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[kavi ~he-him~]

it's been 3 months since the day I met them and I still haven't stopped wearing my sow button

[kavi ~he-him~]

I am so happy rn because of shadow of whales, and I am not very good at staying happy for long, so I am going to try to stay happy, and cherish it before the happy goes away.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love shadow of whales with all my heart

[kavi ~he-him~]

oof shadow of whales put me in a really good mood

[kavi ~he-him~]

1. who was the last person you held hands with?
no one
2. are you loud, outgoing, or shy?

shy

3. who are you looking forward to seeing?

shadow of whales again

4. are you easy to get along with?

idk

5. have you ever given up on someone, but then gone back to him or her?

no

6. if you were drunk, would the person you like take care of you?

idk

7. do you think you'll be in a relationship two months from now?

no

8. who from the opposite gender is on your mind right now?

the shadow of whales guys

9. does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

yes

10. who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
idk

11. what does your most recent text say

idk

12. how do you feel about *******?

** *** **

13. do you like big crowds of people?

no

14. do you believe in luck and miracles?

yes

15. what good thing happened this summer?

idk

16. would you kiss the last person you kissed?

yes

17. do you think there is life on other planets?

yes

18. do you still talk to your first crush?

no

19. do you like bubble baths?

yes!

20. do you like your neighbors?

yes

21. what are your bad habits?

I don't want to talk about it

22. where would you like to travel?

London

23. do you have trust issues?

yes

24. favorite part of your daily routine?

listening to shadow of whales

25. what body part are you most uncomfortable with?

everything

26. what do you do when you wake up?

try to go back to sleep

27. do you wish your skin was darker or lighter?

lighter

28. who are you most comfortable around/

shadow of whales

29. have any of your ex's ever told you they regret breaking up?

I don't have ex's

30. do you ever want to get married?

idk, because I am happy because I have my fav band

31. is your hair long enough for a ponytail?

yes

32. which celebrities would you like having a ********* with?

no one because I am asexual. but I am into cuddling

33. *******?

***

34. do you play sports?

no

35. would you rather live without tv or music?

tv

36. have you ever liked someone and never told them?

yes

37. what do you say during awkward silences?

nothing

38. do you think age matters in relationships?

no, but it depends on the difference

39. what are your favorite stores to shop in?

hot topic

40. what do you wasn to do after high school?

I finished high school

41. do you believe that everyone deserves a second chance?

depends

42. if you're being extremely quiet, what does that mean?

I'm thinking or I'm nervous or I'm shy

43. do you smile at strangers?

sometimes

44. trip to outer space or the bottom of the ocean?

bottom of the ocean

45. do you want a roommate?

yes

46. what are paranoid about?

idk

47. what is the meanest thing someone has ever said to you?

I've been told I was worthless

48. the nicest thing?

idk

49. have you done something recently you hope no one finds out about?

maybe

50. what language do you want to learn?

the language of food

[kavi ~he-him~]

I am working on another art rn

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's gonna be a big art

[kavi ~he-him~]

here I will let you guys see the unfinished version of my art

[kavi ~he-him~]

[kavi ~he-him~]

I finished my art

[kavi ~he-him~]

my unfinished art of Jeremy



I'm going to paint it later

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm going to bring the sow guys gifts the next time I see them again

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna make some paintings of all the sow guys and I am going to bring the paintings to them the next time I see them again

[kavi ~he-him~]

would my artworks be a good gift ?

[jay, rip]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "would my artworks be a good gift ?"

yes

[kavi ~he-him~]

my head hurts

[kavi ~he-him~]

so there was a rumor that bvb was breaking up

[kavi ~he-him~]

but it's not happening so bvb is not breaking up and everything is fine

[kavi ~he-him~]

Andy denied the rumor

[kavi ~he-him~]

anyways, I asked Jeremy if my artworks would be a good gift and he said "Heck yeah they would be!"

[jay, rip]

Alwldndmalanmdks ALEXXXXXXXX i saw this post about bvb breaking up after warped on fb and i tried to tag you but i was like o shit they don’t got facebook so i came here to tell you but you already saw it apparently :P

[kavi ~he-him~]

jay wrote: "Alwldndmalanmdks ALEXXXXXXXX i saw this post about bvb breaking up after warped on fb and i tried to tag you but i was like o shit they don’t got facebook so i came here to tell you but you already..."

Bvb isn't breaking up.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jake and Jinxx said it.

[kavi ~he-him~]

jay wrote: "Alwldndmalanmdks ALEXXXXXXXX i saw this post about bvb breaking up after warped on fb and i tried to tag you but i was like o shit they don’t got facebook so i came here to tell you but you already..."

also I do have facebook XD

[jay, rip]

YOU SHOUDL TOTALLYYYY ADD ME OMG
i always try to tag my gr friends in posts and i’ll be halfway through typing their names out and i’ll be like “oh shit wrong website”

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need the day my band and I can move in together and the day when we can start making music to come faster

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want to make music I want my band to go big someday

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate being so far away from my bandmates because we have to wait a couple of years before we can move in together and because there is long distance between us, but it's worth it because I love my bandmates

[kavi ~he-him~]

there was a spider on my bed this morning so I got up and ran away.

[kavi ~he-him~]

My friend says spiders are going to take over the world one day

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jay protect us from the spiders

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want a shadow of whales themed cake for my birthday this year

[jay, rip]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Jay protect us from the spiders"

hdjalandkaq dkakksndbskqmw

[kavi ~he-him~]

jay wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Jay protect us from the spiders"

hdjalandkaq dkakksndbskqmw"

XD

[Kitty]

spider!!! as it's adorable

[kavi ~he-him~]

spiders are creepy

[kavi ~he-him~]

so it's official I'm making the shadow of whales themed cake

[kavi ~he-him~]

AHAKJWWKJWA BOTH JAKE AND INNA LIKED MY POST

[kavi ~he-him~]

so I guess I'm planning two things for my birthday this year

[kavi ~he-him~]

1. shadow of whales + offended by everything fan meet up
2. my birthday thing

[kavi ~he-him~]

all in one on the same day and same time

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna invite my anime club friends because I miss them and it's been a year since I last saw them and last got to hang out with them

[kavi ~he-him~]

bvb is holding an art competition, and I AM DOING IT

[kavi ~he-him~]

Eli, my friend and birthday twin and bandmate, hasn't been on in a few days and I miss him :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

YO I TALKED TO MY MOM ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY PARTY AND NOW THE PARTY IS SET. SO NOW BOTH THE SOW + OBE FAN MEET UP + MY BIRTHDAY PARTY IS SET

[kavi ~he-him~]

ALSO I INVITED MY FRIENDS TO MY BIRTHDAY PARTY AND NOW MY HEART IS COMPLETE!! I HOPE THEY ARE ABLE TO COME BECAUSE I HAVEN'T SEEN MY FRIENDS IN A YEAR, AND I MISS THEM SO MUCH!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

(view spoiler)[ tomorrow I will be four weeks clean from self harm, if I can make it to next to week without relapsing I will be a month clean. 4 weeks clean, this will probably be the longest I've been clean in a while because for the last few months I haven't been able to stay clean for more than 3 weeks, but I am going to try. I'm almost to 4 weeks clean. (hide spoiler)]

[kavi ~he-him~]

(view spoiler)[ I can feel the urge coming back because I am almost 4 weeks clean, but I am trying to fight it, I felt the urge while in the shower but I will fight it. I won't always be that strong because sometimes the urge is too strong for me to fight (hide spoiler)]

[kavi ~he-him~]

I see some ppl on twitter saying that asexuality isn't apart of the LGBTQ+ because "if you don't experience same gender attractions and you're cis, you are not Lgbt+" and "if you are a straight ace then you are still straight"

[kavi ~he-him~]

that doesn't even make any sense