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[kavi ~he-him~]

So, I can wear a tux now?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wanna wear a tux to future parties but I’m afraid because of ppl.....

[Naofumi Iwatani (from The Rising of The Shield Hero)]

LOL

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ wrote: "I'm gonna wear a tux as well someday! ;)"

Lillian wrote: "A ~He/him~ wrote: "So, I can wear a tux now?"

A ~He/him~ wrote: "I wanna wear a tux to future parties but I’m afraid because of ppl....."

I wear a tux all the time. Where what you want to Alex. D..."

Thanks guys I love you guys so much

[kavi ~he-him~]

^¬^The Master^¬^ wrote: "LOL"

Hi

[Naofumi Iwatani (from The Rising of The Shield Hero)]

Hi

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hi 365th viewer

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ wrote: "Me? ;)"

XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hi 366th viewer

[Naofumi Iwatani (from The Rising of The Shield Hero)]

Who is that?

[Naofumi Iwatani (from The Rising of The Shield Hero)]

Ok, I am cunfuzzled

[kavi ~he-him~]

same!! XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

Y'ALL 5 MORE DAYS AHHHH AKHESUEHSK I'M SO EXCITED!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna yell I love you to the bvb guys and AA guys

[kavi ~he-him~]

at the concert AHHHHHHHHH

[kavi ~he-him~]

also Inna aka my mom liked my comment yesterday


not really my mom but I call her mom.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want a big brother

[kavi ~he-him~]

Irl I only have a twin brother. he is one minute older than me but still

[kavi ~he-him~]

All the bvb guys except for Jake are like my big brothers

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wonder what would happen if I meet the bvb guys and Inna irl and I call all the bvb guys except for Jake big brothers, and I call Jake and Inna dad and mom

[kavi ~he-him~]

I call Inna and Jake mom and dad on twitter and Insta anyways so

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'll just tell them I consider them as big brothers and Inna and Jake mom and Dad

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jake did give me a thumbs up on twitter when I asked him and Inna if I could call them mom and dad

I'm still not over that

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ wrote: "Then maybe they'd be cool with it! ;)"

Jake and Inna consider us all as their family so.

[kavi ~he-him~]

A ~They/them~ wrote: "Jake did give me a thumbs up on twitter when I asked him and Inna if I could call them mom and dad

I'm still not over that"

basically when he replied to me, I just saw his name in my mentions, and at first I was just shocked, and then I started screaming and fangirling on the inside and I was like suffocating on the inside cause I was fangirling so hard (autocorrect decided to changed Fangirling to fingerling XD AUTOCORRECT THAT IS NOT A WORD XDDDD) and I was just so happy and stuff.

[kavi ~he-him~]

it feels so good to get noticed by my faves like it makes me so happy even it's "just a like"

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ wrote: "Suffocation by pure joy! XD

(I know, autocorrect is always "correcting" my words to non-existent ones)"

YES XD

(same XD)

[kavi ~he-him~]

I still remember the day Andy followed me on Insta, I'm still not over that either.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wish there was a way to know who our soulmate is irl.

[kavi ~he-him~]

then love would be a lot less complicated.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ wrote: "My soulmate's a Korean man! XD"

XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

tbh I've had the thought or feelings that Jonathan was my soulmate, because of the way I feel about him and stuff. I love him and after we met and became friends I started feeling something special about him and then after a while I fell in love with him, and when we started dating I had the feeling that he was the one for me and we were meant to be together and then we broke up and we became friends again, and I was still in love with him and then I tried to move on and go for other ppl but it didn't work because I just went back to Jon, not because I'm desperate, I'm not desperate, but there is just something about him. I feel like I can't really love anyone the way I loved Jon. Even if it's been a long time since the break up I was still in love with him, and even now I'm still in love with him, but rn I'm trying to take a break from my feelings and move on for now and see what happens. But I keep finding myself thinking about him and he comes into my dreams a lot. we've been separated for months now so.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

somehow, he can see through my mask, and see if I'm sad even if I'm trying to hide it. he's done it before. He is one of the reasons I'm still alive. he's one of the main reasons I stopped scratching myself two years ago, he doesn't know it but he saved my life. he keeps me safe from my demons.

[kavi ~he-him~]

btw, this month two years ago, was the month I fell in love with him.

[kavi ~he-him~]

somehow he can make me smile uncontrollably even when I'm not in the mood. He cheers me up just by being there. with him. I hate him for that but I love him. I love it when we are playful with each other. He makes me feel so when I talk to him, He loves me for ME, He cares about me for ME, he accepts me for ME!!! He makes me feel safe to be myself around him and he won't judge me. He knows how awkward I am, and he still doesn't judge me. He's funny, and kind, and smart, and nice, and I just really love him. I've only known him for two years but I feel like I've known him forever.

[kavi ~he-him~]

he's not perfect because no one is perfect and we all have flaws but to me he's just....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know I should be trying to take a break from my feelings for him. But I just....

[kavi ~he-him~]

y'all I think I might be done taking a break from my feelings because I can't....but idk.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate him for making me feel the way I do, but I love him for making me feel like this because he's my best friend

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate him
I love him
I love him
I miss him

[kavi ~he-him~]

A ~They/them~ wrote: "I hate him
I love him
I love him
I miss him"

I don't really hate him but.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I tried moving on and letting him go 3 times. it didn't work.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't let him go, I can't move on. Because something in me won't let me. I can't let him go because my feelings for him just keep coming back stronger, everything about him just makes me fall in love with him.

[kavi ~he-him~]

8 months

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's now been 8 months, we're separated from each other. Usually, the feelings would've faded by now. but instead my feelings for him never faded.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I never felt this way about anyone before him. I had crushes before him but I never fell in love with him. Jon was the first person I ever fell in love with him

[kavi ~he-him~]

okay I can't, it hurts to be away from him, I need him. it hurts so much I can physically see him. I need him. I miss him. I love him.

[kavi ~he-him~]

just gonna say this

[kavi ~he-him~]

allies are NOT part of the LGBTQ+ community.

[kavi ~he-him~]

and also asexual ARE a part of the LGBTQ+ community and they deserve safe spaces too!!!