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[kavi ~he-him~]

my friend told me to just let him be, and not to fight fire with fire. but he just made me angry

[kavi ~he-him~]

ppl like that make me so angry and I'm just really tired of seeing all the negativity in the world

[kavi ~he-him~]

but him saying that I have a mental illnesses?? that also makes me really pissed and angry

[kavi ~he-him~]

yes, I have depression and anxiety and autism, and I grew up with a learning disability and speech impairment I grew up with a lot of difficulties.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I had to go to speech therapy for YEARS. since I was little.

[kavi ~he-him~]

if I hadn't gone to speech therapy I wouldn't be able to talk like the way I do now.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ wrote: "Wow, I didn't know that! You're amazing though cause you don't let it stop you. I love you Alex. *hugs*"

thank you. I love you too Val *hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna brb

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm back

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ wrote: "I'm gonna go soon. Watch Olympics with the family."

okay

[kavi ~he-him~]

sorry, what he said kind of upset me. Idk why it upset me.

[kavi ~he-him~]

when a few of other ppl on the internet said some stuff to me I didn't get upset. well I did a little bit but I hid it. but this.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Thanks Bvb for cheering me up and calming me down. you always do

[kavi ~he-him~]

SHOKIE (SHINE) (Shine's back up account.) wrote: "Alex ~She/he/Them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "yes, I have depression and anxiety and autism, and I grew up with a learning disability and sp..."

I'm sorry sis <333333

[kavi ~he-him~]

SHOKIE (SHINE) (Shine's back up account.) wrote: "Alex ~She/he/Them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "SHOKIE (SHINE) (Shine's back up account.) wrote: "Alex ~She/he/Them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated..."

I do it too.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I do it more when my depression kicks in

[kavi ~he-him~]

I had to go to my room a couple of mins ago for a few mins cause it upset me. And I pretended that Andy was there and he was talking to me and it calmed me down

[kavi ~he-him~]

the Andy in my mind was telling me that it's okay and not to let them get to me.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wish my fav band lived close to me so I could just talk to them and hug them tightly and stuff

[kavi ~he-him~]

bvb always calms me down.

[kavi ~he-him~]

same with my other fav bands they calm me down too

[kavi ~he-him~]

SHOKIE (SHINE) (Shine's back up account.) wrote: "Alex ~She/he/Them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "I had to go to my room a couple of mins ago for a few mins cause it upset me. And I pretended ..."

I do it all the time it always helps me

[kavi ~he-him~]

SHOKIE (SHINE) (Shine's back up account.) wrote: "Alex ~She/he/Them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "same with my other fav bands they calm me down too"

Skillet does. And so does RED, Newsboys, ..."

I love Skillet

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna go to sleep or maybe write a song. I feel like writing a song night guys

[kavi ~he-him~]

I started writing a song last night. I didn’t finish it tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was tired so I fell asleep and Idk what else to write

[kavi ~he-him~]

I tend to write my songs based of my feelings and thoughts

[kavi ~he-him~]

I should probably finish my song

[kavi ~he-him~]

Welp random person on Insta just dmed me calling me ugly

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Alex ~She/he/Them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Welp random person on Insta just dmed me calling me ugly"

Who >:( I will messaged that b*tch.


Also today I feel like a guy

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sylveon~Raven wrote: "Alex ~She/he/Them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Welp random person on Insta just dmed me calling me ugly"

Who >:( I will messaged that b*tch...."


Their username is heirmeinfuhrer_v1


I feel like a guy today too

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

YAY

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ wrote: "WE ARE ALL GUYS!!!"

YAY

[kavi ~he-him~]

I sent that person a pic of Andy with his middle finger up 😂😂😂

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hope he enjoys it

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Wanna see my poem? Maybe Alex can turn it into a song XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sylveon~Raven wrote: "Wanna see my poem? Maybe Alex can turn it into a song XD"

sure!!

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

My feelings are glass
They break
Dropped carelessly on the hardwood floor
They shatter
Scattered across
Dangerous pieces
Poking from the ground
Threatening to stab those who walk around
Replaced
Lost
Disgraced
Pieces so small
you can never repair
Lost deep down
Bent to be forgotten
Swept up with despair
But if you show you care
Then I will hold the things you like
Secrets that you want
Things you need

[kavi ~he-him~]

he saw it but didn't reply XD

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "he saw it but didn't reply XD"

He's probably in shock XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

gonna send it to everyone that pisses me off or tries to insult me

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Thanks

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sylveon~Raven wrote: "My feelings are glass
They break
Dropped carelessly on the hardwood floor
They shatter
Scattered across
Dangerous pieces
Poking from the ground
Threatening to stab those who walk around
Replaced
Lo..."

THAT'S AMAZING BRO

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sylveon~Raven wrote: "Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "he saw it but didn't reply XD"

He's probably in shock XD"

XD

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Thanks bro :D

[kavi ~he-him~]

^this is why ppl shouldn't mess with me or my friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

when ppl try to bring you down, but you just give them a middle finger

[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel like going on pinterest

[kavi ~he-him~]

gonna try this

[kavi ~he-him~]