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[kavi ~he-him~]

when i was in school the teachers said i had add but then after i graduated high school i got diagnosed with autism

[kavi ~he-him~]

when i got diagnosed with autism i got really confused and i was unsure why they didn't diagnose me with autism when i was little since i grew up with a speech impairment issue

[kavi ~he-him~]

AHHH ONE OF MY IDOLS JUST QUOTED ME IN A TWEET AHH

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'M NOT OKAY

[princess maggie]

THAT IS SO E X C I T I N G

[Blaze Galaxy Furystorm "Time is ending around, World's are colliding, and if you don't know now you know"]

W H Y I S Y O U R T E X T A L W A Y S D I F F E R E N T

[jay, rip]

Alex loves Palaye Royale ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "i believe we all fall down sometimes"

heh i love this song

[princess maggie]

<.p.> S O I T L O O K S A E S T H E T I C

[kavi ~he-him~]

princess maggie wrote: "THAT IS SO E X C I T I N G"

I'M CRYING

[kavi ~he-him~]

jay wrote: " Alex loves Palaye Royale ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "i believe we all fall down sometimes"

heh i love this song"

SAME

[kavi ~he-him~]

Blaze Rebounded Furystorm "I'm gonna be extra depressed for a little while" wrote: "W H Y I S Y O U R T E X T A L W A Y S D I F F E R E N T"

I LIKE IT

[Blaze Galaxy Furystorm "Time is ending around, World's are colliding, and if you don't know now you know"]

qwertyuiop[asdfghjkl;'zxcvbnm,./

[Blaze Galaxy Furystorm "Time is ending around, World's are colliding, and if you don't know now you know"]

<.p.>


what

[kavi ~he-him~]

WHAT'S HAPPENING?

[Blaze Galaxy Furystorm "Time is ending around, World's are colliding, and if you don't know now you know"]

idsk


but
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[princess maggie]

dont put the periods in there my dude

[Blaze Galaxy Furystorm "Time is ending around, World's are colliding, and if you don't know now you know"]

ok

[Blaze Galaxy Furystorm "Time is ending around, World's are colliding, and if you don't know now you know"]

HOLY *bleep*

why the heck is this a thing

[kavi ~he-him~]

WTF ANDY BIERSACK DELETED ALL HIS TWEETS AND CHANGED HIS PROFILE PIC AND HIS COVER TO ALL BLACK WHAT IS HAPPENING??

[Tamra]

ALEX

[Blaze Galaxy Furystorm "Time is ending around, World's are colliding, and if you don't know now you know"]

IAMS who I am

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Alex loves Palaye Royale ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "WTF ANDY BIERSACK DELETED ALL HIS TWEETS AND CHANGED HIS PROFILE PIC AND HIS COVER TO ALL BLACK WHAT IS HAPPENING??"

Maybe he's going through struggles

[kavi ~he-him~]

☯Phoenix~They/them☯ wrote: " Alex loves Palaye Royale ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "WTF ANDY BIERSACK DELETED ALL HIS TWEETS AND CHANGED HIS PROFILE PI..."

NO HE WON'T STOP TEASING US ABOUT AN UPCOMING ANDY BLACK ALBUM

[kavi ~he-him~]

TJ wrote: "ALEX"

TJ

[Tamra]

why all caps? lol

[kavi ~he-him~]

BECAUSE CAPS ARE AWESOME

[kavi ~he-him~]

my art sucks

[Tamra]

how does it suck?

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's not that great

[kavi ~he-him~]

i know i work hard on my art but i still feel like it's not good enough

[kavi ~he-him~]

that moment when ppl say they like my art, but i still feel like my art isn't good enough

[kavi ~he-him~]

so i got bored so here is a video of me hiding in a laundry basket https://www.instagram.com/p/Btmlvz0h5LE/

[kavi ~he-him~]

why do i keep thinking of things that make me sad?

[kavi ~he-him~]

and why does every time i feel like trusting someone, my brain comes in and reminds me that they might leave?

[kavi ~he-him~]

yep i still suffer from major trust issues

[kavi ~he-him~]

but like, i know that not everyone is going to leave me or get tired of me but it's hard

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's sucks when you've been hurt so much by the ppl you called "friends" and when you've had so many ppl leave and get tired of you easily, and when you get left out so easily, you just get so used to it and it sucks

[kavi ~he-him~]

you get so used to it it's hard to not get scared of ppl leaving or losing anyone

[kavi ~he-him~]

i want friends in person, but at the same time....i am shy, i am not just shy i am afraid.

[kavi ~he-him~]

guys i forgot to mention:


i gave myself a middle name :)

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's Nico, after nico di angelo

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex after Alex Fierro
Nico after Nico Di Angelo

two of my fav fictional characters

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex Nico, I like it

[kavi ~he-him~]

oml it's been a year since i started going by alex

[kavi ~he-him~]

except i still go by my deadname, Kavya irl unfortunately but only i go by Alex

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex is my name

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's not the name i was born with but it's still my name,

[kavi ~he-him~]

wtf all my friends are so sweet and good to me i can't love them so much. all my friends on twitter and goodreads and some irl

[kavi ~he-him~]

most of my life, i've been hurt by ppl i called "friends" and i've been hated by most ppl also bullied by ppl. and i struggled with making friends and i am extremely shy and i struggle with making friends irl and i'd been looking for real friends that truly care for me and wouldn't hurt me and care me for me as much as i cared for them. and i struggle with trust issues, and i've gotten so used to this, that it was hard for me to believe that ppl really liked me and cared for me and actually wanted me as their friend, and i've been afraid of making new friends cause i was afraid of getting hurt and i've been told so many times by a friend's friend that no one liked me, but now....i actually have friends that truly care for me as much i care for them?

[kavi ~he-him~]

not a lot of ppl actually stay for long because they get tired of me but i actually have some friends that actually like me and wouldn't get tired of me? wouldn't hurt me like the others did....