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[kavi ~he-him~]

tho maybe with all the future generation technology teleportation could be real in the future idk it could be possible

[kavi ~he-him~]

tho if teleportation was real first thing first I'm teleporting to where Jon is and I'm going to tell him how I feel and I'll hug him and then kiss him

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't want to be away from him anymore I can't

[kavi ~he-him~]

I also wish time travel was real so I can fix my mistakes and I can go back in time and relive the memories me and Jon had and then so I can just tell him how I felt

[kavi ~he-him~]

actually no not just that but to the times before we broke up so I could fought for him and tell him how I feel and tell him stuff that I should've told him before.

[kavi ~he-him~]

because I can't I don't want to be with anyone else, I know there are other ppl out there but none of them can compare to Jon none of them can replace Jon. Jon is like a unique and rare person and I don't want anyone else, I want him, I need him

[kavi ~he-him~]

And I can't love anyone else the same way I loved Jon

[kavi ~he-him~]

not a lot of ppl will understand the way I feel about him, and it'll be hard for you to understand because you are not us

[kavi ~he-him~]

2 years, I been in love for 2 years

[kavi ~he-him~]

I would've told him how I felt before we graduated last year but I couldn't find the right time and I didn't want to do it when I'm not ready and also life kept coming between us

[kavi ~he-him~]

two of the times I was ready and it was a perfect time to tell him and I was going to tell him but he didn't show

[kavi ~he-him~]

and then once I was going to write a poem for him and give it to him at the graduation, but then my dad read the poem and thought I was "desperate"

[kavi ~he-him~]

like I'm not desperate, I'm just in love

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm not trying to be clingy or desperate but I can't I tried to move on multiple times I tried to go for other ppl. I couldn't

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "tho maybe with all the future generation technology teleportation could be real in the future idk it could be possible"

someone invent a teleportation technology and don't make it expensive pls. do it soon!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

also guys, tomorrow is a special day for me

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's the day I confessed to Jon two years ago, the day we started dating

[kavi ~he-him~]

and the day after is the day I first told him "I love you" after we started dating

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know it was probably early to say "I love you" but I've known him months before I fell in love with him, we were friends first

[kavi ~he-him~]

I miss those days I miss all those moments we had together. I want him, I want his hugs I want to hug him and kiss him, I want to cuddle with him his hugs are my fav and they make me feel safe

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want him

[kavi ~he-him~]

so I'm playing that hunger games simulator thing again

[kavi ~he-him~]

Remi killed me

[kavi ~he-him~]

HALS MY FRIEND SNAZZY KILLED YOU!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lily you died

[kavi ~he-him~]

my best friend Tiina won XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

The Bloodbath
Remington kills Alex with her own weapon.

Day 1
Remington kills Jake for his supplies.
Snazzy silently snaps Jacky's neck.

Night 1
Snazzy kills Hallie for her supplies.

Day 2
CC bleeds out due to untreated injuries.
Ben cannot handle the circumstances and commits suicide.
Ash accidently detonates a land mine while trying to arm it.

Night 2
No deaths occurred.

Day 3
Snazzy sets an explosive off, killing Remington.

Night 3
Sebastian falls into a pit and dies.
Mike falls into a pit and dies.

Day 4
Snazzy throws a knife into Mariah's chest.

Arena Event
A tsunami rolls into the the arena.
Rami defeats Snazzy, but throws her in the water to make sure she dies.
Ashley fatally injures herself on debris.
Val and Bri smash their heads together as the tsunami rolls in, leaving them both to drown.
Inna holds Erin underwater to drown.
Mia fatally injures herself on debris.

Night 4
Inna severely slices Juliet with a sword.

The Feast
Rami sets an explosive off, killing Andy, and Cricky.

Day 5
No deaths occurred.

Night 5
No deaths occurred.

Day 6
No deaths occurred.

Night 6
No deaths occurred.

Day 7
Lillian bleeds out due to untreated injuries.

Night 7
No deaths occurred.

Day 8
Tiina severely injures Rami and leaves her to die.

Night 8
Tiina shoots a poisonous blow dart into Inna's neck, slowly killing her.
The winner is Tiina from District 4!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie poisons Mike's drink, but mistakes it for her own and dies.

[kavi ~he-him~]

MY FRIEND IS BACK AND ALIVE OML

[kavi ~he-him~]

I MISSED HER SO MUCH AND I WAS SO SCARED AND WORRIED

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'M SO HAPPY SHE'S ALIVE

[kavi ~he-him~]

new song

[kavi ~he-him~]

How can people love me?

Sometimes, I wonder how
People can love me
when I can't see
anything positive about myself.

How can people love me
when I can't even love myself?
Oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh

How can people love me
When I struggle with
so many insecurities?
When I struggle with
Self-hate and Self-consciousness

How can people love me
I struggle with Insecurities
I struggle with self-hate
I struggle with trust issues
I am not that
confident about myself.

How can people love me
When I struggle with
So many insecurities?
When I struggle with
Self-hate and Self-consciousness

How can people love me?
How can people love me?
When I struggle with
so many insecurities.

How can people love me?
When I struggle with
So many insecurities?
When I struggle with
self-hate and self-conscious

How can people love me?

[kavi ~he-him~]

already writing another song

[kavi ~he-him~]

what I have so far


Does it make you
feel good when you
bring other people down?
Does it make you
feel proud about yourself?

Does it make you
feel happy when you
make other people
feel bad about themselves

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm working on the chorus rn

[kavi ~he-him~]

5 years ago

[kavi ~he-him~]

I thought I was terrible at songwriting

[kavi ~he-him~]

now here I am with 13 songs written and I'm currently writing my 14th one

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lillian wrote: "Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "now here I am with 13 songs written and I'm currently writing my 14th one"

*applauds*"

*bows* THANK YOU

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'M CRYING I NEVER THOUGHT I'D GET THIS FAR

[kavi ~he-him~]

5 YEARS AGO I ALSO NEVER THOUGHT I'D BE IN A BAND AND I WASN'T EVEN THINKING ABOUT BEING IN ONE

[kavi ~he-him~]

AND NOW HERE I AM IN A BAND, A BAND THAT WAS CREATED BY ME! NOW THIS IS MY DREAM AND I AM HERE

[kavi ~he-him~]

*bows* THANK YOU *catches teddy bears*

[kavi ~he-him~]

one of my bandmates has 2 songs written so far so we have 15 songs total. Well since I'm currently writing my 14th song, pretty soon we'll have 16 songs

[kavi ~he-him~]

so basically we have more than enough songs for our first album

[kavi ~he-him~]

THANK YOU

[Wolf (Alpha)]

Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "one of my bandmates has 2 songs written so far so we have 15 songs total. Well since I'm currently writing my 14th song, pretty soon we'll have 16 songs"

YASSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!
My band is about the same. We have everyone finally. We almost have our album.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lillian wrote: "If I actually had money and you released an album I would buy it."

Thank you!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Wolf (Alpha) wrote: "Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "one of my bandmates has 2 songs written so far so we have 15 songs total. Well since I'm currently ..."

Yay!!! we have a singer a guitarist and a bassist but we don't have a drummer yet