavi ~he-him~]

My anxiety and social anxiety seems to be getting worse....

[kavi ~he-him~]

The teachers at school are expecting me to speak up or ask for help when I need it, but the thing is....I can't they think I'm extremely shy but what they don't know is I'm shy but it's not just that I'm shy I have REALLY bad social anxiety

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't ask for help even if I desperately need it
I can't learn how to drive
I can't do a lot of things due to my anxiety :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

Depression sucks
Anxiety sucks
Paranoia sucks

But having all of them at once sucks even more :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've been fighting my own battles in life, I've been going through my pain, since I was 4....

[kavi ~he-him~]

My brother irl, never had a dark past.....but I've had ....
He's never been bullied.....but I've had...
He's never had fake friends.....but I've had....