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[kavi ~he-him~]

yep i still hate myself

[kavi ~he-him~]

but i'm trying

[kavi ~he-him~]

i have no confidence

[kavi ~he-him~]

but i'm trying

[kavi ~he-him~]

all my friends be sweet >.<

[kavi ~he-him~]

can my brain stop telling me everyone leaves me eventually? yeah i've been hurt and left by a lot of ppl but that doesn't mean everyone is going to leave me

[kavi ~he-him~]

i feel sad now.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk why

[kavi ~he-him~]

i'm going to bed now so goodnight

[kavi ~he-him~]

i feel sad again today

[[deleted user]]

No, DON'T FEEL SAD. well im here for you alex

[kavi ~he-him~]

thanks trey

[[deleted user]]

nooooo prob

[kavi ~he-him~]

sadness

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Alex

[kavi ~he-him~]

☯Phoenix~They/them☯ wrote: "Alex"

what's up?

[kavi ~he-him~]

i been thinking lately

[kavi ~he-him~]

about stuff

[kavi ~he-him~]

my mind be loud again :(

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Alex loves Palaye Royale ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "☯Phoenix~They/them☯ wrote: "Alex"

what's up?"

I'm okay I guess

[kavi ~he-him~]

i feel down

[kavi ~he-him~]

i feel fine when i have something to distract me, but when i don't, i feel down

[kavi ~he-him~]

and i'm also tired

[[deleted user]]

get some sleep alex

[kavi ~he-him~]

at first i couldn't sleep because my mind was loud again and then eventually i fell asleep but then i woke up in the middle of the night and it took a while for me to fall asleep, like a few hours, but eventually i fell asleep and then i woke up again and then fell asleep and woke up again. it was kind of like on and off

[kavi ~he-him~]

and i still feel tired and sad

[kavi ~he-him~]

and tomorrow i have to get up early because i have a class at 8:30 am ugh

[princess maggie]

im sending you all my love!

[kavi ~he-him~]

princess maggie wrote: "im sending you all my love!"

thank you maggie, i love you so much!! <33

[princess maggie]

awww i love you too alex <3

if you ever need to talk im here for you b

[kavi ~he-him~]

and i have a test on wednesday and i have to give a speech on friday ugh

[kavi ~he-him~]

princess maggie wrote: "awww i love you too alex <3

if you ever need to talk im here for you b"

thank you, and same to you maggie!!! <3

[kavi ~he-him~]

my head hurts

[kavi ~he-him~]

when i am sad or depressed or down or hurt i don't always show it, i try to distract myself or hide the sadness or hurt behind a smile and happiness

[kavi ~he-him~]

tho it doesn't always work

[kavi ~he-him~]

and when someone asks me "how are you?" most of the times i say "i'm good" even if i am not good, but sometimes if i am not okay i'll reply with "i'm okay"

[kavi ~he-him~]

so yes i suffer from depression and anxiety, but i don't always show it

[kavi ~he-him~]

and i have a habit of pushing my problems away and trying to help other ppl with their problems, and keeping my problems and feelings to myself

[kavi ~he-him~]

but when i can't keep it to myself, because i know i might explode or break down if i keep it all to myself so that's when i'll try to express myself on here or twitter

[kavi ~he-him~]

and just because i seem happy or i'm smiling doesn't mean i am happy or smiling

[kavi ~he-him~]

yes i've been smiling a lot lately and feeling really happy but now....i've been feeling sad again

[kavi ~he-him~]

dad: just be happy


if only it was that simple

[kavi ~he-him~]

especially when i suffer from depression as well as anxiety

[Delphinia (Dhamma ✿)]

Hope you’re doing well 😊❤️

[kavi ~he-him~]

Delphinia (Dhamma ✿) wrote: "Hope you’re doing well 😊❤️"

thank you <3

[kavi ~he-him~]

my anxiety isn't helping rn

[kavi ~he-him~]

it makes me smile and feel happy when ppl tell me they love me. unless it's from a stranger that i don't know

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

I love you!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

can my anxiety stop telling me things, pls?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lys: the adorkable kitten wrote: "I love you!!"

i love you too sis!!