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[kavi ~he-him~]

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was driven over by a reindeer in Hogwarts

[kavi ~he-him~]

stolen from Clarice

1. What is today’s date?
- August 8, 2018

2. When you’re at the grocery store do you use the self-check-out?
sometimes

3. Who do you text the most?
my friends

4. How do you make your money?
I don't yet

5. Are you wearing any jewelry right now?
yes

6. Last outgoing call you made was to?
Idk

7. Do you know anyone that’s pregnant right now?
no

8. Are you proud of who you are?
yes

9. If you were told you were 8 weeks pregnant what would you say?
I would probably not believe them because I am ASEXUAL

10. Who last borrowed something from you?
idk

11. Are there any words on your shirt?
Black veil brides

12. Do you smoke weed every day?
no

13. Would you ever live with any of your best friends?
yes

14. Who did you last text?
my friends

15. Were you intoxicated the last time you threw up?
no

16. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
hot topics

17. Does your head hurt when you cry?
sometimes

18. Have you ever watched a foreign film with English subtitles?
yes

19. Do you think that in the end, everything will fall into place?
I think so

20. Are you legal to drink?
no

21. Has anyone had a problem with your lifestyle?
probably

22. What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
- peppermint tea

23. Do you think you’re a good friend?
idk

24. Where did you sleep last night?
my room

25. How do you feel about the last person you texted?
they are amazing

26. Do you know anyone who is bisexual?
yes

27. Have you ever smoked weed?
no

28. Have you ever been really f*cked up to an ex?
no

29. Have you ever told someone you hated them?
no

30. What’s up for tomorrow?
listen to music, read, draw

31. Do you know anyone named Chris?
yes

32. Do you wear big sunglasses?
I have transition glasses, so I don't need sunglasses

33. Have you ever showered with someone?
no

34. Do you own anything from American Eagle?
no

35. Have you ever drank alcohol?
no

36. What is your favorite color?
blue

37. Has anyone ever hung up on you?
no

38. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
probably

39. When’s the last time you had fast food?
idk

40. Do all bottled water brands taste the same?
probably

41. Do your headphones break frequently?
no

42. Do you like touch-screens?
yes

43. Are you good at following advice?
sometimes

44. Is your closet messy or clean?
messy

45. Have you ever had braces?
no

46. Do you wear make up for yourself, or for others?
I don't wear make up


(Home)
1. Where's your phone? next to me
2. Where's your wallet? I don't have one
3. What color are your bedroom walls? white
4. When did you last clean your room? idk
5. When did you last mop? idk
6. Where's your hair brush/comb? idk

(School)
1. What grade are you in? college
2. What's your worst subject? math
3. What's your best subject? English
4. When did you last get an A? idk
5. When did you last get an F? idk
6. Ever gotten detention? nope

(History)
1. Have you ever broken a bone? yes
2. Have you ever been arrested? no
3. Have you ever been in a fist fight? no
4. Have you ever done acid? no
5. Have you ever written a book report? yes
6. Have you ever seen a meteor shower? no

(You)
1. What color is your hair? black
2. Is it natural? yes
3. What does the shirt you're currently wearing look like? it's black with Andy biersack and the words, "black veil brides
4. Are you wearing pants or shorts? pants
5. Are you wearing shoes? no
6. Wearing any jewelry? yes
7. What's your favorite show? stranger things
8. What's your favorite movie? doctor strange
9. What's your favorite song? too many to choose
10. What's your favorite food? I have a lot

[kavi ~he-him~]

stolen from Clarice

1)Are you really ready for 111 questions?
yes

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
no

4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
my friends

5) Do you regret it?
no

6) Have you ever been depressed?
yes

7)Are you a boy or girl?
neither

9) What is your relationship status?
single

10) How do you want to die?
idk

11) What did you last eat?
pancakes

12) Played any sports?
no

13) Do you bite your nails?
yes

14) When was your last physical fight?
no

15) Do you have an attitude?
probably

16) Do you like someone?
yes

17) What is your real name?
Alex

19) Are you gonna get high later?
no

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
maybe

21) Do you miss someone?
yes

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
twirl

23) Do you tan a lot?
I'm dark skin

24) Have any pets?
no :(

25) How exactly are you feeling?
tired

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
yes

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
no

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
I have no exes

29) Are you scared of spiders?
yes

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
yes

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
yes

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
idk

33) Do you want to have kids?
maybe I just don't want to have sex

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
no

35) Do you type fast?
yes

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
yes, 1 in each of my ears

37) Want any more?
no

38) Can you spell well?
yes

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
yes

40) What are you craving right now?
Mac n cheese

41) Ever been to a bonfire party?
no

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
yes

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
no

45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
no

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
no

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
no

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
yes

50) What should you be doing?
making Mac n cheese

51) What’s irritating you right now?
nothing

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
yes

53) Does somebody love you?
maybe

54) What is your favorite colour?
blue

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
probably

57) Do you have trust issues?
yes, major

60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
yes

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
I have no exes

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
idk

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
sometimes

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
maybe

67) What was your child hood nickname?
idk

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
no

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
probably

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
I read

73) What is bothering you?
I miss my fav band

74) Have you ever been out of your state/province?
yes

75) Do you play the Wii?
i used to, but it broke down

76) Are you listening to music right now?
yes

77) Do you like Chinese food?
yes

78) Do you know your fathers b- day?
yes

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
yes

80) Is cheating ever okay?
no

81) Are you mean?
no

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
no

84) Do you believe in true love?
yes

88) Do you like the outside?
depends

89) Are you currently bored?
yes

90) Do you wanna get married?
yes

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
depends

92) Are you hungry?
yes

93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
no

94) What makes you happy?
music, drawing, shadow of whales

95) Would you change your name?
Yes, I want to go by my preferred name, Alex

96) Ever been to Alaska?
no

98) Do you watch the news?
no

99) What’ s your zodiac sign?
Leo

100) Do you like Subway?
no

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
yes

102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
uhhhhh

103) Do you talk like your friends?
idk

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
yes

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
yes

107) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
my friends

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
yes

109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
idk

110) Favorite lyrics right now?
she said save me, I don't want to go
she said hold me, I don't want to know

111) Can you count to one million?
probably

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want Mac n cheese

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I'm gonna be honest yes I still love Jonathan

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and I do think about him a lot. Not trying to be creepy but it's hard to get him off my mind

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but....

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ever since Shadow of whales came into my life

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I haven't been focusing on Jon that much, only sometimes but not that much, I'd been focusing on SOW a lot more, and I haven't been stressing over Jon that much

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which I feel like this is good for me because I don't wanna keep stressing over Jon

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yeah I do think about Jon and at times I do focus on him because yeah I still love him

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but I've been focusing on sow more

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I love them so much and am thankful that this band is in my life and thankful that I am in the same time as them

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today is my best friend Alana's birthday

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I love her and I want to see her again, it's been a year since we last got to see each other and hang out.

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guys, I just texted Jonathan, I just said hi hehehehe

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but seriously I texted him after a year of not speaking or texting him

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I should check my phone to see if Jon responded but I am scared lol

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GUYS ME AND JON ARE TALKING AND I GOT THE BUTTERFLIES AND I AM HAPPY

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So I been thinking

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I been running from my feelings for Jon and the feelings only grow stronger and the feelings aren’t going to go away

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And I don’t think I can run anymore

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So I guess I am done running from my feelings because yes i’m still in love with Jon and have been for 2 years

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And he does mean a lot to me he’s one of the best things that has happened to me next to sow and I don’t wanna lose him

[Doreen]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "And he does mean a lot to me he’s one of the best things that has happened to me next to sow and I don’t wanna lose him"

Helloooo! Who is Jon? and why don't ya express your feelings to him!! xx

- Dor

[kavi ~he-him~]

Doreen wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "And he does mean a lot to me he’s one of the best things that has happened to ..."

he is my best friend and it's kind of complicated

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anyways sorry I haven't been on in a while

[Doreen]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "anyways sorry I haven't been on in a while"

it's all good. and oh i seee. how is everything now?

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it's still complicated

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so I remember there was a time when I had a dream of being a writer

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I had the dreams of being both an artist and writer and then I had the dreams of being both an artist and a writer and a musician

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but now....I don't really have the writing dreams anymore, I just want to be an artist and a musician

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but I probably am going to write for fun but that's it

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You should post them on here!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trey wrote: "You should post them on here!"

okay

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if I write, I'm going to write mostly fxf stories because I love fxf stories

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or maybe I'll write one about an asexual person too because I don't see a lot of stories about an asexual person

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and I'm asexual

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Then bam, a story about an asexual character, should be an intriguing read

[kavi ~he-him~]

okay will do it

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well last night I finished reading City of Lost Souls and I want to throw the book at a wall. Because of the ending, why would Cassandra Clare do this to me???

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THEY BROKE UP MY FAV SHIP MALEC

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and it was at the ENDING of the book and now I have to wait till I read the next book to see if they get back together, they BETTER get back together

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JAY HELP ME

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Malec is my fav ship in the book, because it's so cute and gay and I love it

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I love gay characters in books

[jay, rip]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "JAY HELP ME"

*cough*

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and I love gay ships, cause I myself, am pan/ace,

[jay, rip]

you’re gonna cry your way through CoHF, that’s all i have to say.