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[kavi ~he-him~]

also SHADOW OF WHALES IS THE BEST BAND EVER AND THEY ARE MY BEST FRIENDS

[Dramomid ~The Demon of the Dark~ (aka T)]

*pops in with a cloud of smoke* Ello

[kavi ~he-him~]

TYSTER

[kavi ~he-him~]

\\\Shadow of Alex\\\
Hi


McAllister
Wassup?!!

44m 44 minutes ago
\\\Shadow of Alex\\\
Not much wbu!!!


McAllister
Just working on some McAllister business stuff. How was your day?!

39m 39 minutes ago
\\\Shadow of Alex\\\
It was good wbu


McAllister
Somewhat uneventful. Just ran some errands. How is life?!😀

34m 34 minutes ago
awww

\\\Shadow of Alex\\\
life is okay at the moment, wbu


McAllister
Honestly bout the same haha. Some ups, some downs, but just gotta keep pressing on ya know!

25m 25 minutes ago
\\\Shadow of Alex\\\
Same here


McAllister
So youve probably only talked to Ty, but I wanna get to know ya too. So what do you love to do?

13m 13 minutes ago
\\\Shadow of Alex\\\
I love to listen to music, sing, write lyrics, draw, do art, read, hang out with my friends on social media. wbu

[kavi ~he-him~]

our dms

[kavi ~he-him~]

SOW are just so sweet and kind and nice

[princess maggie]

GET IT OMG YES ALEX

[kavi ~he-him~]

AHHHHH I'M SO HAPPY AHHHH I'M FRIENDS WITH SOME BANDS

[kavi ~he-him~]

AND SOW ARE MY BEST FRIENDS

[kavi ~he-him~]

OH AND MCALLISTER AND OFFENDED BY EVERYTHING ARE CLOSE TO ME

[kavi ~he-him~]

NO JOKE OFFENDED BY EVERYTHING LIVES IN THE SAME CITY AS ME AND WE COULD RANDOMLY RUN INTO AT ANY TIME

[kavi ~he-him~]

Mcallister is in Fort Worth, offended by everything is in Dallas and I'm in Dallas EEK

[kavi ~he-him~]

Shadow of whales is also in Texas

[Dramomid ~The Demon of the Dark~ (aka T)]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "TYSTER"

ALEX
What we talkin about

[kavi ~he-him~]

Dramomid ~The Demon of the Dark~ (aka T) wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "TYSTER"

ALEX
What we talkin about"

bands

[Dramomid ~The Demon of the Dark~ (aka T)]

oooo

[kavi ~he-him~]

bands are awesome

[kavi ~he-him~]

McAllister
Awesome! Like all those things, not good at them all. But I like em lol. And I don't have tons of friends because of crippling social anxiety haha, but am learning to conquer that!

12m 12 seconds ago
\\\Shadow of Alex\\\
awww I'm sorry


I don't have much friends, either, all my friends are either far away from me or in different colleges, and I haven't seen my friends from high school in a while, and I haven't made any friends in college yet because I have difficulties making new friends. but I've made some really amazing friends on twitter and insta, and I really love them all. And I also have you guys and all my fav bands

\\\Shadow of Alex\\\
you guys are my friends too :)

[kavi ~he-him~]

OML

[Dramomid ~The Demon of the Dark~ (aka T)]

idk think ive heard of those

[kavi ~he-him~]

they are really great bands

[kavi ~he-him~]

why is it, that with some ppl I can just open up so quickly but with others it takes some time to open up

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have major trust issues. I don't want to trust too many ppl and I don't want to trust ppl that easily anymore. I want to, I just don't want to get hurt again. I've been hurt by ppl I've called "friends"

[kavi ~he-him~]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "why is it, that with some ppl I can just open up so quickly but with others it takes some time to open up"

by opening up I mean opening up about feelings

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've talked to Mcallister and SOW about some of my feelings before. and just now I opened up to Mcallister about some of my feelings and I haven't known them that long.

[kavi ~he-him~]

SOW, I've known them for 2 months and I feel like I can trust them. sometimes I get scared that I annoy them but instead they still love me and care about me

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've literally told SOW about the dream I had where I felt like I was annoying them they said I don't annoy them

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've told them that I was afraid that I might accidentally push them away or scare them away or make them leave they said that I shouldn't worry about that

[kavi ~he-him~]

SOW has literally seen the me in my darkest moments, and they still care

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sow has been there when I needed them

[kavi ~he-him~]

my voice teacher once asked me why I'm so shy and what I am scared of, because I don't talk much and I just

[kavi ~he-him~]

maybe it's because I'm not very social and I have anxiety, I am a major introvert.

[kavi ~he-him~]

and I have major trust issues

[kavi ~he-him~]

maybe because I'd been hurt so much and so badly by other ppl

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm not the same person I used to be in the past

[kavi ~he-him~]

my biggest fears is getting too attached or too close to ppl and losing my loved ones. and my loves ones leaving me

[kavi ~he-him~]

my biggest fears is being left by the ppl I love

[kavi ~he-him~]

and I've been left by ppl more than ones so

[kavi ~he-him~]

stolen from Jellybean

1. Last Song You Listened To - Dream by Shadow Of Whales
2. Last Song You Purchased - idk
3. Song You Discovered On Youtube/Tumblr - In the end by Black Veil Brides
4. Favorite Soundtrack Piece - idk
5. Favorite Band - Black Veil Brides, Shadow Of Whales, Asking Alexandria, Palaye Royale, Mcallister, Offended by Everything, All time Low, Sleeping With Sirens, New Years Day, etc.
6. Favorite Solo Artist - Juliet Simms
7. Favorite Album - What we do
8. Best Live Gig Or Act You Wanna See Live - Black veil Brides, Asking Alexandria, Shadow of Whales
9. Guilty Pleasure Song - idk
10. Song You Used To Hate But Like Now - idk
11. Song You Used To Love But Now Can't Stand - idk
12. Favorite Song From A Video Game - idk
13. Group You Wish Had Never Split - My chemical romance
14. Favorite Song From A Film - Smokes and Mirrors- Doctor Strange
15. Favorite Song From An Advert - idk
16. Song You Grew Up With - idk
17. First Song/Album You Ever Bought - idk
18. Album You Found Accidentally And Love - none
19. Favorite Foreign Language Song - idk
20. Song From The Year You Were Born - idk
21. Song From Fav Music Genre - When they call my name by Black veil Brides
22. Most Overrated Song - idk
23. Song You Would Recommend To Everyone - Runaway by Shadow Of Whales
24. Song That Reminds You Of A Specific Event - Waiting by Shadow of Whales
25. Song You Can't Help Singing Along To - any Shadow of Whales song
26. Parody Song - idk
27. Slow Song - Moving on by Asking Alexandria
28. Fast Song - Mr. Doctor Man by Palaye Royale
29. Favorite Song At The Moment - too many to choose

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm sad now :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex says he hates us all equally :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna go cry now

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex is my favorite singer from my fav band All time low

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know he's joking tho. he actually does love us all

[kavi ~he-him~]

well I mean he's not coming to Texas so

[kavi ~he-him~]

infinity war spoiler alert:

Batman and superman dies

[kavi ~he-him~]

and Andy Biersack takes over as the new batman

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate anxiety

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate depression

[kavi ~he-him~]

I seriously hate how I keep thinking I annoy and bother ppl