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going on Pinterest cause I'm bored

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my best friends went out to meet each other a couple of weeks ago and I didn't even know about it so I missed it :(

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we're still in the anime club group chat on kik and my friends were talking about meeting up, but I didn't see it until the day after the day they met up. so I missed it

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I miss them....especially Jon and Alana and Annette ugh

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and I know I said I was trying to move on from Jon for now, but that doesn't mean I'm going let go of my friendship. Jonathan is my best friend and I've known him for 2 years now, and I will never let go of our friendship.

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and I'm not going to lie I still love him I will always love him. I just don't want to stress over him or anyone anymore.

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but sometimes especially at night I still find myself thinking about him and my love for him. And I miss him.

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idk if he's the one for me or if it's someone else but....

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maybe he is the one idk for sure but....

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ugh my heart confuses me.

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tbh I miss Jonathan and I miss our moments, and I miss him.

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but....

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I just want true love and I just want the one. I never stopped believing in true love

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Love is complicated.....

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Lillian wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "maybe he is the one idk for sure but...."

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "idk if he's the one for me or ..."

yeah, that is true. *hugs* that's why I'm trying to move on from Jon for now, I won't let go of our friendship tho, but I'm just trying to see what happens, but it's difficult because I've tried before and it didn't work I just end up falling in love even more. it's been 7 months since we last saw each other so....

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I feel like the more I try to deny my feelings for him the more I just fall in love

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but then again sometimes ppl do get separated from each other even if they are the one for each other but eventually they just come back to each other

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Lillian wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "I feel like the more I try to deny my feelings for him the more I just fall in love"

I don't have that problem with people. I can actu..."

it's hard with me, like I had crushes before him and I got over them, but then they were just crushes and I don't even know why I liked them because it just hurt me, and when I first started developing feelings for Jon, two years ago, I didn't want a crush on him or anyone because I didn't want to get hurt, and I tried to deny my feelings for him, but it didn't work, after a while I just accepted my feelings for him.

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but idk what I should do rn.

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I am asexual, Jonathan isn't.

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Lillian wrote: "I hope everything works out for you Kavy. I just don't want to see you get hurt."

Thanks Lily I love you

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and I'm also 60 % gay

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I lean more towards girls than boys

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but I'm open towards anyone

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Why do I do this to myself?

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question: is it possible to be open towards anyone regardless of their gender, but lean more to one side than the other?

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I'm gonna put Jonathan in the hunger games simulator because why not XD

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I killed CC XD

LILLIAN ASHLEY KILLED YOU

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Kavy, Ben, Rosh, and Jonathan raid Remington's camp while he is hunting.

sorry Remi

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my best friend Tiina killed me XD

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Remi died

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Mariah, Rosh, and Val unsuccessfully ambush Inna, Erin, and Ash Costello, who kill them instead.

Hallie, Jake, Andie, and Emerson form a suicide pact, killing themselves.

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Ben killed Jon XD

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ERIN YOU KILLED BEN XD

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Erin, Ash Costello, Tiina, and Jinxx raid Inna's camp while she is hunting.

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A volcano erupts at the center of the arena.

Inna survives.

Erin survives.

Jinxx pushes Ash Costello in the lava.

Tiina survives.

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A swarm of tracker jackers invades the arena.

While running away from the tracker jackers, Jinxx grabs Tiina and throws her to the ground.

Erin slowly dies from the tracker jacker toxins.

Inna slowly dies from the tracker jacker toxins.

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JINXX WON XD

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The Bloodbath
Ahana falls into a pit and dies.
Kavy shoots a poisonous blow dart into CC's neck, slowly killing him.
Ashley Purdy kills Lillian with a hatchet.

Day 1
Andy bleeds out due to untreated injuries.
Mariah throws a knife into Ashley Purdy's head.

Night 1
Tiina stabs Kavy in the back with a trident.
Sebastian severely slices Juliet with a sword.

Day 2
Remington dies of dysentery.

Night 2
Mariah, Rosh, and Val unsuccessfully ambush Inna, Erin, and Ash Costello, who kill them instead.
Hallie, Jake, Andie, and Emerson form a suicide pact, killing themselves.

The Feast
Inna ambushes Sebastian and kills him.
Tiina stabs Ashley while her back is turned.
Ben snaps Jonathan's neck.

Day 3
No deaths occurred.

Night 3
Erin shoots a poisonous blow dart into Ben's neck, slowly killing him.

Day 4
No deaths occurred.

Arena Event
A volcano erupts at the center of the arena.
Jinxx pushes Ash Costello in the lava.

Night 4
No deaths occurred.

Day 5
No deaths occurred.

Arena Event
A swarm of tracker jackers invades the arena.
While running away from the tracker jackers, Jinxx grabs Tiina and throws her to the ground.
Erin slowly dies from the tracker jacker toxins.
Inna slowly dies from the tracker jacker toxins.
The winner is Jinxx from District 12!

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Ashley Purdy and Erin threaten a double suicide. It fails and they die.

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Lily Juliet killed you

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Ash killed Jinxx

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Ash Costello forces Ashley to kill Val or Jonathan. She refuses to kill, so Ash Costello kills her instead.

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Jon killed Juju XD

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A swarm of tracker jackers invades the arena.

Sebastian survives.

Ash Costello slowly dies from the tracker jacker toxins.

Rosh is stung to death.

Hallie survives.

Ahana survives.

Remington and Andie run out of places to run and are stung to death.

Kavy survives.

Val survives.

Inna survives.

Jonathan slowly dies from the tracker jacker toxins.

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Hals, Val killed you XD

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Ahana destroys Kavy's supplies while she is asleep.

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Val you died

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Inna, Ahana, and Sebastian track down and kill Kavy.

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The arena turns pitch black and nobody can see a thing.

Sebastian finds and kills Ahana, who was making too much noise.

Inna trips on a rock and falls off a cliff.