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[kavi ~he-him~]

tbh when I was younger there was a time when I thought my life was cursed

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I wanted to disappear and go into the fictional worlds because I felt so unwanted and alone.

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shadow of whales never fails at cheering me up and they never fail at making me happy

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Sarah, JD's gf, she is so nice and I love her

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Ugh, I'm nice to others but when it comes to my own self, it's difficult

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oof 7 more days

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my birthday is in 7 days and my best friend and bandmate shares a birthday with me

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sow told me that I was a blessing to them and I cried

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\\\Shadow of Whales\\\
Hi

May 3
Hi

i love you guys so much and you guys are so amazing and so sweet and you guys deserve all the happiness and love and I am so happy that I found you guys

\\\Alex loves SOW\\\ 7 more days
you guys always make me happy and you guys always manage to cheer me up no matter how bad I feel. and thank you guys for always being there


\\\Shadow of Whales\\\
Thanks so much alex :) you’re such a blessing to us

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sadness

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because there is a shadow of whales show at six flags tomorrow and I can't go :(

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don't you hate it when you are friends with someone and you talk a lot but then suddenly they just stop talking to you?

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then again ppl leave me eventually, only some ppl stay

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GUYS MY BIRTHDAY IS ON FRIDAY AND I AM GOING TO TURN 19 WOO

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YAY I GOT MY BIRTHDAY GIFT

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Valentine Ransom "Jeff the Killer" ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~baby Val~ ~FREAK~ ~Little Miss Political Agenda~ wrote: "You got your birthday gift before your birthday?"

Yeah

[kavi ~he-him~]

I got a Wacom tablet.

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it's a digital art thing

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okay I need an adapter for my Mac because I have the newer Macbook pro and I can't plug the usb thing to my laptop because the hole where you put the usb thing in is too small for it.

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same

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until I got my Mac

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I asked my mom and dad if we can go to the Apple Store

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cause I am itching to do some art

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I'm also in the mood to cook or bake

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agreed

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I need butter tho

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my parents have to drive me

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yep my brother got his drivers license

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maybe I'll ask my dad to take me to get butter on the way to the Apple Store or on the way back

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that moment when there are a lot of ppl that are so talented at art but then there is me and my art isn't as great as other's

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I mean I try my best but it's still not as great at other's

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it's difficult to draw based on my own imagination and it's difficult to draw without a reference pic

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and I'm thinking of doing commissions for my art but I'm nervous because my art isn't that good and it's hard to draw without reference pics

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Valentine Ransom "Jeff the Killer" ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~baby Val~ ~FREAK~ ~Little Miss Political Agenda~ wrote: "I feel the same. Thus I'm trying to find my own unique style."

same I want to try drawing based on my own imagination and I want to try to doing my own thing but it's difficult without a reference pic

[kavi ~he-him~]

same I mean I can draw ppl but the fingers are my weaknesses

[kavi ~he-him~]

I asked my mom and I can't come to the show tomorrow 😞 because of a party which they only told me about today
12:20PM
Hi I turn 19 on friday!!!

Jeremy
Don’t even worry about it!! So excited for your party!! Happy early birthday 🙂

[kavi ~he-him~]

a convo between me and Jeremy.

I am crying I don't deserve these guys

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also Pinterest has good recipes and I love them

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also yesterday I told my dad that SOW are my friends and he laughed and he said that I am their fan and they are band members -_-

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I did my first digital drawing and I am now coloring it

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Thank you!!

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I made pancakes

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Shadow of Alex ~6 more days~ ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "I made pancakes"

and I put cinnamon and sugar in it

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also I forgot to tell you

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my best friend Jonathan came in my dreams last night and the other night

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in the first dream my family and I and Jon's mother were hanging out, and then we were at my house and Jon came over and I went over to Jon and we started talking and then Jon said he was taken and I got sad but I didn't show it and I trying to be happy for him and then me and Jon hung out and as we were hanging out I was thinking "well I am into girls so."

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and then last night I had a dream and Jon was there and my friend Avery was there and in the dream Jon said he was taken and he and Avery were together and I got sad, but wasn't showing it because I do want Jon to be happy and I was also sad because I did love Jon and Avery is my friend, and then as me, Jon and Avery were walking I told Jon that I had something to say and I told him that I was panromantic asexual and then I told him what panromantic asexual means, and then as Jon and Avery were together I was thinking about girls and I was looking for a girl

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Valentine Ransom "Jeff the Killer" ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~baby Val~ ~FREAK~ ~Little Miss Political Agenda~ wrote: "Only girls now?"

I think so

[kavi ~he-him~]

I mean I think i'm mostly into girls and nonbinaries, and some guys

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now that I think about it I feel like Jon would be the only guy that I've fallen for.