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[kavi ~he-him~]

i blocked percy, sorry not sorry

[kavi ~he-him~]

will unblock him later

[kavi ~he-him~]

i unblocked him

[kavi ~he-him~]

so luke turned against us again, and magnus and apollo turned against us as well ((cause luke and apollo are dating)) and magnus hurt the other alex, they are all back now, back on our side but alex is heartbroken so i'm now at vallhalla comforting them

[kavi ~he-him~]

should i make a hotel vallhalla rp group?

[kavi ~he-him~]

my father, poseidon, is being an asshole atm

[kavi ~he-him~]

he stabbed silena, and almost killed her, she's okay don't worry, and he apologized for it but i don't trust him because he has to do more than just saying sorry

[kavi ~he-him~]

we do so much for the gods, we go through so much because of them, we clean up after their messes, and then they treat us like this

[kavi ~he-him~]

hestia, artemis, dionysus, and chiron are the only ones i trust atm

[kavi ~he-him~]

also i'm in a trio with two of my friends now, one of them is a daughter of athena and the other is a son of apollo

[kavi ~he-him~]

i saw sow on monday at six flags and they were sweet :) i gave jeremy a painting and he liked it and i got lots of hugs from the guys and they were happy to see me

[kavi ~he-him~]

also i made a pjo/hoo blog on tumblr, it's demigod-alex3

[kavi ~he-him~]

stolen from tumblr
Would you rather kiss the last person who texted you, or ur most recent ex?
i don't have an ex so no one

How long have you liked the person you currently like?
since we were 16, i'm 19 now

What are [ 5 ] things you are currently looking forward to?
1. seeing shadow of whales again
2. meeting my twitter friends
3. the summer
4. halloween
5. idk


Your favourite song of all time?
too many to choose


What is the next concert you are going to?
Andy Black maybe

What is a concert you’d LOVE to go to, but know you never will?
Juliet Simms

Who was the last person you called on your cell & why?
idk

Who is someone you wish you hung out with more?
my twitter friends

List [ Four ] female best friends::
Hallie
Erin
Lexi
Sophia
and more

Number [ 1 ] ::
What is your best memory with her?
all the memories i have with her

Has she ever made you mad?
no

When was the last time you hung out?
well we live far away from each other unfortunately
Say something only the two of you would understand::
idk

Number [ 2 ] ::
Do you go to school with her?
no :(

What did you buy her for her last birthday?
nothing :(
Have you ever gone on an amusement park ride with her?
no :(

Who is more daring out of the two of you?
idk

Number [ 3 ] ::
Would you ever switch wardrobes with her?
maybe
Who is more outgoing; you or her?
idk
Have you ever watched a movie together?
no :(
Do you like any of the same guys?
no
Number [ 4 ] ::
Who is smarter; you or her?
her
Do you make her laugh?
probably
Have you ever liked the same guy at the same time?
no
Have you ever dated someone she liked, or vice versa?
no
List [ Four ] male best friends::
1. Jonathan
2. Jeremy
3. Jay
4. Kaden

Number [ 1 ] ::
Do you consider him to be your brother?
no

Have you two ever been more than friends?
yes

How much do you trust him?
i trust him
Was there ever a time you guys didn’t like each other?
No.

Tell me a random memory the two of you have had together ::
when we went to an arcade place two years ago

Number [ 2 ] ::
What was the most recent fight the two of you got into?
we never got into a fight

How old were you when you met? How old were you when you became friends?
we met last year and i was 18, he was 27
Do you have the same taste in music?
yes

Does he ever annoy you?
no

Tell me a random memory the two of you have had together ::
when i went to six flags to see Jeremy and the other guys in my fav band, shadow of whales and i got lots of hugs from the boys mostly from jeremy but it was fun

Number [ 3 ] ::
Whose quieter; you or him?
me

Have you ever met his parents? Do you like them?
yes

Have you ever met his siblings? Do you like them?
no
Has he even given you a piggy back?
no

If you two had a child, would it be a cute baby?
NO

Tell me a random memory the two of you have had together ::
going on a killer quest with our friend, lexi

Number [ 4 ] ::
Can you have deep conversations with this person?
yes

If yes, what was your last one about?


Do you know any of this persons secrets?
no

The last time you hung out, what did you do?
we live far away from each other

Tell me a random memory the two of you have had together
talking about the greatest showman together

[kavi ~he-him~]

guys when i saw SOW at six flags on monday, they called me Alex in front of my mom, (i'm not out as alex irl) and this is the first time i've been called alex irl and it makes me happy

[kavi ~he-him~]

so i made two google classrooms for the pjo/hoo fandom and the palaye royale fandom, so i'm now a teacher XD


the code for the pjo/hoo one is blqo1zi btw classes are starting on monday

[kavi ~he-him~]

i feel like changing my journal name to a pjo/hoo/mcga/tkc name cause i love these series so much

[kavi ~he-him~]

yep i'm back into my percy jackson phase i was in a few years ago, i'm okay with it tho cause i love this series so much, i mean i've always love these series, i just been more active in other fandoms but now i'm active in the pjo/hoo fandom again and the pjo/hoo fandom is sweet and i love it so much

[kavi ~he-him~]

so yesterday i went to the bookstore and got the burning maze and for some reason the rick riordan books are in the children's section

[kavi ~he-him~]

these books are for ALL ages

[kavi ~he-him~]

also i still need to read the 2nd book of toa before i read the burning maze and i am not prepared because i already know what happens because of spoilers

[kavi ~he-him~]

and i'm dreading that part

[kavi ~he-him~]

GUYS THE PERCY JACKSON SERIES IS GOING TO BE OWNED BY DISNEY TOMORROW!!!


AND MAYBE THEY MIGHT REMAKE THE PJO MOVIES AND IF THEY DO THIS RIGHT AND INCLUDE THE REPRESENTATIONS, THEN THE PJO/HOO SERIES CAN GET AS MUCH RECOGNITION AS HARRY POTTER GOT

[kavi ~he-him~]

maybe more

[kavi ~he-him~]

i do love harry potter

[kavi ~he-him~]

but the percy jackson series has WAY more diversity then harry potter series has. The harry potter series has a few poc characters, cho chang, parvati patil, dean thomas, padma patil, but that's it. i know these are "just fiction" but i wanna see more diversity and more poc/lgbtq+ representations

[kavi ~he-him~]

especially because i, myself, am poc and lgbtq+ and autistic.

[kavi ~he-him~]

why can't the fictional worlds be real? why can't there be a way for us to disappear into the fictional worlds whenever we want and whenever we need to escape from reality??

[kavi ~he-him~]

i know they are fictional but they are like my escape from reality when i am stressed or struggling

[kavi ~he-him~]

the fictional characters were there for me when other ppl weren't when i was younger, when i felt alone and lonely and unwanted, the fictional characters were there, i imagined myself being friends with the fictional characters and i still do it now and it helps me

[kavi ~he-him~]

and now the bands are in my life so it's both the fictional characters and bands

[kavi ~he-him~]

YOU GUYYYYYYS

[kavi ~he-him~]

SO LAST WEEK WHEN I SAW SOW AT SIX FLAGS, THEY CALLED ME ALEX IRL

[kavi ~he-him~]

THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I'VE BEEN CALLED ALEX, AND NOT MY DEADNAME, IRL AND I AM SO HAPPY

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'M NOT EVEN OUT AS ALEX IRL AND I STILL GO BY MY DEADNAME IRL BUT I AM HAPPY THAT THEY CALLED ME ALEX

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex loves Palaye Royale ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "SO LAST WEEK WHEN I SAW SOW AT SIX FLAGS, THEY CALLED ME ALEX IRL"

AND ALSO I RESPONDED WHEN THEY CALLED ME ALEX

[kavi ~he-him~]

ALSO THEY CALLED ME ALEX IN FRONT OF MY MOM

[kavi ~he-him~]

EVEN THO I AM NOT OUT TO HER AS ALEX

[kavi ~he-him~]

ALSO JEREMY KNOWS MY DEADNAME BECAUSE I TOLD HIM, BUT HE STILL CALLS ME ALEX, AND NOT BY MY DEADNAME AND HE USES MY CORRECT PRONOUNS AND I LOVE HIM

[kavi ~he-him~]

I LOVE THIS BAND

[kavi ~he-him~]

reading the city of heavenly fire and simon and isabelle oh my god i love this ship but it's OBVIOUS TO EVERYONE BUT THEM, THAT THEY BOTH ARE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER, JUST FREAKING ADMIT YOUR FEELINGS FOR EACH OTHER AND GET TOGETHER

[kavi ~he-him~]

two of my best friends on twitter and i are now writing a percy jackson fanfic

[kavi ~he-him~]

i want to change my journal name to something percy jackson related but idk what to put

[kavi ~he-him~]

Personal Survey Time!
Stolen from Hallie


Emotions
When was the last time you cried?
idk

Are you a very emotional person?
yes

Do you ever feel left out? When?
Yes.

Are you an introvert or somewhat outgoing?
Introvert.

Do you ever have short/quick, angry outbreaks?
probably

Do you hate anyone? Who and why?
yes, a few ppl irl. and Hera, and Umbridge and octavian

How useful do you feel to others?
idk

Do you think you’re depressed? Why?
Yes.

Crisis
Are you ever picked on (adult or child)? By who and why?
yes. idk

Do you ever avoid mirrors because you were disgusted with your image?
no

Has anyone close to you died recently?
No. unless you count fictional characters

Do you ever feel left out or get ditched by friends?
Yes.

How many good friends do you have?
Idk

How many enemies do you have?
idk

Are you single?
Yes.

Do you want to find love?
yes and no

Are your parents divorced, or are there any odd family arrangements?
Nope.

Are you labeled in a specific clique?
No.

Pain & Suffering
Is there a loaded gun in your house? Do you have access to it?
No

Have you ever inflicted pain on yourself? How?
tw:
(view spoiler)[ yes (hide spoiler)]

How many personal ways of dying have you ever thought about?
idk

Do you ever feel angry enough to kill somebody?
no

Do you ever feel guilty about miniscule things you’ve commited?
Yes.

Do you cut?
tw:
(view spoiler)[ i used to (hide spoiler)]

Do you ever really intend to end your life?
no

Do you dream at night? If so, what about?
Yes weird things

Do you ever starve yourself?
no

Are you bipolar?
no

Do you like gore?
no

Are your actions usually misconstrued by others?
idk

Do you write poetry? Are you any good?
sometimes

Do you draw morbid things quickly?
no

What are you afraid of most?
idk

Do you feel hopeless (about anything)?
Yes

Is your life repetitive?
probably

Do people around you irritate you?
some ppl

Have you ever cried in public for no reason at all?
yes

Do you take any medications? What?
yes

Why do you wake up in the morning?
because i have to

[Hallie]

*hugs*

[Empress X]

Tbh I would do this but it’s a little to personally dark for me heh.

[Empress X]

And people I know see my journal... so ew nah. Lol,

[Empress X]

But people I know don’t see this journal... hah! I knew I’d find away to hide from them. Lol


Emotions
When was the last time you cried?
Too close

Are you a very emotional person?
Kinda

Do you ever feel left out? When?
Alot

Are you an introvert or somewhat outgoing?
Ambivert

Do you ever have short/quick, angry outbreaks?
Yeah

Do you hate anyone? Who and why?
People in fiction...

How useful do you feel to others?
I’m not...

Do you think you’re depressed? Why?
Idk

Crisis
Are you ever picked on (adult or child)? By who and why?
To my surprise, no, then again I hide inside all day so it’s a ‘I would be if I didn’t live under a rock’
Do you ever avoid mirrors because you were disgusted with your image?
Sometimes

Has anyone close to you died recently?
Only fictional ones.

Do you ever feel left out or get ditched by friends?
Ish

How many good friends do you have?
Two

How many enemies do you have?
Idk

Are you single?
Yes.

Do you want to find love?
yes

Are your parents divorced, or are there any odd family arrangements?
Nope.

Are you labeled in a specific clique?
Noooo.

Pain & Suffering
Is there a loaded gun in your house? Do you have access to it?
No

Have you ever inflicted pain on yourself? How?
(view spoiler)[ Scratching, glass etc. (hide spoiler)]

How many personal ways of dying have you ever thought about?
Like... 10

Do you ever feel angry enough to kill somebody?
Nope

Do you ever feel guilty about miniscule things you’ve commited?
Yea

Do you cut?
(view spoiler)[ Sometimes (hide spoiler)]

Do you ever really intend to end your life?
No

Do you dream at night? If so, what about?
Not really

Do you ever starve yourself?
Not really

Are you bipolar?
no

Do you like gore?
Kinda

Are your actions usually misconstrued by others?
I do not know lol

Do you write poetry? Are you any good?
Yes, no

Do you draw morbid things quickly?
nawh

What are you afraid of most?
I have 0 ideas

Do you feel hopeless (about anything)?
Ish

Is your life repetitive?
I guess

Do people around you irritate you?
Some people.

Have you ever cried in public for no reason at all?
Nope

Do you take any medications? What?
No

Why do you wake up in the morning?
I don’t know. The feeling of that little urge that tells me I have to.

[Empress X]

Sorry for crowding your journal...

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie wrote: "*hugs*"

*hugs tight*

[kavi ~he-him~]

Black Red Empress Dragon wrote: "Sorry for crowding your journal..."

it's okay