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Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "I'm here with my friends now....I'm afraid to say anything because I don't want to start crying again and I'm scared that the it'll be evident with my voice, that I was crying"

What are you doing now?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "I'm here with my friends now....I'm afraid to say anything because I don't want to start crying again and I'm scared that the it'll be evident ..."

I was drawing which helped me, but now I'm in class

[ashrey]

wat up?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hey sis!!

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Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "I'm here with my friends now....I'm afraid to say anything because I don't want to start crying again and I'm scared that the it..."

U okay now?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Yeah

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Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Yeah"

Good, good. Like I said, don't let the teacher get to you.

[[deleted user]]

How r u feeling?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Better

[[deleted user]]

Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Better"

I'm gonna be upset if someone makes u sad again, Kavy.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Better"

I'm gonna be upset if someone makes u sad again, Kavy."

sorry, I try to be happy but it's hard because there are days when I'm happy but then I fall.

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Better"

I'm gonna be upset if someone makes u sad again, Kavy."

sorry, I try to be happy but it's hard because there are days ..."

*hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

My heart is broken and shattered, it has been broken for years now even before me and Gameslayer started dating, thanks to my fake friends. And I haven't fully healed yet. it's gonna take a lot of time for me to fully heal. because I'd been through this pain for YEARS now....

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Trelas wrote: "Princess Kavy of Books ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Better"

I'm gonna be upset if someone makes u sad again, Kavy."

sorry, I..."

*hugs tightly*

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

KAVY!!! *hugs tightly* I SWEAR IF ANY ONE MAKES YOU SAD OR CRY I WILL PERSONALLY RUN ALL THE WAY FROM YAKIMA TO TEXAS AND GIVE THEM A PEICE OF MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

*hugs Lys tightly* the sub at school made me cry today :( I've lost count of how many times I'd cried this year.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

WHAT DID THIS SUB DO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! *growls like she devils*

[kavi ~he-him~]

scroll up sis

[kavi ~he-him~]

I keep getting flashbacks from my past, all those memories that I desperately don't want to remember.....

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

*growls* i will never let you go kavy, and those people arent worth it, if they cant see the special person right in front of them.

[NerdyJediGymnast]

OOOO!!!!! IMMA GET SOMEBODY

[kavi ~he-him~]

here is a story of what really happened with me and one of my "friends" who hurt me really badly. she is one of the reasons that I began to develop trust issues.

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

Tell us!

[kavi ~he-him~]

what really happened between us:

In 9th grade, in my art class, I was sitting at this table, with all boys, except for me and my ex-friend, so we started talking and we sorta became friends, I don't know if we were really friends, or if she was just somebody I talked to. We were sorta friends for a month, and she helped me with my art projects a few times. And I waved to her outside of class, and she waved back, then after awhile, she stops talking to me and starts trying to avoid me, she waves to her other friends but when I wave to her she just drops her hand. I started to feel sad, and I wondered what I did wrong....and then in my Art class, she left my table and sat at another table, with her friend, which is also my friend too. but I still kept trying to wave to her and trying to be her friend. But it was hard because she stopped trying. But I didn't stop. I didn't want to stop. And it was also hard because we had a mutual friend, then one day, after class, I went over to her and my other friend, and waited for them, then she stared at me hard, and says, "I'm not your friend, you know that right?" I shouldn't have cared, I tried not to but it hurt a lot, and my heart dropped and shattered....then on the last week of school, on the exam day she kept looking at me with a dirty look.....Idk what I'd done to her.....all I did was try to be her friend....and what made things worse is we have mutual friends, and one of our mutual friends was there when she said that to me....she was still my friend, but she was also her friend too....then in 10th grade, she starts waving to me and giving this smile, a few times she'd talked to me but it sounded obnoxious, and I thought she wanted to be my friend but I didn't trust her and I didn't want to be her friends, normally I'm an easy forgiving person depending on the situation but she....after she hurt me she never came over to me and said sorry or anything, she never said anything, while my heart was just shattering into pieces, and then a year later she comes to me trying wave to me and stuff.....it's been three years since that happened and I still haven't forgiven her, even if I did forgive her, I can never forget her.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

The thing is.....I get attached to ppl easily and I used to be too naive and trusting and I try so hard just to be ppl's friends, but some ppl are just....and after she hurt me....I started wondering if I had any real friends, and I still haven't healed from it, I learnt from it but I haven't healed yet....and because of that I started developing trust issues, and and now I'm too scared to get too close to ppl, I'm too scared to get attached to them, I want to stop trying because it only ends up with ME getting hurt, because they are not trying. I can't even trust my friends at school, even tho I want to because I'm afraid that they are doing the same thing....

[kavi ~he-him~]

in my friendships, in the end, someone always stops trying....and it's always THEM, the ones that stopped trying and I'm the one that's still trying until it's time to stop trying....or until I get hurt....it sucks....THEY are always the ones to walk away. and whenever I run after them, they hurt me even more. I'm the nicest person, yet I go through so much, and I'm the one that always gets hurt....why is it always me?....

[kavi ~he-him~]

The sad part....I got used to the pain. like so used I don't know what true happiness feels like anymore....so used, I'm afraid of happiness....I got used to my depression and anxiety.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's sad....I'd been going through pain my whole life now....I'd been battling through life my whole life now....

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

I dont know Kavy, stuff like that has never happened to me. Because there wasnt a person out their that i grew so attached too because i knew that they had their own lives to live and wouldnt always be there with me and had their own problems they dont want to involve any one else in. Maybe she didnt notice that she was hurting you or maybe she was Maybe she didnt think you two would work out as friends and when she realized that she was wrong she wanted to make amends, not knowing the harm she caused you. But she forgot that she needed to say those two word. "Im sorry." and in my opionion everyone deserves a second chance, but some are not worth that trouble. And i dont fault you Kavy for feeling that way, your heart shattered because how arrogant and foolish that girl got you. I would say forget the past and move on, but i know that you cant do because sone things are branded into ones mind its hard to forget. But adoreyou kept fighting girl, and even when tomes made you cry and make you fault yourself you kept one fighting. And its because of that that you have so many people love you and adore you, and will always be here to support you and see you smile again, even if we have tk make a fool of ourselves its worth it to see your beautiful smile in the end

[kavi ~he-him~]

Thanks Lys....*hugs*

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

*hugs tightly* I love you , and when we ever meet in life i want you to cry when you see me because i will cry when i see you and i will tackle hug you and swueeze u so tightly you'll be wishing i stayed in yakima hehe

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love you too Lys *keeps hugging*

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

*strokes hair* Ill be here kavy if you need me, always *hugs tightly and doesnt ever let go*

[NerdyJediGymnast]

*GROUP HUGS*

[kavi ~he-him~]

*never stops hugging*

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

*cries silently and never stops hugging*

[kavi ~he-him~]

*group hugs and cries with sis*

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

*sniffs* Guys i think we're molded like this *regardless doesnt stop hugging*

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Gødꧧ øf løvê Prïñçꧧ øf wëîrdñ맧~Î'll âlwãŷ§ bê hëré~Lŷ§ wrote: "*sniffs* Guys i think we're molded like this *regardless doesnt stop hugging*"

LOL

[Harley_Granger127~on semi-hiatus~]

Sis, who do I need to kill right now?!? *hugs you tightly* I love you so much

[kavi ~he-him~]

*hugs everyone tightly* I love you too sis.....I love you all....<3

[kavi ~he-him~]

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Hi

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sweet Child O' Mine by Guns N' Roses

She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky

Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I'd hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain

Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder and the rain
To quietly pass me by

[3x]
Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

[4x]
Where do we go?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go?
Sweet child o' mine

[kavi ~he-him~]

SonicFan wrote: "Hi"

CYN

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

KAVY

[kavi ~he-him~]

#Allreadersunite

[kavi ~he-him~]

Are you the Master of the deathly hallows?

http://www.playbuzz.com/pamelaeisley1...

You are The Master of the Deathly Hollows!

You are The One Master of Death! You possess the three objects needed to hold this illustrious title; The Elder Wand, The Resurrection Stone and The Cloak of Invisibility! You hold great power in your hands and must use it wisely, being careful not to cross over to the ways of the Dark Lord. You may have the ability to rule all, bring back the dead and hide from your enemies, but we trust that the Deathly Hallows are safe with you!

[kavi ~he-him~]

LMAOOO