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[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't think it's a good idea to wear a binder especially because I get sick easily

[kavi ~he-him~]

like, half the time I am a guy stuck inside a girl's body and half the time I am neither genders half the time I am both

[kavi ~he-him~]

today is a both girl and boy day for me

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm not even out to my family or anyone irl as genderfluid yet

[kavi ~he-him~]

so I have to deal with the misgendering when I'm not on my girl days

[kavi ~he-him~]

also deal with my dead name being used irl

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want to wear a tux or a suit instead of a dress

[kavi ~he-him~]

so remember when I said we had 18 songs total


my bandmate says she had only one song when I asked her so we actually have 15 songs total well 16 cause I recently wrote a new song.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm thinking

4 of the songs might stay singles, and 12 songs might go into the album and then we can do an ep of 6 songs

[kavi ~he-him~]

so I wrote 60 reasons why I love SOW on twitter

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just really love this band so much

I love SOW
I love SOW
I love SOW

[kavi ~he-him~]

okay I think I'm the most SOW obsessed person out of my friends in my group

[kavi ~he-him~]

I mean, I wrote 60 reasons why I love them

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also I talk about them alot

[kavi ~he-him~]

oh my gods

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I JUST SANG ON LIVESTREAM IN FRONT OF EVERYONE

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I WAS SINGING FOR TWO HOURS

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I ACTUALLY SANG IN FRONT OF EVERYONE

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I DIDN'T THINK I COULD DO THAT I AM

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IDK HOW I FEEL RN


I FEEL PROUD

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I NEVER SANG BY MYSELF IN FRONT OF OTHER BEFORE OTHER THAN MY VOICE TEACHER

I'VE ALWAYS BEEN SO SHY

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AND NOW I JUST DID IT

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I had music on in the background BUT STILL

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wasn't even expecting myself to sing on livestream today

like I was just planning to do a livestream not even expecting myself to sing

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lillian wrote: "I'm so proud of you!"

THANK YOU

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "I wasn't even expecting myself to sing on livestream today

like I was just planning to do a livestream not even expecting myself to sing"

basically the first part of the livestream started out with me being goofy and wrestling with my big teddy bear

[kavi ~he-him~]

and then I went downstairs to get my laptop so I could play music in the background

[kavi ~he-him~]

and then I started dancing really terribly cause I was bored and then I started humming and then I asked if they wanted to hear me sing and my best friend said yes and then I just started singing

[kavi ~he-him~]

what if SOW joined my livestream and watched me sing

[kavi ~he-him~]

I sang and THEY ACTUALLY LIKED MY SINGING

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "I sang and THEY ACTUALLY LIKED MY SINGING"

SOW didn't join the livestream or watch me sing but the ppl that joined did

[kavi ~he-him~]

I sang in front of ppl that I don't even know


some ppl that I don't know joined the livestream

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the livestream was fun tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) "Jeff the Killer" ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~Sunflower's marido~ ~Valentine ghost~ wrote: "That's so cool! (I don't believe I've been here in a bit…)"

VAL HI

[kavi ~he-him~]

but seriously ppl actually like my singing.....


okay I'm going to go cry now because all my friends are so amazing and so sweet

[kavi ~he-him~]

I told SOW about this and they are happy

[kavi ~he-him~]

they replied to me, saying this


\\\Shadow of Whales\\\
that's so awesome!!! WAY TO GO!!! XD Is it up on your story right now?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just really love these guys and I thank these guys for believing in me,

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't know what I would've done if I haven't found these guys. Bvb is the one that influenced me to want to be in a band but SOW has also encouraged me to not give up they helped me so much in just a couple of weeks that I've known them they are the first band and they've always been there for me. And they made me laugh and smile and I just can never thank these guys enough

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they supported me too

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thank you!!!

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EVERYONE I AM TELEPORTING TO NEW YORK RN TO GIVE MY SOW BROTHERS A BIG HUG

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I feel the need to protect my big brothers

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love them too much and I won't let them down

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need them to smile and laugh I want them to keep smiling and not stop.

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I need them to be happy

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because their smiles are so gorgeous and cute and they are so contagious they can make anyone smile and their smiles can literally light up the world they can make anyone's day

I need them to smile all the time

[kavi ~he-him~]

CAN SOMEONE PUT ME IN A CANNON BALL AND SHOOT ME TO SOW? I MISS THEM!!

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okay I am going to go cry now because of how sweet SOW is

[kavi ~he-him~]

basically I said something sweet about SOW and my friend said that I am such a sweetheart to them and SOW replied to us saying it's true tho.