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kavi ~he-him~
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Jul 01, 2018 08:23PM
same with music, I don't want to do art and music cause I have to I want to do them because I want to because they are my passion
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but with art, I want to be able to create my own thing and do whatever I want, but I also want to be able to create fan art.
I want a career that'll let me to be able to use my creativity, I have a really big imagination which I've had since I was a little kid, I want to create art and create music
and express myself through my art and music and songs
you know how I always write my songs based on my feelings and thoughts right
actually tbh my dreams have changed a lot over the years of my life I guess idk
my art dreams has stayed tho
I remember there was a time when I wanted to be both a vet and an artist, but teachers said I could only pick one out of the two >.< so I picked art
and then I wanted to be a graphics designer but now I want to be both an artist and a musician
and now here I am in a band.
with art, art has been my passion since I was little. but with music, I love music don't get me wrong, I love singing and playing the piano, but when it came to singing in front of others, I hated it because I was really shy and I had stage fright. now I was in choir in middle school yes I sang in front of other ppl, but I never sang a solo in front of others, other than my parents, and I quit choir after 6th grade, because I wanted room for art. and then it's been a while since I sang in front of ppl so I guess that's probably why I'm shy
I also thought I was terrible at writing lyrics, but then when I was 16 or 17, I got into bvb and some of the other bands, and their lyrics were really deep and I liked hearing songs that have a really deep and meaningful lyrics, like not just about love but really deep you know? and then I started writing some songs, and I slowly realized I had a talent for songwriting so I wrote songs and I wanted to write songs, but then I realized I wanted to be in a band, but wasn't too serious about it but then last year when I was 17 in January, I was wondering what it was like to be in a band and I wanted to be in a band and was serious about it and now I'm in a band
I've always had trouble expressing my thoughts and feelings out loud. but when it comes to writing songs, it's easy to express my feelings into writing songs.
one of the things I love about art and writing songs, is, they are some of the few things that I can be confident about without putting myself down. I'm not confident about myself, and I have extremely low self-esteem and I don't love myself and it's going to take years for me to learn to love myself, but when it comes to my art, even tho it's not as good as others' art, at least I can feel bit confident about it.
and yes I often think bad stuff about myself. I don't say the bad things out loud but that doesn't mean I don't think about them. I mostly think them when I am feeling down
Personal Survey Time!Stolen from Hallie
Have you ever received anesthesia or morphine?
Probably
If you could try an illegal drug, with no negative consequences whatsoever, which one would you choose?
neither
How much have your aspirations changed since you were a kid?
not much.
If you had to choose which video game to be in, which would it be?
smash bros or tomodachi life
Between the two, would you rather live in a place where it’s only night or where it’s only day?
Night
Is there anyone that makes your skin crawl?
no
What’s a band/artist that you enjoyed before, but no longer like anymore?
most of the pop artists because I'm not interested in pop anymore. I used to be but I'm into rock and alternative now
What consecutive ages (13 to 14, 14 to 15, etc.) do you think you grew up the most emotionally/mentally?
probably 14-18
In your eyes, when do you stop considering a person a friend?
When they keep treating me like trash or they keep making me feel unwanted
Do you like it when people are affectionate with you?
only when its the ppl I love
Have the past few days been bad, good, or neutral?
neutral
Are you more likely to rant or vent in real life or on Tumblr?
Goodreads, twitter
If you had to be an actor/actress in a movie, what genre of the movie would you be best at?
fantasy or comedy
In your opinion, does the world make people cruel or do people make the world cruel?
the latter
Are people more likely to tell you to tone it down or to speak up?
speak up
What’s the last thing that you procrastinated?
idk
Out of fire, earth, water, wind, light, and dark, which element appeals the most to you?
fire and water
What’s one thing that you wish was real?
Magic and mythical creatures and fictional characters
Is there anything (show, comedian, etc.) that you constantly quote or make references to?
song lyrics sometimes
What’s your favourite colour on a vehicle?
blue
Do you usually have to make yourself get over someone or does it just happen naturally?
depends
The last pain that you experienced, was it physical or emotional?
emotional
What was one of your favourite songs as kid?
idk
Have you ever had the wind knocked out of you?
no
When’s the last time you tried to get revenge, if ever?
I don't remember
GUYS I FOUND A MOVIE ABOUT A PANSEXUAL GIRL AND A GENDERFLUID
Well it's about a girl that falls in love with a soul that inhabits a different body everyday
it's called Every day, I knew about it a while back because ppl were talking about it on Insta and same with love Simon and now I just remembered about it and I searched it up and it apparently came out on February and my library has it
also I want to watch love Simon again
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Personal Survey: Bold Which AppliesStolen from Hallie
Your shirt is either blue or white.
You would rather lie and not get caught than tell the truth and get caught.
You hate when people show off.
You’ve dated an Alex.
You woke up before 10 AM this morning.
The colour blue looks better on you than yellow.
It’s rained today.
Your school’s name begins with a N.
When you were little you would play in a sandbox.
You know a Maria.
You don’t have a barn at your house.
You’ve never had to wear a gas mask.
You know at least 2 people named Kevin.
You hate chocolate.
You don’t understand how money works in another country besides your own.
You’ve never been dumped in a text message.
You are one of those people who are afraid of clowns.
It’s past 2:46 PM.
You don’t ever wear skirts.
You’ve eaten a sucker within the past week.
You’ve kissed someone whose name began with a V, B or R.
You hate when people say “I’m a unicorn!”
You’ve seen a koala before.
You like the name Jonathan.
Your favourite colour of balloon is orange.
The colour of your TV remote is mostly white.
You spend most of your time in your bedroom.
When you get a new song on your iPod you listen to it over and over again.
You’ve never been to the beach.
You have over 345 songs on your music device.
You’ve written your name in the sand multiple times.
You laughed hard today.
You wore shorts today.
The coloyr of shoes you wore yesterday were white.
You started dating someone on the 3rd of some month.
You’ve been in a private jet.
You’ve carved your name in a tree.
You can’t play the guitar.
You currently hear a Katy Perry song playing.
Whenever you order ice cream, you always get the same kind.
You grew up in a small town.
You haven’t cried in a long time.
Your favoyrite song is in the top played songs on your music device.
The colour of your dream car is red.
The person you like was born in Jan, July, Aug or Dec.
You want to take a nap.
Your smile is your favorite thing about yourself.
You’ve been to a Coldplay concert.
You spell ketchup like catsup.
You’ve had the same phone for about a year now.
You’re listening to your favourite song right now.
Your hair is longer than your shoulders.
You could never be a doctor, fire fighter or cop.
You miss someone right now.
You like silver jewelry more than gold.
Your favoyrite hoodie is red.
Your last name begins with a P, F or G.
You’ve been to one of these: Houston, TX, Cleveland, OH or New York City.
You don’t have a swimsuit yet for the summer.
You have more than $60 in your wallet.
You have about 1 or 2 pops/sodas a day.
You’ve been to the Cheesecake Factory.
You don’t know what you’re having for dinner.
You’re currently eating candy.
You like curly hair on yourself better.
You’re terrified of thunderstorms.
You like cottage cheese.
You blame Disney for high expectations for relationships.
You hate mayonnaise.
You listen to music when you’re mad.
You don’t own a pair of yellow socks.
You like the red Powerade.
You hate Trix cereal or yogurt.
You didn’t wake up last night in the middle of the night.
You’ve had a pet fish that was blue.
You're wearing a long sleeved shirt right now.
You like Jason Derulo.
You’ve danced on top of a table before.
You’re a fast runner.
You wish you could redecorate your bedroom.
You’ve learned a lot from your past relationships.
Your best friend’s name is Elise.
You can’t stand it when people don’t use smiley faces in texts.
The roof of your house is black.
You were born in Feb, Mar, Apr, Aug or Nov.
Send me link to survey
Never mind, sadly I can't copy the survey thing
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Personal Survey: Bold Which AppliesStolen from Tumblr
I am an only child.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet/pets.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I like the taste of blood.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.
I have/had:
Graduated high school.
Smoked cigarettes.
Ridden every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a concert.
Helped someone.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Been broken up with.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Skipped school.
Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Fired a gun.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Attempted suicide.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe/live there.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced.
Gotten straight A’s.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.
My hair is naturally the color:
Light brown
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blonde
Black
Dirty blonde
Strawberry blonde/Ginger
Multicoloured
My eyes are:
Brown
Blue
Grey
Green
Hazel
Light brown
A combination of things
I am:
Male
Female
Other
People sometimes label me as:
Slut
Girly
Ugly
Nerd
Other
Some of my biggest fears are:
Spiders/other insects
Dying
Doctor/Dentist appointments
Hospitals
Needles
Disease
Being alone in the dark
Heights
Small spaces
Oceans/large bodies of water
Holes
Large animals
Small animals
Open spaces
Lightning
I have:
A friend with benefits
A laptop in my room
A television in my room
Good grades
My own car
Married parents
I love this part XD mister doctor strange XD
Homophobia needs to go away
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
Every Day (other topics)If I Was Your Girl (other topics)
If I Was Your Girl (other topics)
City of Lost Souls (other topics)
Leah on the Offbeat (other topics)
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