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[[deleted user]]

They know about my anxiety, because my college fear. I don't want to go to any public places and get bullied. I'm ok with church things! But not school things! My father would ramble about life and my mother would try to tell him that I can't always understand things.

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Ash wrote: "NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Ash wrote: "MWAHAHAHAHAH
I AM HERE"

TWIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNN"

Elllo!"

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

[ashrey]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Ash wrote: "NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Ash wrote: "MWAHAHAHAHAH
I AM HERE"

TWIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNN"

Elllo!"

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII"

how are yOUUUUUUUUUUUU???

[ashrey]

PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Even my own family is fooled by my fake smile...."

I can't always tell them how I really feel. I feel safer in my fiction..."
My parents would freak.
Take away my computer. UHHHHH banish me.
prob slap me.
LONNNNNNNG talkssss.
UHHHHH, never forgive me.
Yeah all that crap....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Ash wrote: "MWAHAHAHAHAH
I AM HERE"

SISSSSS

[kavi ~he-him~]

Music is helping tho

[ashrey]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Ash wrote: "MWAHAHAHAHAH
I AM HERE"

SISSSSS"

KAVY.
i have like 5minutes
be4 my mother returns so i must use my time wisely.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Ash wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Ash wrote: "MWAHAHAHAHAH
I AM HERE"

SISSSSS"

KAVY.
i have like 5minutes
be4 my mother returns so i must use my time wisely."

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have 102 followers on Pinterest O_O

[ashrey]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I have 102 followers on Pinterest O_O"

WOW.
My mother has left for 3hrs
YAYA

[kavi ~he-him~]

Ash wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I have 102 followers on Pinterest O_O"

WOW.
My mother has left for 3hrs
YAYA"

YAY

[kavi ~he-him~]

That awkward moment when you were daydreaming or thinking about something and then you accidentally say something allowed. *whispers* my life

[kavi ~he-him~]

also guys, while I was walking to lunch with Gameslayer, me and him were walking together alone, and I wished him, "Happy Valentines day!" and he said, "thanks, Happy Valentines Day to you too!" And then he showed me something on his phone, and I told him about yesterday being Internet best friends day, and he was like, "really? I did not know that" And I was thinking, I wanted to tell him that he is so amazing or thank him for not leaving, because it means a lot. And I was also thinking about telling him my feelings and stuff, like not about the love, but about how I was feeling and my problems and stuff....since I tell him a lot of stuff....and because even while I was with him and in lunch, with our friends, I was still feeling depressed and stuff, like I was about to breakdown, but I can't breakdown, but I still kept trying to manage a smile, and trying to be happy and laugh, even tho it was hard....I wanted to tell him my feelings, but I didn't know how too....because I never opened up to anyone except for you guys about my feelings. Gameslayer knows about my depression cause I told him about it. but I'm bad at opening up about my feelings and problems....I can say them in a text or in a message cause it's easier, but out loud.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was also thinking about telling him about my fears of getting too attached and too close to ppl....

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I was also thinking about telling him about my fears of getting too attached and too close to ppl...."

You SHOULD tell him so he understands how you're feeling right now, tell him everything.

[kavi ~he-him~]

He probably might understand, because he's in depression as well as I am, he told me about it. But idk how to tell him because it's not that easy....also I might start crying in front of him if I tell him in person, and I never cried in front of him or any of my friends before. I've cried in class a few times, in the bathroom more than one during lunch, lunch one time which was before I started sitting with Gameslayer and our other friends. but never in front of them. usually when I cry no one notices, but I don't want to risk crying in front of them because 1. I don't want them to worry, 2. I'm scared they're gonna ask me what's wrong, and I don't want them to ask me what's wrong, and sometimes idk how to talk about my problems....

[[deleted user]]

Are u allowed to go to his house or have him go to your house?

[kavi ~he-him~]

well....we've never met each other's parents yet....so.....and we've never really hung out much outside of school, other than a friend's birthday part and the school's Asia Fest so....we would've hung out at each other's homes, but we never got that far cause he broke up with me >->

[kavi ~he-him~]

well today in 7th period, I got a twix from the teacher and that's the only thing I got XD and this girl brought a bag of lollipops and she gave one to everyone except for me XD

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "well today in 7th period, I got a twix from the teacher and that's the only thing I got XD and this girl brought a bag of lollipops and she gave one to everyone except for me XD"

WHAT? How the world is this happening to you? Gosh lee my teeth are gonna be rotten yet you don't even have to worry about that problem. And u COOL about it?? Amazing.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't think she likes me very much >-> I saw the way she looked at me when she came to my class, she looked like she was trying to judge me >->

[[deleted user]]

U know what, today's a good day and it will have an awesome ending.

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I don't think she likes me very much >-> I saw the way she looked at me when she came to my class, she looked like she was trying to judge me >->"

*Sighs and shakes my head*
This is frustrating how others are acting right now.

[kavi ~he-him~]

then again, she can't hate me or judge me cause she doesn't know me very well >->

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I don't think she likes me very much >-> I saw the way she looked at me when she came to my class, she looked like she was..."

welp, ppl are idiots so

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "I don't think she likes me very much >-> I saw the way she looked at me when she came to my class, she look..."

Agreed.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Not...that I care because I'm done caring what other ppl think or say about me if it's negative and I'm done caring if ppl hate me or not. at least I try not to care....even tho it hurts but I can deal.

[kavi ~he-him~]

also I don't trust her. I've seen her around last year and before she came to my class, and I may be quiet, but I am very good at observing ppl. >->

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm used to being hated for no reason by ppl anyways. >-> this....coming from the girl who's been hated by most ppl most of her life now....

[kavi ~he-him~]

to all the ppl that are trying to judge me

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "to all the ppl that are trying to judge me

"

I'm sorry Kavy, about all of this. *Hugs tightly* I truly am.

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's alright *hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

To all of my haters:

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "it's alright *hugs*"

This has got to be tough for you.

[kavi ~he-him~]

again to my haters:

[kavi ~he-him~]

Also to my haters:

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MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I DO WHAT I WANT AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME

[kavi ~he-him~]

ugh that pic won't work :( I was doing it right

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "it's alright *hugs*"

This has got to be tough for you."

Nah, they can hate me all they want, they can try to bring me down all they want, but I'm only gonna end up coming back stronger, MUCH stronger

[kavi ~he-him~]

Besides without them I wouldn't have become the person that I am rn, and I would never have met my best friends/family on GR

[Wolf (Alpha)]

Nope, and I should say thank you to them for giving me a great friend.

[jericho]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Besides without them I wouldn't have become the person that I am rn, and I would never have met my best friends/family on GR"

I LUV U KAVY!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Wolf (Tura) wrote: "Nope, and I should say thank you to them for giving me a great friend."

awww THANKS TURA

Thelma the Gamer Girl ~ I'm a girl and I love video games,my friends say I'm not a normal girl...sorry I would rather sit at home and play my games wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Besides without them I wouldn't have become the person that I am rn, and I would never have met my best friends/family on ..."

I LOVE YOU BOTH TURA AND THELMA AND I LOVE EVERY ONE OF MY FRIENDS

[Wolf (Alpha)]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Wolf (Tura) wrote: "Nope, and I should say thank you to them for giving me a great friend."

awww THANKS TURA

Thelma the Gamer Girl ~ I'm a girl and I love video games,my friends say I'm not a no..."

You too Kavy.

[jericho]

Wolf (Tura) wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Wolf (Tura) wrote: "Nope, and I should say thank you to them for giving me a great friend."

awww THANKS TURA

Thelma the..."
Same here!

[kavi ~he-him~]

what I really hate tho....

[kavi ~he-him~]

is when ppl that hate me pretend to like me and then stab me in the back later......

[kavi ~he-him~]

like ppl, if you hate me, come to my face and tell me you hate me honestly don't pretend to like me and stab me in the back later.....

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "is when ppl that hate me pretend to like me and then stab me in the back later......"

I've never experienced that and I hope I don't have to....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hurt me with the truth, but NEVER EVER comfort me with a lie EVER

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books and music ~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "is when ppl that hate me pretend to like me and then stab me in the back later......"

I've never experienced that and I h..."

being backstabbed is the worse pain ever