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[kavi ~he-him~]

it's sucks because
I was getting better
and now I'm not.

-pinterest

[kavi ~he-him~]

truth

[kavi ~he-him~]

5 things to quit
right now.

1. Trying to please everyone.
2. Fearing change.
3. Living in the past.
4. Putting yourself down.
5. Overthinking.

[kavi ~he-him~]

-Pierce the veil

[jericho]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "
5 things to quit
right now.

1. Trying to please everyone.
2. Fearing change.
3. Living in the past.
4. Putting yourself down.
5. Overthinking.
"

kavs you're pleasing me just being who you are <3333

[kavi ~he-him~]

Ben Smith wrote: "Kavy?"

Yes?

[kavi ~he-him~]

thelma wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "
5 things to quit
right now.

1. Trying to please everyone.
2. Fearing change.
3. Living in the past.
4. Putting yourself down.
5..."

Thanks <3 I love you Thels

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jon posts on insta:

Me: *heart starts beating faster*

Every time he says something in the group chat on kik:

Me: *heart starts beating faster*

Every time I see him irl, even tho it's been 5 months since I've seen him in person:

Me: *heart starts beating faster*

[kavi ~he-him~]

Ben Smith wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Ben Smith wrote: "Kavy?"

Yes?"

Are we still friends?"

Yes

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Jon posts on insta:

Me: *heart starts beating faster*

Every time he says something in the group chat on kik:

Me: *heart starts beating faster*

Every time I see him irl, even tho it's been 5 mon..."

he's the only one that can make me feel that way

[kavi ~he-him~]

I commented on his post. Hehehehe

[kavi ~he-him~]

also, I had a dream last night that I had a bf named Jonathan, it wasn't my Jonathan but a different Jonathan. It was the Jonathan from Stranger Things.

[jericho]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "thelma wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "
5 things to quit
right now.

1. Trying to please everyone.
2. Fearing change.
3. Living in the past.
4. Putting y..."

love you too <3333

[jericho]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "I commented on his post. Hehehehe"

at least you can be near him, talk to him, comment on his post without freaking out. me- don't get me started

[kavi ~he-him~]

thelma wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "I commented on his post. Hehehehe"

at least you can be near him, talk to him, comment on his post without freaking out. me- don't..."

he lives 28 minutes away from me. I haven't seen him in person for 5 months. I can't even be away from him for 2 days without missing him so much it hurts. I haven't even texted him for 4 months except for talking in the group chat sometimes and wishing him a happy birthday. He's also busy with work and I'm busy with college

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wish I'd told him how I felt before I graduated from high school.

[kavi ~he-him~]

but I kept getting scared.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I miss him
I love him
I need him

[jericho]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "thelma wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "I commented on his post. Hehehehe"

at least you can be near him, talk to him, comment on his post without freaking..."
i remember wishing my crush a happy bday- most awkward convo i've ever had!

[kavi ~he-him~]

oh wait, I remember at his graduation party, he had this stuffed worm where you can sign on it and I signed "Hey Jon, you're so nice and kind and amazing, and I <3 you, Kavya"

[jericho]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "oh wait, I remember at his graduation party, he had this stuffed worm where you can sign on it and I signed "Hey Jon, you're so nice and kind and amazing, and I <3 you, Kavya""

woahhhhhhh what did he sayyyy

[kavi ~he-him~]

thelma wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "oh wait, I remember at his graduation party, he had this stuffed worm where you can sign on it and I signed "Hey Jon, you're so ni..."

I'm not sure if he saw it or not.

[kavi ~he-him~]

he didn't really say anything about it.

[jericho]

darn.

[kavi ~he-him~]

then there was this other time....

[jericho]

oooooh what other time????

[kavi ~he-him~]

https://www.instagram.com/p/BVqj5-IAHwo/

^I posted this pic on Insta and I tagged all of my best friends, including Jon and I said "I <3 you guys"


AND HE SAW IT!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

he was the first person to like the post and the second person to comment on it. He said "cheesy but thanks"

[jericho]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "he was the first person to like the post and the second person to comment on it. He said "cheesy but thanks""

WOAH WHERE IS THE I LOVE YOU BACK JON- WHAT BOY YOU--------

[kavi ~he-him~]

she's an amazing artist

[kavi ~he-him~]

I miss my high school friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's the hardest part of leaving high school

[jericho]

Ben Smith wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "it's the hardest part of leaving high school"

#iknowhowyoufeel"

#idonot

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "I want him to be the guy I marry in the future *blushes and hides face*"

I remember that day I decided I wanted Jon to be the one I marry in the future

[jericho]

Ben Smith wrote: "thelma wrote: "Ben Smith wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "it's the hardest part of leaving high school"

#iknowhowyoufeel"

#idonot"

#youwillin4ishyears"

no

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "so I pretty much spent most of today, with my Jon and our friends."

remember this day. my friends and I did non-prom where we just did our own thing instead of going to prom

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "And then in anime club:

We were watching Grave of the flies (a studio ghibli film) and I was sitting next to Jonathan the whole time, and we were sorta talking and watching at the same time, and a..."

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Then after anime club:

Me, Jon, and Carlos were walking back to the main building.

Me: Jon
Jon: hm? *looks at me*
Me: *points to the ground* don't look at this *laughs*
Jon: oh, oh yeah. *grabs m..."

I remember this too *blushes*

[kavi ~he-him~]

that day, we were walking back from anime club and then Jon just grabs me and pulls me close to him. *blushes*

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "So the other day I said Rawr to Jon, and Rawr means "I love you" in dinosaur so basically I said "I love you" to Jon I just didn't say it in English 😂😂"

I remember when I did this XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Me: *steals Jonathan's cookie*
Jonathan: no *trying to get it back*
Me: *holds it away from him*
Jonathan: *grabs my arm and pulls it back to him and grabs the cookie*"


I remember when I stole his cookie XD. I love messing with him XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also I forgot to mention:

last friday, it was the day after National high five day, but Jonathan wasn't there the day before so last friday:

Me: so Jon, yesterday was National High five day
Jonat..."

XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "At lunch:

Jonathan: *walks in*
Me: Hey
Jonathan: hey
Me: you got a hair cut!!
Jonathan: yeah *walks over to the seat next to mine*
Me: I'll brb
Jonathan: okay
Me: *goes and gets some cookies and c..."

ahh, I remember that day when I pushed Jon playfully and he pushed me back playfully so that I almost fell out of my chair

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Thanks also I stole Jon's lunch box and I fell backwards while trying to get away XD"

I remember when I stole Jon's lunch. XD And I fell while trying to run away, he didn't even chase me. XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "He was with David so I went over to them and I was like, "BROMANCE!! BROMANCE! I SHIP IT" XD and then i was like trying to push Jonathan and David together cause i shipped them as bromance XD"

Ahh I remember when I was trying ship Jon and our friend David together as bromance and I kept trying to push them together whenever I see them together XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "and then after the group photo:

Me: *walks over to Jonathan and hugs him and puts my chin on his shoulder*
Jon: *hugs me back, and pulls me against him*
Carlos: So, are you to back together, now?
..."

ahh remember when me and Jon hugged and Carlos asked us if we were back together and Jon went like "YEAH"

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "when I was taking a pic with Jon, I had my arm around Jon's waist, and he had his arm around my shoulder, and his mom's friend, she was taking the pics, and she was like, "aww cute""

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "And then me, Jonathan, Carlos, David, and Annette were taking a group pic, and then I had my arm around Jon and my head on his arm

and then one of his family members was like, "cute!""

I remember at Jon's graduation party I put my arms around him when we were taking pics and his family called us cute

[kavi ~he-him~]

Ben Smith wrote: "Can I use that Dino language?"

go ahead

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also I forgot to mention:

last friday, it was the day after National high five day, but Jonathan wasn't there the day before so l..."

so about this day, it was the day after National high five day and Jon wasn't here the. day before so I was trying to high five him, but he was like no, so I high fived his face instead XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "He was with David so I went over to them and I was like, "BROMANCE!! BROMANCE! I SHIP IT" XD and then i was like trying to push Jo..."

I still ship them btw. Jonathan x David= Javid


Sorry Jon, even tho I know he's not on here XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

3 more weeks until the new AA album comes out!! And 3 more weeks until I finish my first semester of college