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[kavi ~he-him~]

guys I just really love these guys

[kavi ~he-him~]

yes I love bvb too and bvb will always be my #1 fav but SOW

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've met SOW they've been nothing but kind and sweet to me and they've actually interacted with me and talk to me they RECOGNIZED me. They've always been there supporting me

[kavi ~he-him~]

and I'm there supporting them too I just really love them so much and I don't ever want to lose these guys

[kavi ~he-him~]

they are literally the best friends anyone could ever ask for and I just.

[kavi ~he-him~]

guys I think I smiled my real smile the day I met them I was literally smiling so much my cheeks hurt. and I rarely smile my real smile.

[kavi ~he-him~]

they make me so happy and I just really love them

[kavi ~he-him~]

they are not just a band but they are my best friends and brothers


they are like the brothers I never knew I had

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love talking to SOW

[kavi ~he-him~]

I literally wrote 60 reasons why I love sow

[kavi ~he-him~]

https://twitter.com/RvnvwayTPR/status...

[kavi ~he-him~]

so, today is my mom's birthday, and she went to her friends place for a tea party and they threw a surprise birthday for her

[kavi ~he-him~]

And I secretly want a surprise party for my birthday.....I never had one before....I secretly want my friends to throw a surprise party for me but unfortunately my friends are all in college and my friends are all far away

[kavi ~he-him~]

I miss my high school friends badly

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have no friends in college,

well, I ran into two friends from high school at college but I rarely see them

[kavi ~he-him~]

and I have difficulty making new friends. I'm not very social and I am so shy

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have you guys I have my twitter and GR and Insta friends I have bands and I have SOW and I have my band

[kavi ~he-him~]

but you guys aren't physically here, I can't hug you guys or hang out with you guys or go out with you guys or have sleepovers with you because you guys are so far away from me

[kavi ~he-him~]

there is the SOW guys and they are in Austin which is 2 hours away from me but still....

[kavi ~he-him~]

sometimes I feel so alone and lonely because of this. I like being alone don't get me wrong, but I hate the feeling of loneliness....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wish teleportation was real so I could teleport to you guys and hug you guys

[kavi ~he-him~]

I mean it's probably my fault, I don't have a lot of friends irl....

[kavi ~he-him~]

but the thing is I want to try but I'm scared

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've been hurt badly before. I've tried only to get hurt in the end

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't want to try to be ppl's friends only to get hurt in the end

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't want to get hurt like the way I did in the past....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've been in friendships where ppl eventually stopped trying, leaving me to be the only one that's trying to make effort in the efforts, leaving me to be the only one trying, until they either hurt me, or it's time to stop trying

[kavi ~he-him~]

it hurts a lot

[kavi ~he-him~]

it hurts to know that one day you're like important to someone but then the next day it's like, you are not important

[kavi ~he-him~]

I am one of the most loyal friends there is, when I am your friend, I will always be there for you I always put my friends in front of me I will care for you I won't ever leave you. I will love you

[kavi ~he-him~]

but if you hurt me or leave me, then it's your loss. because you won't get me back

[kavi ~he-him~]

if you hurt me then I will drop you and I won't take you back. if you hurt me then you will lose me forever. sorry but I don't have time to be friends with someone that won't try to make effort in our friendships. I don't have time to be the only one making effort.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't want to be friends with anyone that hurt me or my friends. I don't want to get hurt again

[kavi ~he-him~]

because the thing is, when I get hurt even if I do forgive you I won't forget the memories, the memories will haunt me, the hurt just stays there. I try to take my mind off of it but it's difficult

[kavi ~he-him~]

also words hurt more than actions do

[kavi ~he-him~]

for me a broken and shatter heart feels worse then physical wounds

[kavi ~he-him~]

this is coming from someone's who's been hurt both physically and emotionally

[kavi ~he-him~]

guys Jonathan posted a drawing on Insta and I commented on it saying it looks amazing

[kavi ~he-him~]

he replied saying thanks and I replied asking him how he has been? and he replied back

[kavi ~he-him~]

guys I am a chicken I runaway I ran away from telling him how I feel but I love him

[kavi ~he-him~]

I went and said some sweet and positive things to SOW and they said thank you and they are glad to have me as a fan

[kavi ~he-him~]

OH MY GOD BEN JUST REPLIED TO ME

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THIS IS THE 3RD TIME HE REPLIED TO ME!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

guys remember when I said Jon is my true love?

[kavi ~he-him~]

well he is my true love

[kavi ~he-him~]

but....

[kavi ~he-him~]

SOW is also my true love


Bvb, sow, Palaye royale, Asking Alexandria and all my fav bands are my true love

[kavi ~he-him~]

SOW stole the key to my heart and now they have a special place in my heart permanently

[kavi ~he-him~]

they are my brothers my best friends.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I thank my best friend Jacky for getting me into SOW because if it wasn't for her I would never have found this band and I love this band so much