~the sea does not like to be restrained (Kavi's journal)~ Showing 16,851-16,900 of 20,355

[kavi ~he-him~]

guys help me

[kavi ~he-him~]

there was a spider next to me and I just got out of my seat

[kavi ~he-him~]

and now the spider disappeared and I am even more nervous

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't stop freaking out

[Hallie]

I agree with Lillian! xD

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lillian wrote: "*hands you a box of matches* There's nothing more to be done. You must burn the house down. XD"

Hallie wrote: "I agree with Lillian! xD"

okay I will burn the house down but not before I get my laptop and headphones and my phone and charger, I refuse to go anywhere without these things XD

[Hallie]

And your guitar and books!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie wrote: "And your guitar and books!!!"

okay!! must not forget the guitar and books and my piano

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "And your guitar and books!!!"

okay!! must not forget the guitar and books and my piano"

oh wait the piano will be too large to carry XD

[Hallie]

I'll help with the piano!!! *tries to lift it but falls down instead* I'll get my men to lift it instead xD

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie wrote: "I'll help with the piano!!! *tries to lift it but falls down instead* I'll get my men to lift it instead xD"

XDDD I will get Hagrid to lift it XD

[Hallie]

Can I hug him before that? Or after? I just want hug him xP

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie wrote: "Can I hug him before that? Or after? I just want hug him xP"

yes

[kavi ~he-him~]

(view spoiler)[ guys the urge is back and strong....it came back yesterday but at the moment it's back and strong I don't want to do anything.... (hide spoiler)]

[kavi ~he-him~]

basically what happened is I let my mom down with the grades again

[kavi ~he-him~]

guys I don't want to be here in college anymore it's too stressful and there is too much pressure on me and I tend to break under too much pressure

[kavi ~he-him~]

I am not that strong I am just a fragile person

[kavi ~he-him~]

tbh last week, this was one of the things (view spoiler)[ that pushed me to be really close to self harming, I was already having self-harm urges. but this pushed the urge to be more stronger, because I was feeling like I can't do anything right and I keep letting ppl down, and stuff, and the urge was like really strong, like way too strong for me to fight, even tho I managed to survive the urge without hurting myself, SOW saved me. (hide spoiler)]

[kavi ~he-him~]

(view spoiler)[ and now the urge is back (hide spoiler)]

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna go sing runaway or waiting

[kavi ~he-him~]

back and runaway and waiting calmed me down

[kavi ~he-him~]

guys, I'm gonna marry music

[kavi ~he-him~]

wait would I be marrying music in general or would I be marrying one of my fav bands

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm officially in a relationship guys

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "I'm officially in a relationship guys"

with music

[kavi ~he-him~]

yeah I'm taken by music

[Hallie]

No way! Music is cheating on me?! xD Why that....!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie wrote: "No way! Music is cheating on me?! xD Why that....!!!!"

XD I think music is cheating on all of us XD

[Hallie]

Well, everyone wants music to play a special part in their lives, so I suppose it has no other choice xD

[edge]

Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "I'm officially in a relationship guys"

Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "I'm officially in a relationship guys"

with music"

you got me there

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie wrote: "Well, everyone wants music to play a special part in their lives, so I suppose it has no other choice xD"

TRUE XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

btw is today National love Alex day?

[kavi ~he-him~]

because my friends on twitter are telling me they love me

[kavi ~he-him~]

okay my friends officially declared today as National love Alex day

[kavi ~he-him~]

does that mean there is a national hate Alex day

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lillian wrote: "Only in a really sucky dimension."

that dimension is probably ruled by umbridge

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lillian wrote: "Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Only in a really sucky dimension."

that dimension is probably ruled by umbridge..."

XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

how about a national Love day for everyone on here?

[Hallie]

Wait only national? Can it be made international so that little Hallie can walk around carrying flags with your face on them and ordering everyone to surrender to the wonderful Alex?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie wrote: "Wait only national? Can it be made international so that little Hallie can walk around carrying flags with your face on them and ordering everyone to surrender to the wonderful Alex?"

Okay!

[kavi ~he-him~]

my friend blocked me on twitter and I have no idea why :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know I shouldn't care but he was my friend

[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel like everyone always leaves me eventually. everyone always gets tired of me

[kavi ~he-him~]

This is why I don't like getting attached to ppl cause I only end up getting hurt

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm fine guys

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wonder what would happen if I disappeared

[kavi ~he-him~]

most ppl wouldn't notice

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm easily replaceable anyways

[kavi ~he-him~]

you know, I'm always afraid of losing ppl but sometimes I wonder if there is anyone out there afraid of losing me