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[kavi ~he-him~]

jay wrote: "you’re gonna cry your way through CoHF, that’s all i have to say."

they BETTER get back together in cohf

[kavi ~he-him~]

okay I put COHF on hold

[jay, rip]

i literally. sobbed. the whole time.

[jay, rip]

i cried more with Clockwork Princess than i have with any other book but CoHF is second place for most tears.

[kavi ~he-him~]

https://www.goodreads.com/review/show...


my review

[jay, rip]

Alex, don’t hate me for this, but as much as i love Malec, Jalec has the slight upper hand on my ship list. I don’t know, i just love the angst and the unrequited stuff between jace and alec.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I should probably finish reading all the books in my bookshelf that I haven't read yet

[kavi ~he-him~]

so I started reading the book If I Was Your Girl and it's REALLY good!!! it's about a trans girl

[kavi ~he-him~]

hi, should I watch the shadow hunter show

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hey guys, sorry I haven't been on

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Horratio Ransome "Jeff the Killer" ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~FREAK~ ~Little Miss Political Agenda~ ~WIZARD!~ wrote: "It's okay. *hugs* I'm not super active either."
*hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

also I want more Asexuality and demisexual and gray sexual and nonbinary representation in books and movies

[kavi ~he-him~]

we have some books/movies with gay and bi characters but I want some asexual representation too

[kavi ~he-him~]

because I see ppl, both outside and inside the lgbtq+ community erasing asexual, and it sucks

[kavi ~he-him~]

guys I just remembered

[kavi ~he-him~]

this is the month where I found out I was asexual

[kavi ~he-him~]

and this is also the month where I also found out I was panromantic

[kavi ~he-him~]

September 15:
I found out I was Asexual

September 23:
I found out I was panromantic

[kavi ~he-him~]

like, I've always been asexual, tho I just didn't know the term for it, and I thought I was straight.

[kavi ~he-him~]

until September 15, when I found out I was asexual

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Horratio Ransome "Jeff the Killer" ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~FREAK~ ~Little Miss Political Agenda~ ~WIZARD!~ wrote: "Congratulations!"

thank you!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

when ppl say if your cis and hetero ace or cis and hetero aro, you're not LGBTQ+ -_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

I, myself, am panromantic asexual but still

[kavi ~he-him~]

asexual ARE apart of the lgbtq+ community, same with aromantics, it doesn't matter if they are hetero or cis, they are STILL ASEXUAL

[kavi ~he-him~]

AND ASEXUAL ARE APART OF THE LGBTQ+ COMMUNITY

[kavi ~he-him~]

but seriously, I'm tired of seeing ppl both outside and inside of the community, try to erase my sexuality and it makes me upset to see that asexuals and aromantics, isn't accepted in society, yet it's not accepted by some ppl in the lgbtq+ community because either they are "not oppressed" or because they are hetero and cis

[kavi ~he-him~]

they say asexuals have it easy, but really, we don't have it easy, we may not have it as hard as the gays and trans ppl do, but we definitely don't have it easy

[kavi ~he-him~]

don't get me wrong, I love the lgbtq+ community and all, but I hate how it can be so non accepting of some of the sexualities

[kavi ~he-him~]

Bisexual, asexual, demisexual, pansexual, polysexual, aromantics, etc, gets a lot of stuff from both outside and inside of the lgbtq+ community

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm just going to say this

[kavi ~he-him~]

you can like sex and still be asexual, you can want to have sex, and still be asexual

there are some asexuals that hate sex
there are some asexuals that like sex

all asexuals are valid <3

asexual just means we lack sexual attractions towards anyone.

[kavi ~he-him~]

everyone is different

[kavi ~he-him~]

and valid

[kavi ~he-him~]

stolen from Jay

1. Do you currently have feelings for anybody? yes

2. Do you think you’ve changed over the past year? probably

3. Are you currently looking forward to anything? idk

4. What jacket did you wear last? my Gryffindor jacket

5. Are you ticklish? maaaybe >.> *hides*

6. Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else? no

7. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? probably

8. Have you ever liked someone older than you? no

9. Will this weekend be a good one? maybe

10. Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it? no

11. Do you like your life as of now? yes

12. Are you mad at anyone? Who?
no

13. Are you okay? yes

14. Has anyone ever told you they want to be with you forever? no

15. Do you find the opposite sex confusing? no

16. Are there certain things that can’t be joked about with you?
yes

17. Is your hair longer than your shoulders? yes

18. Buy anything lately? no

19. Have you realized anything lately? I think so

20. Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced? no

21. Do you know how to use chopsticks? yes

22. Who was the last person you couldn’t take your eyes off of? Jon


23. Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced? yes

24. Do you dream in black and white? no

25. How are you? good

26. Are you named after one of your parents or grandparents?
no

27. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? depends who it is

28. Do you usually tell people when you’re mad at them? no

29. Do you miss anyone? yes

30. What is stressing you out most right now? college

31. Are you waiting for a phone call? no

32. Was there anyone who “made your day”? no

33. Do you even believe in love? yes

34. Did you talk to anyone you didn’t like today? no

35. Are you a very stressed out person? sometimes

36. Are you single? i am

37. Are you afraid of the dark? yes

38. Would you pay someone to kill the last person who hurt you a lot? no

39. Are you a couple with the last person you kissed on the lips? well the last person I kissed was Jonathan, which was 2 years ago, and we're not together at the moment so.

40. Looking back, did you ever think you would be where you’re at in life now? not really

41. Is there anyone getting on your nerves at the moment? no

42. Are you a jealous person? no, I'm just afraid of getting replaced

43. Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? yes

44. Last place you fell asleep other than your bed? the couch prolly

45. What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? "lemme turn off this music so it doesn't play all night"

46. Is anyone else in the room with you? no

47. What time did you go to bed last night? Why? 11 came I was tired

48. What will you do after this? work

49. Do you tend to get in fights? no

50. Did you have a good day today? yes

51. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? my dad

52. Is anyone protective over you? probably

53. Do you correct people when they make spelling mistakes on the internet? no

54. Does your bedroom have a door? yes

55. Where’s the closest hoodie to you right now? in the closet

56. How many people do you know of named Adam? idk

57. How about Jessica’s? idk

58. What was the last thing you burnt? idk

59. Are you currently in a relationship? no

60. Do you smoke/ do any drugs? no

61. How old will you be on your next birthday? 20

62. Do you usually apologize first? depends

63. What are your plans for tomorrow? college

64. How many pillows are on your bed? 2

65. What are you craving at the moment? pancakes

66. Are you in a good mood right now? yes

67. Is there someone who has made a difference in your life? yes

68. Are you dating the last person who text you? no

69. Would you rather have your parents catch you having sex or smoking weed? neither. I'm asexual anyways

70. Is there a person of the opposite sex that you care about? yes

71. Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20? idk

72. What is the next concert you’re going to? idk

73. Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes? no

74. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? sleeping

75. Do you wish you were anywhere other than where you are now? yes

76. Do you know anyone named Joshua? the lead singer of Shadow of whales

77. Will you be in a relationship in 4 months? maybe, maybe not

78. Do you think two people can last forever? yes

79. Would you put yesterday on repeat and live it forever? maybe

80. Do you know anyone with such a terribly annoying voice that you can’t even stand? not really

81. What do you currently hear right now? music

82. Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today? no

83. In your opinion which is the stronger emotion: love or hate? love

84. Do you ever think about the past? all the time

85. Do you believe ex’s can be friends? yes

86. What’re you wearing right now? my sow t-shirt and jeans

87. What were you doing when you found out Alan Rickman was dead? I cried on the inside

88. Are you short? i am

89. Does anyone hate you? yes

[kavi ~he-him~]

stolen from Jay

A - Age: 19
B - Book you are reading: If I Was Your Girl
C - Chore you hate: unloading the dish washer
D - Dessert you love: tbh I would eat anything that is sweet
E - Essential start your day item: pancakes or waffles
F - Favorite author/ book: Jk. Rowling and Rick Riordan/Harry Potter and Percy Jackson
G - Gold or silver: both
H - Height: 4' 10
I - Instruments you play: I sing, and play the piano
J - Job title: I don't have a job yet
K - Kid(s): 0
L - Living arrangements: i live with my parents, but I'm planning on living with my bandmates in a couple of years
M - Most overused word/phrase in your vocabulary: idk
N - Nicknames: idk
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: I don't remember
Q- Quotes you like: In a world tainted by hate and negativity, stand out, shine bright and always be proud of who you are- Benjamin Bruce
R - Right or left handed: right
S - Siblings: 0
T - Time you woke up today: 10
U - Unique thing about you: I sing and draw
V - Vegetable you love: potatoes.
W - Worst habit: procrastination, nail biting
X - X-rays you've had: my wrist
Y - Yummy food you make: pancakes
Z - Zodiac Sign: Leo

[kavi ~he-him~]

stolen from Jay

Are you an innie or an outie?
innie

Have you ever written a song?
yes

Can you make change for a dollar right now?
no

Have you ever been in the opposite sex's public toilet?
probably

Have you ever written a poem?
yes

Do you like catsup on or beside your fries?
"catsup" yes

Have you ever been a boy/girl scout?
yes

Have you ever written a book?
I started writing two but I never finished them

Have you ever broken a mirror?
no

Are you superstitious?
no

What is your biggest pet peeve?
ppl that walk slow

Do you slurp your drink after it's gone?
sometimes

Have you ever blown bubbles in your milk?
no

Would you rather eat a Big Mac or a Whopper?
idk

Have you ever gone skinny-dipping?
no

Would you ever parachute out of a plane?
maybe :p

What's the most daring thing you've done?
I don't remember

When you are at the grocery store, do you ask for paper or plastic?
they don't give options

True or False: You would rather eat steak than pizza.
false.

Did you have a baby blanket?
no

Have you ever tried to cut your own hair?
yes

How did that turn out?
I don’t remember

Have you ever sleepwalked?
not that i know of

Have you ever had a birthday party at McDonalds?
no

Can you flip your eye-lids up?
no

Are you double jointed?
DEFINITLEY NOT

If you could be any age, what age would you be?
16 or 17

Have you ever gotten gum stuck in your hair?
no

Do you ride roller coasters?
I love coasters

What's your favorite carnival ride?
none.

What is your dream car?
a flying car

What is your favorite cartoon of all time?
animes

Have you ever eaten a dog biscuit?
no but I had a dream I ate one

If so, would you eat another one?
ewwwww

If you were in a car sinking in a lake, what would you do first?
idk

Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
no

Can you pick something up with your toes?
I can try

How many remote controls do you have in your house?
4

Have you ever fallen asleep in school?
probably

How many times have you flown in an airplane in the last year?
2

How many foreign countries have you visited?
India (when I was 2), Australia, Bahamas (I went on a cruise)
If you were out of shape, would you compete in a triathlon if you were somehow guaranteed to win a big, gaudy medal?
no

Would you rather be rich and unhappy, or poor and happy?
poor and happy.

If you fell into quicksand, would you try to swim or try to float?
try to float

Do you ask for directions when you are lost?
I try to figure it out myself first

Have you ever held a Mexican jumping bean?
no

Are you more like Cinderella or Alice in Wonderland?
alice

Would you rather have an ant farm with no ants or a box of crayons with broken points?
wtf kind of Q this?

Do you prefer light or dark bread?
light

Do you prefer scrambled or fried eggs?
scrambled

Have you ever been in a car that ran out of gas?
no

Do you talk in your sleep?
not that I know of

Would you rather shovel snow or mow the lawn?
neither

Have you ever played in the rain?
no, I don't like being in the rain

Did you make mud pies?
no

Have you ever broken a bone?
my left arm

Would you climb a very high tree to save a kitten?
I can't climb

Can you tell the difference between a crocodile and an alligator?
yes

Do you drink pepsi or coke?
neither

What's your favorite number?
3

If you were a car, would you be an SUV or a sports car?
idk

Have you ever accidentally taken something from a hotel?
no

Have you ever slipped in the bathtub?
I think so

Do you use regular or deodorant soap?
I don’t know

Have you ever locked yourself out of the house?
yes

Would you rather make your living as a singing cowboy or as one of the Simpsons voices?
wtf lmaooo?

If you could invite any movie star to your home for dinner, who would it be?
Andy Biersack or Benjamin Bruce

Do you need corrective lenses?
I wear glasses

Would you hang out with / date someone your best friend didn't like?
depends who it is

Would you hang out with someone your best friend liked, but you didn't like?
depends who it is

Have you ever returned a gift?
I don't know

Would you give someone else a gift that had been given to you?
nope

If you could attend an Olympic Event, what would it be?
swimming or gymnastics

If you could participate in an Olympic Event, what would it be?
idk

How many pairs of shoes do you own?
1

If your grandmother gave you a gift that you already have, would you tell her?
nooo

Do you sing in the car?
sometimes

What is your favorite breed of dog?
i love all dogs, but I lean more towards small dogs

Would you donate money to feed starving animals in the winter?
yes

What is your favorite fruit?
mango

What is your least favorite fruit?
idk

What kind of fruit have you never had?
idk

If you won a $5,000 shopping spree to any store, which store would you pick?
hot topics or any of my fav band merch stores

What brand sports apparel do you wear the most?
converse

Are/were you a good student?
idk

Among your friends, who could you arm wrestle and beat?
no one

If you had to choose, what branch of the military would you be in?
none

What do you think is your best feature?
hair

If you were to win a Grammy, what kind of music would it be for?
rock

If you were to win an Osacr, what kind of movie would it be for?
idk

What is your favorite season?
summer

How many members do you have in your immediate family?
4, including me

Which of the five senses is most important to you?
seeing and hearing

Would you be a more successful painter or singer?
both

How many years will/did you end up going to college?
I'm on my 2nd year

Have you ever had surgery?
yes

Would you rather be a professional figure skater or professional football player?
neither

What do you like to collect?
nothing

How many collectibles do you have?
none

[kavi ~he-him~]

today is my favorite singer's birthday

[kavi ~he-him~]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "today is my favorite singer's birthday"

it's Danny Worsnop's birthday today

[kavi ~he-him~]

someone sent me an ask on my Tumblr asking me if I am a girl and idk what to say

[kavi ~he-him~]

like I was born a girl but I don't feel like a girl, and I don't identify as a girl and I don't want to identify as a girl. I am a nonbinary

[kavi ~he-him~]

plus I have my pronouns on my bio

[kavi ~he-him~]

irl I'm not out yet, so ppl still refer to me as my dead name and she/her but I want Alex to be my name and I want they/them to be my pronouns

[kavi ~he-him~]

like I don't mind she/her pronouns but I feel like I lean more to they/them pronouns

[kavi ~he-him~]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "someone sent me an ask on my Tumblr asking me if I am a girl and idk what to say"

but I still have no idea what to say should I say yes or no

[kavi ~he-him~]

nvm, I said that I am a human :)

[kavi ~he-him~]

Person: Don't kill me for asking but what did you mean in your bio they/them?

Me: my pronouns are they/them

Person: Meaning?

Me: I refer to myself as they/them pronouns

Person: So are you a male or female?
Just curious


a convo between me and a person on Tumblr....I didn't answer him because I didn't know what to say

[kavi ~he-him~]

I am a non binary and my pronouns are they/them and my name is Alex

[kavi ~he-him~]

L- Let’s
G- get down to
B- Business
T- to defeat the Huns

[kavi ~he-him~]

I got that song from Mulan stuck in my head

[kavi ~he-him~]

SHINE wrote: "I love that song!"

same!!!